Chapter Eight
Mira
I stood there awkwardly staring down the hall at Paisley’s retreating figure.
In the span of not even thirty minutes I went from having a great time with Paisley, to being called a whore.
To then having Paisley defend me, and to finally being embarrassed Finn now knew I had a crush on him in high school.
If I stood still long enough maybe he would forget I was even in the house and the floor would open up and swallow me.
“Shit, I’m sorry Mira.” Finn moved toward me and I put my hand up fending off his advance.
“It’s fine Finn, I should go. Savannah made it pretty clear she doesn’t want me around Paisley or you.
” It hurt to say that, but I didn’t want to come between Paisley and her mother.
Even if she wasn’t much of one. I adored Paisley, and Finn well that crush hadn’t gone away in all the years he’d been gone.
“Fuck what Savannah wants or doesn’t want. She doesn’t get a say in who is in our lives anymore, she made sure of that.” I wasn’t sure what he meant by that, but it was clear Savannah wasn’t over Finn. They would probably get back together soon based on how she acted tonight.
“I’m sure you don’t really mean that Finn.
She was your wife for fourteen years; you can’t just turn off those emotions.
” As much as I would love for him to be able to say he didn’t have any feelings toward Savannah anymore, that wasn’t possible.
You couldn’t be married to someone for as long as they were and still not have leftover feelings.
“Mira, when I say we are through I mean we are through. I didn’t fall out of love with my wife; she killed our marriage.
Come sit down and I’ll explain what happened.
If afterwards you still want to leave I won’t stop you, but please just hear me out.
” Finn reached for my hand and I reluctantly gave it to him.
As soon as our hands touched it was like a spark of current went through my entire body.
Yep, definitely not over the crush I had on this man.
It’s probably even stronger now that he’s all grown up and still a hottie.
I let him lead me over to the couch and we sat facing each other.
Over the next few minutes Finn explains to me what happened from him getting injured to the divorce and everything in between. How could Savannah do that to him? How could she do that to Paisley? I was angry and hurt for both of them.
“I’m so sorry Finn, I had no idea.” I reached over and squeezed his hand in comfort. The last year couldn’t have been easy on him or Paisley. It made me want to go down the hall and hug her again.
“So you see Savannah has no say in how we live. I try to stay on good terms for the most part because of Paisley, but she honestly doesn’t have any rights where she’s concerned.” I can tell Finn is hurting for his daughter. How can a mother not want to be in her child's life?
“Clearly Savannah thinks she still has some kind of stake where you two on concerned. Maybe she’s realized she made a mistake. I don’t want to come between Paisley and her mom.” I also want to scratch Savannah’s eyes out for what she’s done to them, but I’ll keep that to myself.
“Well Paisley made it very clear tonight that she wants you around. Savannah will either have to get over it or piss off. Especially after Paisley's revelation about how Savannah acted while I was deployed. Paisley was right. I was blind, because I thought Savannah loved us. I was wrong. I’d really like it if you would continue to be a friend to Paisley, I think she needs someone in her life she can depend on, that's a woman.” This time he reached over and squeezed my hand and gave me a panty melting smile. Why did this man do crazy things to my insides? Wake up Mira, he wants you in his daughter’s life he didn’t say anything about his life.
Besides, like Savannah pointed out, I would be a downgrade from her.
“I’ll be there for Paisley whenever she needs me. Tell her to call me day or night and I’ll be happy to talk or go shopping with her.” There I could make it only about his daughter. I could ignore my attraction to him, totally doable. Keep lying to yourself Mira, I’m sure that’s healthy.
“I’d like you in my life too Mira. That is if you want to be.” He gave me a wink then grinned at me, and I couldn’t help but return it. Yep, totally going to be able to ignore my feelings for this man.
“Of course I’ll be there for you Finn, that’s what friends are for.” He grimaced at my response before covering it up with that heart stopping smile of his.
“Yeah, Mira I didn’t mean as a friend.” He scooted closer to me before cupping my jaw and caressing my cheek.
My body heated with desire just from that little touch.
Then his lips descended onto mine. The first touch of his lips were so soft, barely a whisper, but then he groaned and pushed me back onto the couch.
Suddenly what started as a gentle kiss escalated to a full on make out session.
Our hands were everywhere at once, caressing, touching, and groping.
It was like we were back in high school, and he was trying to get to second base, while I was already aiming for a homerun.
How had we gone from zero to sixty in less than five minutes?
My brain was trying to catch up to my body but with his tongue licking up the side of my neck I couldn’t focus on anything.
“Finn?” I tried to ask.
“Hmm?” He responded as he continued his route down my neck and nibbled my ear eliciting a moan from me.
“Finn?” I tried again with what I hoped was more force but came out as more breathy than forceful. His hand roamed up my thigh, under my dress till he reached the top of my thigh highs.
“Holy fuck Mira, you’re wearing thigh highs.
Please tell me there’s a garter belt they’re attached to.
” I didn’t have to tell him because he found the garter belt they were attached to that led up to my belly.
He made a growl of approval before his fingers continued to explore.
My mind was getting hazy with his hands in places I only dreamed about before.
I wanted nothing more than for him to continue his exploration, but Paisley was just down the hall. She didn’t need to walk in on us.
“Finn. Finn, what about Paisley down the hall. We can’t be doing this here.” I whisper yelled at him when he grinned up at me as his fingers traced the strap on my thong. His hand froze as if he just realized we weren’t alone in the house.
“Shit, I’m sorry I got carried away. You just looked so…
and then my hands had a mind of their own and…
shit. You’re right we can’t do this right here.
” When he stood, I was sure he was going to ask me to leave.
That he couldn’t continue with his daughter in the house.
Then he reached his hand out for me to take.
“My room is on the other side of the house, and the walls are really thick. She won’t even be able to hear you scream my name when I make you come all over my dick.
” My tongue stuck to the roof of my mouth, and it was hard to swallow, and my panties were practically jumping off my body.
Reaching for his hand I let him lead me to his bedroom.
There was a part of me that was worried about looking easy, maybe even desperate, but then my vagina took over and said go get some.
Even if this was the one and only time, I got to be with Finn I was taking it.
Reality hit as soon as he hit the light switch.
The room was bathed in the soft yellow glow from the ceiling fan over the bed.
The four-poster bed was neatly made, probably because of his time in the service, with a navy-blue comforter and matching pillowcases.
I was in Finn’s bedroom. I was in Finn’s bedroom about to have sex with the man I had a crush on since high school.
What was I thinking? He was about to see me naked.
I was no Savannah; I wasn’t even close to what Savannah looked like.
Savannah’s words came back to me clear as day, ‘I’m sure he’ll be comparing you to me when he’s fucking you’.
“Maybe this isn’t such a good idea.” I pull my hand from Finn’s and he looks at me with disappointment in his eyes.
“Shit, I knew I was moving too fast. If you aren’t ready for us to take this step I understand. I can wait.” I blinked a few times at him. Ready for this step? What did that mean? This was just sex, wasn’t it?
“I meant what I said back there Mira I want you in my life too. As soon as I heard your voice on the phone today, I was hooked. You were cute back in high school, but you’ve grown into a hot as fuck woman.
” I can’t breathe; he thought I was cute back in high school.
He thinks I’m hot as fuck now, I think I might pass out.
“Uh, I don’t even know what to say to that. I’m not Savannah, I’m not even close to her level Finn. She wasn’t lying when she said you’d be downgrading with me.” I can’t even look at him when I say it, not ready for the rejection I’ll see. Then his finger is on my chin lifting my eyes to his.
“You are definitely not a downgrade, you would be the upgrade. Watching you today with Paisley was like the icing on the cake for me. Not only are you delectable, but you're caring and compassionate. Those are things that Savannah clearly never had. She was all show and no substance. I don’t want that, I want someone with substance, but also did I mention how fuckable you are.” He gave me a mischievous grin and I was practically putty in his hands.
“Don’t say I didn’t warn you.” I said before I grabbed the back of his neck and brought his lips down to mine. If he was disappointed after tonight then at least I got this one night.