Diary #10
Diary #10
Dear Mom,
Have you ever felt so happy in one moment and broken in another? That’s how it feels right now, with Maddox gone. Our night together was everything I knew it would be, but I miss him even more now. The loneliness isn’t as consuming, though. Having friends has helped, and some of my clients I’ve gotten close to. It just sucks because I wish I could meet them in person.
It’s kind of my life though—I can’t have it all.
Every morning, I wake up and I promise myself I won’t check the message board. I think I need some space from Maddox to heal. Not that I blame him, I don’t. I understand and I know what he’s doing isn’t easy, but it still hurts.
The thing I’ve noticed, though, I’m not as weak as I once was. It hurts to miss him, but I’m not lost anymore, and I’m really starting to like the Darcie I’m becoming.
Love you,
Darcie