Diary #9
Diary #9
Dear Maddox,
I had a moment today where I wasn’t thinking about you, and it scared me. I didn’t expect to like where I am so much. These guys are showing me things I didn’t think I could feel anymore.
If you were here, it might just be perfect.
That might sound weird, but it would. I know things with us have been broken for a while, but I never stopped loving you. I don’t think I know how.
I didn’t expect to ever like anyone else the way I did you, but I’m starting to.
These guys are different. They’re good people. I think you’d get along great with them, honestly.
I might be wishing for too much, but since this is my diary and you’ll never read it, I can.
I rode again today, and it was marvelous. I’m going to do it again. I need to. I think stopping was a mistake.
Even though I know why I did, now I wonder if I hadn’t, if I would’ve stayed away so long. Maybe that was the point.
Things are changing, though. I feel different. I feel stronger.
I’m getting to be the Darcie I always believed I was.
I hope you get to meet her. I think you’d love her even more.
Love,
Darcie