Chapter 16

September. The divorce finalizes.

I sit in Heather's office and sign my name fourteen times. Fourteen — I notice because of course I do. Each signature on a different page. Asset division. Debt assignment. Name restoration. Waiver of alimony. Release of claims.

Marco signed his copy last week. His lawyer sent them over. Clean, uncontested. He didn't fight a single term.

"That's it," Heather says. "Once the judge signs off — which is a formality — you're done. Should be processed within two weeks."

"And the credit line?"

"Assigned entirely to him. His debt. His responsibility."

"The co-signed lease?"

"Also his. Brooke defaulted — he owes approximately $7,400 to the landlord. That's between him and the property management company."

"My share of the joint savings?"

"Wire transfer to your credit union account within five business days. $13,430."

I nod. I collect my copies. I walk out of her office — eleven steps to the elevator. Thirty-two to the parking lot. I sit in my car.

$13,430 arrives in five days. Plus my current savings: $11,400. Plus Brooke's payments to date: $1,500 (three months). Total liquid assets after divorce: $26,330.

I was at $114 once. I was at $3,200 twelve weeks ago. Now I'm at $26,330 and climbing.

The house on Archer Street sold in August. I saw the "SOLD" sticker on the listing. Someone else lives there now — someone whose partner didn't empty their savings account into another woman's life.

I'm not angry about the house anymore. I was, for about two weeks in July. A hot, useless anger that didn't produce anything. Now I've moved past it the way I move past a shift: it happened, I survived it, I documented the lessons, I moved on.

The new plan: I don't need Archer Street. I need ANY house that's mine. And at my current savings rate — $2,000/month — I'll have enough for a modest down payment by spring. Six months. A house by my thirty-third birthday.

Smaller than Archer Street. Probably a condo. Maybe a two-bedroom in the complex on Willow Drive — they list around $215,000. Down payment: $21,500. I'll have that by February.

I start the car. I drive — not home. To Willow Drive. I park outside the complex and look at it. Newer construction. Brick. Balconies. Assigned parking. A woman walks out with a dog — waves at me like I belong here.

I could belong here.

Inside, I sit on the couch that used to be ours and is now mine and I call Marco. First time in weeks.

He picks up on the second ring. "Nina?"

"The divorce is finalized. I just signed."

Silence. Then: "I know. I signed last week."

"I wanted to — I don't know. I wanted you to hear it from me that it's done."

"Thank you." His voice is tired. "I'm... I'm sorry, Nina. For all of it."

"I know."

"The lease thing — the landlord sent me a payment plan. $400 a month. It'll take almost two years."

"I'm sorry."

"Don't be. I co-signed it. That's on me."

We're quiet. I count the seconds. Eight.

"Are you okay?" I ask. I don't know why I ask. Reflex. Six years of marriage. The habit of caring about whether someone is eating, sleeping, surviving.

"I'm okay. Working a lot. Danny keeps me busy." A pause. "Are you working tonight?"

"No. Off until Tuesday."

"Good. Rest." Another pause. "I miss — I miss us. The before."

"The before wasn't real, Marco. The before was happening while you were sending her money."

"I know. I just—" He stops. "You're right. I'm sorry."

"Take care of yourself."

"You too."

I hang up. That's the last time I'll call him. I know this the way I know twelve tiles and forty-three steps — with certainty. The marriage is a closed file now. The case is discharged.

I make dinner. One portion. Eat at the table. Wash the dishes. One plate. One fork.

Then I open my phone and text Sadie: How are things?

She replies within minutes: I talked to a lawyer. I have a consultation Monday. The transfers are at $3,600 now — he sent another $1,400 last week. I haven't confronted yet. Waiting like you said.

Good. Get the lawyer's advice first. Then decide.

Thank you. How are YOU?

Divorce finalized today.

Oh. Are you okay?

I think about it. Am I okay? I'm divorced. I'm thirty-two. I have $26,330. I work nights. I live alone.

I'm counting forward instead of backward. That's something.

I don't know what that means but it sounds right.

I smile. Actually smile — the first time in weeks that my face has done that without me making it.

It means I used to count what was taken. Now I count what's building.

I'll get there too?

You will.

I put the phone down. I don't set an alarm — nowhere to be tomorrow. Brush teeth. Bed.

Then I get into bed. My bed. In my apartment. My name on the lease, my paycheck in my account, my plan in my head.

$26,330. $2,000 per month. Six months to a down payment.

I fall asleep counting forward. Each number is bigger than the last.

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