Chapter 8
Stormy
He never will? As in he’d never let me go? I get up to pace the floor. Do I take a chance? Do I retreat? My wounded heart is raw and crying out to be treated gently. I’ve trusted and I’ve loved and it wasn’t good. How can I really trust that Kannen is different?
“I want you to know something else,” he says softly.
I stop pacing. “What?”
“I’ve worked three jobs simultaneously since high school. Whatever job I could find, and I saved nearly everything I made.”
“Why?”
“I did that because I’d hoped the ranch might be listed for sale one day.”
“You wanted that ranch when you were still in high school?”
“I did because I overheard you tell a classmate it was your dream to live there. I knew the place was important to you because it was your run-to place where you got a break from what was going on in your family. I want you to know if something’s important to you, it’s important to me.”
I’m in shock. “Who…who spends his life working to buy a run-down ranch just because a woman likes it?”
“I do. And not because a woman likes it, but because you like it.”
“But…all these years…no one holds out that long. I’ve given you no reason to do this.”
Kannen steps in front of me. “The reason is because I love you. That hasn’t changed in all these years except to grow stronger. I want to be with you as much today as I did in the beginning.”
My heart…I’m overwhelmed and can’t help but go to him.
I step against him and he wraps me in the comfort and strength of his arms. We stand that way for a while. Then I look up at him, my gaze locking with his.
Protect yourself, my brain warns.
You don’t need that with him my heart says. I choose to listen to my heart.
He lowers his head and kisses me gently.
“You were right about something,” I say.
“What’s that?”
“Me being an amazing fuck.”
He laughs, then says, “I think I’ll need to refresh my memory.”
“Oh? So you want me to prove it?” I tease my fingers across his chest.
“I just want to be with you,” he says, tangling his fingers in my hair and bringing my mouth back to his.
Need explodes within me and as our kiss deepens, I get wet thinking of how he’d filled me last night. How’d he’d led me to such wild abandon.
His hands roam my waist, then to my abdomen before moving to my breasts. His fingers find my nipples, and he tugs them in unison like he’s sucking them with his fingers.
I moan and he covers the sound with his mouth. Then he abruptly lifts his head. We’re both breathing fast.
“Let’s go to my place,” he says.
I look around the office.
“I’m not going to fuck you here.”
“But what if I wanted you to?”
“I prefer privacy when you’re naked.”
“We don’t have to be completely naked,” I say. “And I want a quickie. Something hard and fast.”
“You sure?”
“The harder, the faster, the better,” I say, reaching beneath his T-shirt to feel his hard abdomen. “I just want you to take me. Did I mention how desperately I want you?”
“How can I resist that?” He grabs my hand and propels me to the table. I hear him tear open a condom. “Bend over and I’ll give you what you want.”
I bend over the table. I’m already soaking my panties.
He strips them from me, and I hear his jeans unzip.
I look over my shoulder as he pushes his underwear aside. He takes his cock out and strokes his hand down his length before putting on the condom. “This is what you want?”
I wiggle my ass. “Yes, please.”
He puts his large hand on my head and gently pushes it onto the table. “Then it’s yours.”
Then his big cock slicks against my clit before sliding into me.
“Ah…like…”
His hand cups my mouth, muffling my words. “Shh…just take this dick quietly like a good girl.”
I’m so fucking turned on right now. I press my ass against his jeans, loving the feel of the rough fabric against my bare ass.
His hand reaches under me to stroke my clit. I thrust forward so hard I damn near smack my head into the wall.
“My girl likes that. Feeling her man’s hand on her pussy while his cock stuffs it.”
“Mmm hmm.” It’s so damn good I swear my eyes are gonna roll back into my head.
“I like being inside your tight little warmth. I like the way your pussy welcomes me.”
He plunges into me while his fingers dance on my clit. He’s so damn good at this.
I shudder and come against his hand.
“That’s right, darlin’, you give that to me. I’m going to go hard and fast now.”
He keeps his hand on my pussy, massaging me while he fucks me.
“You’re going to come again now.”
And I do, exploding, riding that wave of release.
Kannen thrusts into me rapidly, still touching and stroking me. I come a third time just as he loses control.
“Mmm…” I wiggle against him after we’re both spent. He’s good at this. Like he knows what my body wants better than I do.
We go into the small bathroom and clean ourselves up.
Still thinking about how good he is, I put my panties back on and say, “You must have had lots of experience.” Whoever those women are I don’t like them.
“You were my first.”
The way he says it…
“What?”
“You’re the first woman I’ve slept with.”
“What are you saying? You’re so good at sex. How can I be your first?”
“I didn’t know if I’d ever have a chance to be with you, but I prepared just in case.”
I’m still stunned that I was his first. “By doing what?”
“I read a lot of books on female anatomy, how to be a good lover, that sort of thing.”
“You did that because of me?”
“You’re the only woman I’ve ever loved, and I didn’t want to mess up.”
“You studied books on sex,” I say almost to myself.
“I also studied how to be a good husband. And I studied child rearing and the psychology of relationships.”
I swallow hard. “Did you do that for me, too?”
He nods. “You’re the only one I’d need that information for.”
This level of love. The depth of it…the beauty of it surrounds me, cushioning my heart, drawing the wounds to a close and kissing the scars.
This love is once in a lifetime. He’s a once in a lifetime man.
“Kannen?”
“Hmm?”
“Will you marry me?”