15. Maria
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Maria
The hospital is a blur of fluorescent lights and antiseptic smells and voices that seem to come from very far away.
Three weeks early.
My water broke in the car. All over the leather seats. Luca didn’t even flinch, just kept driving, one hand on the wheel, one hand gripping mine.
“It’s too early,” I keep saying. “It’s too early. She’s not ready. I’m not ready.”
“The baby will be fine.” His voice is calm. Steady. “You’re far enough along. The doctors will take care of everything.”
“You don’t know that.”
“I know that we’ve survived everything else.” He pulls into the hospital parking lot. “We’ll survive this too.”
***
Labor is nothing like I expected.
I always imagined it would be fast. Dramatic. Like in the movies, a few big pushes and then a baby appears, clean and perfect and ready to be held.
Instead, it’s hours.
Hours of contractions that feel like my body is being torn apart from the inside. Hours of nurses checking and rechecking, of monitors beeping, of that terrible pressure that never quite goes away.
Luca holds my hand through all of it.
He lets me squeeze until his fingers go numb. He doesn’t complain when I scream at him that this is all his fault (it’s not, but rationality left the building around hour eight). He just stays. Steady. Present. An anchor in the storm.
“I hate you,” I gasp through a contraction.
“That’s fair.”
“This is the worst thing that’s ever happened to me.”
“Also fair.”
“I love you.”
“I know.”
“Don’t quote Star Wars at me right now-”
“Sorry, sorry-”
Another contraction hits. I scream.
“You’re doing amazing.” His voice is in my ear. “You’re so strong. I’m so proud of you.”
“Shut up.”
“Okay.”
“No, don’t shut up. Keep talking. Distract me.”
“Uh - okay. Did you know that octopuses have three hearts?”
“What?”
“Three hearts. And blue blood. Because they use copper instead of iron to carry oxygen.”
“Why do you know that?”
“I read a lot when I can’t sleep.” Another contraction. His hand tightens on mine. “You’re doing so well, Maria. Just breathe.”
“I can’t-”
“You can. You are.” He presses a kiss to my sweaty forehead. “Just a little longer. She’s almost here.”
***
Luca
I have never been so terrified in my life.
Maria is exhausted. Sixteen hours of labor, and she’s barely conscious between contractions. The doctors keep saying everything is fine, the baby is fine, but I can see the concern in their eyes. The way they whisper to each other when they think we’re not looking.
Please. Please let them be okay. Both of them.
I’m not religious. Haven’t been since my mother died and I realized that no amount of praying was going to bring her back. But right now, in this moment, I’m praying to anyone who will listen.
Please.
“Almost there,” the doctor says. “One more push, Maria. Just one more.”
Maria screams. Bears down. Squeezes my hand so hard I’m pretty sure something breaks.
And then-
A cry.
Thin at first. Then strong. Indignant. Furious at being forced into the world.
“It’s a girl,” the doctor says. “A beautiful baby girl.”
***
Maria
She’s on my chest.
Tiny and red and screaming, fingers curled into fists, eyes scrunched shut against the brightness of the world.
I have never seen anything more beautiful.
“Hi, baby.” I’m crying. Can’t stop. Don’t want to stop. “Hi. I’m your mama.”
She’s so small. So perfect. Ten fingers. Ten toes. A shock of dark hair that’s already starting to curl.
My daughter. My Sophia.
Luca leans over us both. His eyes are wet. His voice cracks when he speaks.
“She’s perfect.”
“She’s ours.”
“Yeah.” He kisses my forehead. Then hers, the tiniest, gentlest brush of lips against her fuzzy head. “She’s ours.”
***
They take her away for tests.
Just for a few minutes, the nurse assures us. Standard procedure for early arrivals. Make sure everything is where it should be.
But the minutes feel like hours.
I lie in the hospital bed, exhausted beyond words, and I count the ceiling tiles. One. Two. Three. Anything to keep from thinking about all the things that could go wrong.
“She’s going to be fine.” Luca is holding my hand. Has been holding it for sixteen hours straight. “The doctor said everything looked good.”
“I know.”
“She was screaming loud enough to wake the whole floor. That’s a good sign.”
“I know.”
“Maria-”
“I just need to see her.” My voice breaks. “I just need to hold her again.”
The door opens.
A nurse comes in, pushing a bassinet. Inside, wrapped in a pink blanket, is the most beautiful sight I’ve ever seen.
“Someone wanted to see her mama,” the nurse says, smiling.
She places Sophia in my arms.
And everything else falls away.
***
“Sophia.”
Luca looks at me. “What?”
“Her name. Sophia Maria Moretti.” I meet his eyes. “After your mother.”
He goes very still.
“Maria-”
“You told me about her. How she hid the dinosaurs for you to find. How she was the only soft thing in your family.” I touch his face. “I want our daughter to have that softness. That love. I want her to carry your mother’s name.”
He’s crying.
I’ve never seen him cry before, not really cry, not like this. But now the tears are streaming down his face, and he’s not even trying to hide them.
“Sophia Maria Moretti,” he says. Tests the name. Lets it settle. “It’s perfect.”
“Yeah?”
“Yeah.”
The nurse returns. “Would Dad like to hold her?”
Luca freezes. “I’m not-”
“Yes.” My voice is firm. “He would.”
The nurse places Sophia in his arms.
***
Luca
She weighs nothing.
That’s my first thought. How can something so small, so fragile, so important weigh so little?
I look down at her face - at the tiny nose, the rosebud mouth, the eyes that are still scrunched shut against the world - and I feel something crack open in my chest.
This is my daughter.
Not by blood. Not by law. But in every way that matters.
Mine.
“Hi, Sophia.” My voice is barely a whisper. “I’m your dad.”
She yawns. Stretches. Curls one tiny hand around my finger.
And I know, in that moment, that I would burn the world down for her.
I would do anything. Give anything. Be anything she needs me to be.
“You’re crying,” Maria says.
“It’s dust.” I clear my throat. “Hospital dust.”
She laughs. Exhausted. Happy.
“I love you.”
“I love you too.” I look at her - at this woman who walked into my life and changed everything, who fought through impossible odds, who just brought our daughter into the world. “I love you so much it terrifies me.”
“Good.” She reaches for my hand. “I’m terrified too.”
“Then we’ll be terrified together.”
“Deal.”
***
Maria
Two days later, I’m dozing in the hospital bed when there’s a knock at the door.
Sophia is asleep in the bassinet beside me. Luca is in the cafeteria, getting coffee that I’m sure will be terrible.
I expect a nurse. A doctor. Maybe Renata, who’s been texting congratulations since the moment she heard.
Instead, I see Giuliana.
She’s standing in the doorway. Thin. Tired. Holding a small gift bag.
“I wasn’t sure if I should come.”
Every instinct tells me to send her away. To hold onto the anger that’s been burning in my chest since the day she stood in my foyer and said he’s mine now.
But I look at her - my sister, exhausted and uncertain, holding a gift for a baby she might never be allowed to know - and something shifts.
Maybe it’s the hormones. Maybe it’s the exhaustion. Maybe it’s looking at Sophia and realizing that grudges are heavy things to carry, and I’m tired of being weighed down.
“Come in.”
***
She approaches the bassinet like she’s approaching a wild animal.
“She’s beautiful.”
“She is.”
“She looks like you.” Giuliana’s voice is soft. “The same nose. The same chin.”
“Good.”
Silence. Heavy with everything unspoken.
“I’m sorry.” The words come out in a rush.
“I know I’ve said it before. I know it doesn’t fix anything.
But I’m sorry, Maria. For all of it. For Tommy.
For the lies. For standing in your house and telling you-” Her voice breaks.
“I was so stupid. I thought he loved me. I thought I was special. And now-”
“Now you have Elena.”
“Now I have Elena.” She wipes her eyes. “She’s the only good thing that came out of all of this. Her and-” She looks at Sophia. “And your daughter. Our daughters.”
Our daughters. Half-sisters.
I never thought about it that way before.
“I’m not ready to forgive you,” I say slowly. “I don’t know if I ever will be.”
Giuliana nods. “I understand.”
“But you’re my family. And Sophia deserves to know her aunt. Her cousin.” I take a breath. “So maybe we can try. Slowly. Carefully.”
“Really?”
“Really.”
She doesn’t hug me. Doesn’t say everything’s okay.
But she moves closer to the bassinet. Looks down at Sophia with tears in her eyes.
“Can I-?”
“Yes.”
She picks up my daughter.
And for the first time in months, I see my sister, not the woman who betrayed me, but the girl I raised, the girl who used to climb into my bed during thunderstorms, the girl who cried for a week when our mother died.
We’re not okay.
But we’re trying.
***
That night, after Giuliana leaves, after Sophia finally falls asleep, Luca appears with something hidden behind his back.
“I know this isn’t the most romantic setting.” He gestures at the hospital room, the beeping machines, the fluorescent lights, the uncomfortable chair he’s been sleeping in for two nights. “But I’ve been carrying this around for weeks, and I can’t wait anymore.”
“Luca-”
He gets down on one knee.
My heart stops.
“Maria Benedetti.” His voice is steady, but I can see his hands shaking. “You walked into my life at the worst possible moment, for both of us. You were hurt and angry and magnificent, and I knew from the second I saw you that you were going to change everything.”
He pulls out a ring.
It’s simple. Beautiful. A single diamond on a thin gold band. Nothing like the ostentatious rock Tommy gave me - this is elegant. Understated. Perfect.
“I don’t want to give you a perfect life,” Luca continues. “I can’t promise it won’t be messy and hard and complicated. There will be custody battles and family drama and nights when neither of us sleeps because our daughter won’t stop screaming.”
I laugh through my tears.
“But I can promise to stay. To fight for you. To love you and Sophia with everything I have.” His eyes meet mine. “For as long as you’ll let me.”
“Is that a question?”
“Will you marry me?”
“Yes.” I’m laughing and crying at the same time. “God, yes.”
He slides the ring onto my finger.
It fits perfectly.
He kisses me - soft and sweet and full of promise.
And in the bassinet beside us, Sophia starts to cry.
“Perfect timing,” I manage.
“Story of our lives.”
He picks her up. Rocks her until she settles. And I watch them - my daughter in my fiancé’s arms - and I feel something I never thought I’d feel again.
Hope.