12. When The Dam Breaks
CHAPTER 12
WHEN THE DAM brEAKS
DELILAH
H is mouth is on my skin, pressing open-mouthed kisses to my neck. Has it always been this sensitive? I turn my head as he moves, needing him everywhere as he spreads my legs with his knees. Our height difference of several inches is perfect as he moves down my body to suck a nipple into his mouth.
It’s a long drawn-out movement and I feel it everywhere in my body. He adds teeth on the next pass, and I slump against the pillows, wanting him inside of me. I am helpless to his talented mouth and hands that stroke me everywhere, finally finding the lace of my underwear.
“Oh, God.”
I arch my hips, needing more.
“You are so wet for me, Delilah. I am going to make you come all over my tongue and then my cock.”
I feel his breath against me as I nod, unable to say anything. I can barely think past the actions he describes to me, much less anything else. Miles teases my other nipple with his mouth as he slowly slides a finger inside of me. He hums and the vibration against my skin makes me shudder violently.
I am close to the edge when he pulls away, leaving me breathless. I reach out, feeling his hair as he settles his face between my legs. Smiling, I settle against the pillows and watch as he presses his mouth to my core. Miles is slow and teasing, dragging his tongue over me as our eyes lock.
He speeds up gradually, finally making me come around with his tongue as promised. I rock gently as he drinks in my release greedily, feeling my nerves kick in at what’s about to happen. Miles pulls back and moves to kiss me deeply, smearing my taste all over my face.
Why is this so hot?
Our kiss is needy, and I pull him closer. I don’t know what happened to my underwear, but they’re gone and I want Miles now. I try to get him where he needs to be between my thighs and arch into him, but he pulls away, catching his breath.
“Do you want to use a condom? Are you on birth control?”
It sets in to me that Lola was unplanned and I look at him.
“I have been on the pill since I was a teenager for health reasons. Are you safe?”
“I haven’t been with anyone for a while, and I get tested regularly when I am. Being a dad took all of my time. Are you sure you want me bare?”
“I am scheduled with everything in life and my pill is at the top of that list. Promise.”
Miles looks down between us, easing himself against my opening before slowly pushing in. I cry out, feeling him stretch me as he eases in deeper to allow me to adjust to his size.
“You are so tight. Wet. Fuck.”
Miles kisses me as he slides all the way in, stilling for a moment as we both take in this feeling. I breathe deeply, clinging to his neck as I marvel at this. Sex has never been this good for me and it figures a hockey player would be the one to prove it.
I gently rock back, testing how it feels as Miles lets out a breath. It’s perfect, and I keep moving, moaning as Miles thrusts with me. We move together, our bodies slapping as he takes me deep, moving harder as I beg for it.
I come first, burying my face in his neck so I don’t scream and Miles jerks before filling me, whispering my name.
He sets me gently on the mattress, kissing me softly before rolling beside me.
“It has never felt like that.”
I look towards him, and Miles is staring at me.
“It was incredible, Delilah. I’ve never wanted someone so badly and finally having you was… it differed from anything before you. Why do you have to be my nanny?”
“Why do you have to be Andrew’s best friend?”
We’re silent for a moment before he leans in to kiss me.
“My daughter adores you.”
His voice is a whisper and I smile.
“I adore her right back.”
“I can’t let this hurt her, Delilah. It’s just that I don’t think I can stay away from you. Not yet. I can’t let your brother find out, either. It’s so complicated.”
“We’re alone right now. Let’s just enjoy this moment.”
Miles gets a washcloth to clean me up, wetting it with warm water. When he’s beside me again, I reach out to touch his muscular chest.
“Thanks for the jersey. Did I already say that?”
“I want you to wear my name. You’d be the only woman out there wearing it that knows me.”
“Do I know you?” My voice is soft, and Miles looks at me.
“Better than most. I’m around you a lot, and it’s tough to keep things buried when I’m with you. I try like hell, but I have given some info up. With everyone else, I am the hockey player and the poor single dad that lost his daughter’s mom who I wasn’t even with anymore. I’m so strong because I’m handling things. I’m tired of it.”
He offers me a small smile and I move my hand over his cheek.
“You are strong for getting through that. Hiring me to help with Lola shouldn’t bring any shame to you if that’s what you’re getting at. You have a lot going on, Miles and I love that little girl. For the record, I’d love to wear that jersey to a game.”
“I can’t give you a relationship for so many reasons. Your brother, for one. I don’t want Lola to get confused if we were to be more in front of her. She’s little but smart as a whip and she’d tell someone.”
He’s right on all counts and I hate it. I also don’t want to be away from him.
“We don’t need to go there, Miles. This can just be a moment we share, or several. It can’t be this good with us forever. Passion fades.”
“Okay.”
I am going to hurt like hell when this fades, but I can’t walk away from Miles. He’s an incredible man and I’ll take this one day at a time.
We enjoy round two. This time, I am on top, and I ride him hard, alternating between slow and fast. It’s fun to figure out what Miles enjoys and tease him a little. He’s a man that likes control in his life, and I learn this when he growls and pushes me to my stomach, taking me from behind with one deep thrust.
“Oh, God.”
I grip the sheets as he moves, taking me hard as I move with him. Miles is so, so good and he brings me to another release that rocks my world, shaking it up as he grips my hips and fills me.
I slump against the mattress, feeling finished with life. That took everything out of me, and Miles rolls beside me with a grunt.
I fall asleep in there and wake up a few hours later with a start. The clock says it’s four o’clock and I sneak out of bed, grabbing my clothes quietly so I don’t wake Miles up. When I have everything in my arms, I rush to my room across the house and close the door behind me as I let out a breath.
I never thought sneaking around could be so hot. I drop my clothes into my hamper and slip into a sleep shirt before crawling under my soft covers.
We can have sex, but waking up together is against the rules. What if Lola comes in and finds us and lets it slip out? She wouldn’t know not to and is too young to talk to, though I’d never manipulate her like that. We can’t kiss in front of her or even touch and that goes double for anywhere we’re with other people.
A secret tryst is what this is, and I work the words around in my mind to see how they sound. It’s not who I am, but maybe that’s changing. This is a new part of my life now.
I wake up to my alarm, cursing as I turn it off. I barely slept, but Lola will be awake soon. I rush to shower and get into leggings and a t-shirt for the day before going to start the coffee.
Miles has practice and there’s a game tonight. His parents want everyone over for dinner before that starts, and I agreed, but now it just feels different.
Will they know? How do I act?
I can’t be too close to Miles or look at him too long. We’re friends and we have Lola in common and if I keep it that simple in my head, everything will be fine.
She wakes up and I get breakfast started, seeing Miles go down into the basement in workout clothes. He’s got a little time before he needs to leave, and I’d never want to get in the way of hockey.
The two of us eat as I sip my second cup of coffee, needing any energy I can get. Lola asks me to go for a walk by the water and I dress her for that before grabbing my shoes to take her to the creek. I watch Miles drive out from several feet away and he waves out of the window as I tell Lola to say goodbye to Daddy.
We stay busy all day, but I urge her to take a nap in the late morning so Lola can handle tonight. Dinner with two families is crazy for an adult and while she’s sleeping, I take a power nap. After that is over, I get ready for the game and take a moment to look at both jerseys in my closet.
Miles said I was his, but we both know I can’t wear his name on my back. I slip into the jersey with Andrew’s name on the back and when Lola is awake, I get her ready. I’ve got this and I can handle it.
The guys aren’t at dinner because of prep for the game, so it’s not as difficult as it could be. We have spaghetti, bread, and salad and I take off Lola’s jersey while she eats, so she doesn’t stain it. After dinner, I clean her up and get her dressed again before we pile into the cars to leave.
We take our seats as before and I look for Miles on the ice as I point for Lola. The image of him between my legs feasting on me fills my mind, and I feel grateful for the cold temperature of the arena. We go to the glass, and he taps it with his helmet, telling Lola he loves her before his eyes meet mine. She says it right back to him as he skates back, smiling before joining the team.
On the surface, everything is the same. I watch the game as we take turns with Lola, cheering for my guys as they get another one-goal lead, with Miles getting two of them on breakaways. He’s so sexy out there and even more to me now, since I know what he can do off the ice. I pay attention to everyone around me, and they don’t seem to suspect anything, making me breathe a sigh of relief. I feel heat whenever he looks in my direction to find Lola.
She’s asleep again when we get home, and I tuck her in, but I don’t fall asleep on the couch tonight. I wait for Miles, wanting him so badly after that damn game.
Hockey players are sexy, and Miles is going to be the death of me.