Chapter 5
Nico
The Night Before
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The penthouse is quiet the way it's always been quiet — aggressively, completely, the silence of a space designed by a man who doesn't tolerate noise.
I walk through it the way I walk through it every night: checking sight lines, testing locks, cataloging the exits and windows the way my body does automatically, the way it's done since I was twenty-two and learned what happens when you stop paying attention.
Tomorrow she'll be here. In this space. Moving through these rooms. Leaving her jacket on the couch, her coffee cup on the counter, her shampoo in the bathroom.
Evidence of a person where no person has been in years.
The thought should feel like an intrusion.
It doesn't. It feels like weather approaching, a shift in pressure I can sense but can't control.
I stop in the doorway of the room I've prepared for her.
Separate bedroom, as agreed. I chose the one with the east-facing windows because I noticed she squints in afternoon light — she did it twice at Elysium, turning her chair away from the west windows without seeming to realize it.
The sheets are Italian cotton, high thread count, neutral colors.
Fresh flowers on the dresser — white peonies, because she wore a peony pin on her jacket at the Ricci function eight months ago and I filed that the way I file everything.
On the nightstand: three books. The Secret History by Donna Tartt, In the Woods by Tana French, and a battered copy of Seamus Heaney's collected poems. She mentioned Tartt to Finn at the meeting — I heard her across the room, which means I was listening to her instead of the alliance briefing, which means I was already compromised before I said her name.
The French novel is a guess, but an educated one; she reads crime fiction, and this is the best of it.
The Heaney is because she's Irish and he's the best of that too, and if I'm wrong she'll tell me, and I'll learn something.
I chose these weeks ago. Before the meeting. Before I said her name in front of twelve men and changed both our lives.
I don't examine what that means. I close her door and walk to the kitchen.
The penthouse stretches behind me — three thousand square feet of glass and stone and silence.
I built it to be a fortress, not a home.
The furniture is expensive and uncomfortable by design; no one lingers in a space that doesn't invite lingering.
The art on the walls is investment, not taste.
The kitchen has a six-burner range I've used twice.
Every surface is polished, every angle sharp, every detail chosen to project control.
It's the loneliest place in Boston.
My father's scotch. I keep a bottle of Macallan 25 because he kept a bottle of Macallan 25 — same label, same amber weight in the glass, same way the first sip burns going down and settles warm in the chest. He used to pour two fingers after every meeting, stand at the kitchen window of the old house, and watch the street like he was counting the hours until something came for him.
Something did.
I pour. I drink. I stand at my own window and watch the city below and I look nothing like my father, and everything like him.
He loved my mother. That's the thing nobody talks about at the family dinners and the strategy meetings and the long nights of planning — Alexandros Konstantinos loved Thalia with the kind of devotion that made other men uncomfortable.
He brought her flowers every Friday. He danced with her in the kitchen when he thought no one was watching.
He called her agápi mou — my love — and meant it the way most men mean their own names, like it was the truest thing about him.
And look how that ended.
She's alive. My mother is alive. I call the security detail at the compound every night at eleven, tonight is no different. "Status?"
"Quiet, sir. She attended vespers. She's sleeping.
" Good. She attends church. She sleeps. She speaks mostly in Greek and rarely leaves the property, and she looks through her sons like we're windows instead of people.
She hasn't said my name with recognition in three years.
The doctors say it's dissociative. The priests say it's grief.
I say it's what happens when you love a man in this world and the world takes him from you.
Dmitri Reznikov gave the order fifteen years ago.
I was twenty-two. I watched. I don't remember the sound of the gunshot — my therapist, the one I saw for six months before I stopped going, said that was normal.
Trauma edits the tape. What I remember is my father's hand letting go of my shoulder.
The weight of it leaving. The way the absence of his grip felt heavier than the grip itself.
I remember what came after. The silence in the house.
Lex, eighteen, standing in the hallway with blood on his shirt that wasn't his, eyes already hardening into something I'd spend the next fifteen years watching harden further.
Dimitri, sixteen, smiling at the funeral because he didn't know how to do anything else, and everyone thought he was cruel when he was just broken.
Stavros, barely ten, asking when Dad was coming home a full week after the burial because no one had explained it to him properly.
Because I hadn't explained it. Because I was too busy becoming the thing that would keep the rest of them alive.
I finished the scotch that night — my father's scotch, from his bottle, standing at his window. I became the boss. I cut out every soft thing inside me because soft things get people killed, and I have three brothers and a ghost of a mother who depend on the version of me that feels nothing.
Fifteen years. I've maintained the lie for fifteen years.
I don't feel. I don't want. I don't need.
I run the empire and I protect the family and I sit in the chair at the head of the table and I make the decisions that no one else can stomach and I do it all from behind a wall so thick that sometimes I forget there's a man on the other side of it.
And then Siobhan O'Brien sat in my chair without invitation and looked at me like I was a problem worth solving, and something I thought I'd killed started breathing again.
I set the glass down. My body is tight, wound up, restless, and angry in a way that has nothing to do with Viktor Reznikov and everything to do with the memory of her skin under my fingertips.
The warmth of her. The way she held still when I touched her hair, the deliberate choice not to lean in, and all I could think was lean in. Lean in and let me…
I stop.
This is what happens when control slips.
The body takes over. My hands remember the silk of her hair when I should be reviewing security protocols.
My chest remembers the tightening when our eyes met across Elysium when I should be planning for Viktor's next move.
I think about her voice — the way she said bullshit in my office without blinking, the way she said until I decide otherwise like she was already making decisions about my body that I hadn't been consulted on — and the wanting is so sharp it has edges.
I could make a call. There are women who would come discreetly, professionally, and with no complications. I've done it before. The body has needs; I'm not a monk. It would be easy. It would mean nothing.
I don't reach for the phone.
I stand at the window and let the frustration burn through me because the truth is, I don't want a body in my bed.
I want HER in my bed — her sharp mouth and her steady eyes and her refusal to be afraid of me — and I don't know what to do with that.
Tomorrow, she moves into this penthouse and sleeps behind a door I promised not to open and the only barrier between us is a wall and a promise and whatever self-control I have left.
I should be thinking about the war. About Viktor and the Bratva and the four dead men in a warehouse. Instead, I'm standing in my kitchen at midnight, hard and furious and thirty-seven years old, and the most dangerous woman in Boston is about to sleep thirty feet from my bed.
I go to bed. I don't sleep.
At 2am my phone lights up on the nightstand. I reach for it expecting Lex, expecting a security update, expecting the war.
Elena: Last chance to change your mind. Everyone would understand.
I stare at the message. There's nothing wrong with it — it reads like a friend checking in, the kind of thing she's said a hundred times over the years. Are you sure about this deal? Everyone would understand if you pulled out. The language of loyalty disguised as concern.
But it's 2am. And there's something in the phrasing — last chance — that sits wrong. Like a door closing.
I delete the message. I don't respond.
I tell myself it's because there's nothing to say. Elena is family. She's been family since we were children. She took the news about Siobhan with grace. There's no reason to read anything into a late-night text from a woman who's been in my life for twenty years.
No reason at all.
I roll over. Close my eyes. Sleep comes eventually — thin, restless, the kind that doesn't restore anything. When I wake in the dark, I don't remember what I dreamed. Only the feeling it left behind — warm, unsettling, like a hand pressed against glass.
The penthouse is silent. Cold. The city moves thirty floors below, indifferent to the man staring at his ceiling, and I think about my father standing at his window with his scotch, watching the street, counting hours.
He loved a woman, and it destroyed him. He loved a woman, and it destroyed her.
The lesson is clear. The lesson has been clear for fifteen years.
Tomorrow it won't be.
That's either the best thing that's happened to me in fifteen years, or the most dangerous.
I close my eyes.
I don't sleep again.