~Chapter 1~
And here I am, my senior year of high school has already begun 2 weeks ago. In the morning I was woken up by my phone alarm. With reluctance and sadness I got out of my beloved bed and went to the bathroom to shower and do the necessary things for a day of school.
I looked at my tired face in the mirror and faked a smile, the kind of smile you only give yourself to cheer yourself up when the whole situation is turning on you like boiling coffee.
I thought that senior year should be different, but the truth is that I was already feeling the same boring routine as in all the previous years.
I changed into a dark green fitted blouse and some black pants, for shoes today I chose Jordan 1 in green to contrast with my clothes and as usual three or even four rings on my bread.
I spent about five minutes just choosing which ring goes with which, but that was my favorite part of the morning.
A kind of little ritual of trust.
I arranged my hair in a way that it was neither too messy nor too "princely".
Before I went to eat, I stopped by Sergio's room to ask him about the keys to my car, a Porsche 911 Gt3 I don't know the exact year, I don't really care that much as long as I have a car and I'm not obligated to drive it.
I got it about 3 months ago after my parents sold my motorcycle and I went back home, at least I know it's with someone who takes care of it
"Hey Sergio, where the hell are my girlfriend's keys.
..?" I asked when I entered the room and then kept my mouth shut.
My brother, naked, in bed doing the fastest masturbation I've ever seen.
I want to be a butterfly and be innocent for the rest of my life.
"They're over there on the table, I took them because my dad took mine, and please, knock on the door before I make you suck my dick" he said nonchalantly continuing what he was doing.
I gaped and muttered "donkey" hoping he didn't hear me, I walked into the room to pick up my girlfriend after his miserable meal. I just hope I don't have cum in the backseat, like I always do.
After that I went downstairs to make myself something to eat before I went to pick up Emy from home, apparently there's no one to take her today.
Strange. There was no one in the kitchen when I went.
Usually my mother was there talking on the phone at 7 or so in the morning.
I made myself a light salad and put it in a plastic casserole, so I could eat it while I waited with Emy until Theo came, he usually comes 5 minutes before classes start.
I sat for a while leaning against the counter, munching on a cucumber and listening to the strange silence in the house.
It was too quiet. Too tidy for a normal morning at our place.
When I was putting my casserole in my "backpack", Sergio came downstairs dressed and charming as if I hadn't even seen what he did 10 minutes ago.
"Oh, I forgot to tell you that you're taking me today," Sergio says with a look of disappointment on his face.
We've become quite close after all this mess, but he's always secretive and shows me his other side as if I don't know it.
That's all I needed now, one more person to make my morning nagging.
Even though Emy is often cold to other people, he talks a lot with the group of friends we have, and Sergio only talks shit.
"..." I said nothing and walked past him.
I stopped at the door to signal for him to follow me.
I got into my car and the first thing I did was roll down the windows as high as I could.
"Bruh... What the hell are you doing here, pickles?
"
"At least I have a pussy, not like you" says Sergio with glasses on his eyes.
"Yeah but I have both when I want, compared to you" I said that and started the car swearing before the music started and I didn't give him a chance to speak.
I set off down the street and the cold morning air hit my face.
The city was still asleep - people in a hurry, kids with backpacks bigger than them, trolleybuses full.
I was looking out the window and trying not to think about school, but every traffic light seemed to remind me that I had to get there.
The first 5 minutes were pretty okay, until she made me stop at the gas station because she was hungry.
I stopped because I don't have many cigarettes either, even though I'm trying not to smoke as much as I used to, but at least I can enjoy 3 days out of 7.
After that, we set off to pick up Emy.
Because every time, Emy was dressed spectacularly beautiful, the vibe she always inspired me was to my taste.
Dominated but at the same time refined.
"HEY DICKS, I DIDN'T KNOW I HAD A 1+1 TODAY" I chuckled at her words and made Sergio get out and leave her behind.
I really need to change my car to a 4-door one.
"What are you doing, beautiful? And.
.. have you thought about my offer?" Sergio says raising his eyebrows and smiling like a fool
"First of all, Emy is a lesbian, and secondly, you're too ugly for a wonder and masterpiece like her" I answered before Emy.
And with that I threw the music phone into Emy's arms to put on some good music for the next 5 minutes until school.
She chose something slow, some old RB.
I smiled involuntarily. It was exactly the kind of music that made the silence between us bearable.
Finally we got to school and it seems Theo was already there with Colby, a pretty good looking boy, but I didn't dare talk to him personally.
Just the fact that he's friends with the Others is enough for me.
I got out of the car and in 2 seconds Sergio was already gone.
"Bro, how come I came before you?" Theo asked, taking
my backpack and putting mine on his shoulder.
Since my ribs started hurting again, he hasn't let me see that backpack.
I really don't know why it's been hurting so much lately, I mean, I've been dealing with this since I was little but it was always a small sting but now it's hell and the devil stuck in there.
"Well, I went to pick up Emy and I got my brother in the package, I know, sad" I say.
"Oh, I feel sorry for Emy, having two pigs with backs as big as doors in the car, took all your air" Theo says
"Yeah, the air was super thick in the car, by the way your car smells like pickles.
What the hell did you do in there, Cassian?
" Emy says with disgust on her face
" Sergio fucked in my car, again, at least there was no cum on the carpet or the seats, I was making him lick it" I say annoyed at the thought of it.
I look at the clock and see that it's already 2 minutes away and I tell them to go to class.
Especially since we're doing Math first period, Who wants that?
The high school hallway was already full.
Noise, laughter, hurried footsteps. The smell of expensive perfume and wet chalk was the classic start-of-year combination.
Some greeted us, others looked at us as if they had scanned our clothes.
I felt strange - we were already at the beginning of the third week and yet, the same chaos as two weeks ago
We all headed to class when I saw Colby in the back with Sergio talking, and next to him was another student, probably Ezra, some friend of Colby's from the other class.
When I entered the classroom I stopped moving for 3 seconds.
The math teacher. She was there. Facing us, ready to skin us and make us look like pigs.
"You're late, Cassian. Always the same thing! How are you going to become someone smart when you're missing classes?" says the math teacher.
Everyone suddenly fell silent. I smiled wryly and sat down by the window.
I always scolded myself as if there were no others and only me.
From there I could see the yard, the clouds and the freedom I didn't have.
I took out my notebook, but my mind was far away.
On what this year would be like. At Emy's.
At my brother's. At me. Maybe in a way, I really wanted something different to happen.
Something that would change everything
This was going to be a long day...