Chapter 33
Raine
Iwatch him leave, letting him go. I knew this would happen. He only liked what I could give him but never wanted to go public. He didn’t deserve what happened to him, but neither did I.
I understand he’s mad and I’ll stay away from him for now. Maybe he’ll come around. Or he doesn’t. It was fun while it lasted. But what he said did hurt, I’m not going to say it didn’t.
When the doors shut, I take in the quiet. Pouring a drink, I stare out the window, wondering how we got here. We are here because I wanted to show Dasher that I could be who he needed in his life.
And now I’m alone.
Setting the glass on the counter, I head to the pool, laps always clear my head. But today I want to be tired, I want to tire myself out so I can sleep. If I don’t sleep, I will replay what happened today and I don’t want to do that. My heart hurts for us both and I just want to sleep.
I don’t bother with trunks; I’m alone in this house now. Lap after lap and after two hours I’m not tired, hopefully once I slip into bed, I will.