16. Sixteen
Sixteen
Tyler
I keep glancing over my tablet, looking from the textbook to Seth. It’s only been a week since he walked out of my room, leaving me naked. I know I fucked up. He’s back to being overly formal as we study. None of the flirting, just staying focused on work.
Meanwhile, my mind is playing everything that happened in my room on repeat. The two of us naked together on my bed. The look in Seth’s eyes as he blew me. Damn . That was the hottest fucking blow job of my life. It keeps popping into my head at the wrong time. Like right now. At least there’s a table to cover my erection. It’s a good thing one of us can focus on the schoolwork. All I want to do is drag Seth off to a dark corner of the library and drop to my knees. I’m dying to know if it’d be just as hot to suck him off as it was to be on the receiving side.
“Tyler?” Seth keeps his eyes on the tablet as I look up at him. “You okay? You haven’t written anything down.”
“Just distracted.” I shake my head and look at the study guide in front of me, then back to the textbook. Some of the tutoring must be helping because the whole thing makes more sense than it used to, but that isn’t what’s tripping me up. I inch my chair closer to Seth and move my left hand onto my lap. Our legs are almost touching, making it easy to move my hand onto his thigh.
That’s what gets him to look at me. Seth glances down at my fingers trailing over his inner leg, then meets my eyes with his. “Distracted?” he echoes.
Fuck it. I press my lips to his, leaning closer to steal a kiss. Our lips move together in a harsh clash as we fight for control. My hand slides up his leg until his hand on mine stops me. “Ty, we should probably dial this back. This isn’t the best place.”
“Right,” I slowly answer as I shake my head. Doing something here is a little more public than the locker room shower. Seth is right. This isn’t the time or place.
“Um, maybe we should call it a day. We can meet up another time.” Seth grabs the textbook and closes it as he packs up his things.
I let out a sigh as I follow suit, grabbing my things. “Would you maybe want to come hang out in my dorm?” I ask as we get closer to the door leading outside.
He pushes the door open, but just as he’s about to answer my question, we’re interrupted by someone calling his name. I turn to look at who it is, but I have no clue who she is. She walks right past me to hug Seth, and my heart jumps into my throat. Who is she? Whoever she is, she seems overly comfortable with Seth and I don’t like it.
Seth meets my eyes over her shoulder as they hug. “Hey Jen, what’s going on?” he asks as he pulls away.
“Nothing much,” she answers, then she looks at me, just now seeming to realize I’m there. “I was about to meet up with my boyfriend. What are you two up to?”
“Study session,” Seth answers. “I didn’t know you were seeing someone.”
“It’s newish,” she says with a shrug. “You’ll have to meet him sometime. Oh, I know, we could have a double date. I have a friend that would be great for you.” Jen’s phone chimes and she pulls it out to glance at the screen. “I gotta go, but I’ll text you later.” With another quick hug for Seth and a wave in my direction, she leaves the two of us and heads inside the library.
In a matter of minutes, everything just changed. I know we’re not dating, but I don’t want Seth to go out on a date with some friend of a friend. Only issue is I don’t know if I’m allowed to have an opinion.
Seth takes a step closer to me and leans in, whispering in my ear. “If you don’t want me to go on the date, you can say so.”
“No, I mean. That’s totally up to you. We’re not …” I shake my head, not knowing how to finish that sentence.
“You sure?” he asks.
“Yeah, you should go. Have fun.” My chest tightens as I force the words out. It shouldn’t matter if we’re just fooling around. Neither of us said anything about dating.
Seth starts walking again, heading in the direction of Greek Row. I follow him, walking by his side. Neither of us says anything else about him coming back to my room. Maybe it isn’t too late to change my mind. I should say something. Tell him I’m not okay with him seeing someone else. We get to his frat house first and Seth turns to look at me. “I guess I’ll see you around.”
“Yeah.” At the last moment, I change my mind and lean in to kiss him.
Our lips barely meet before Seth is pulling away. He doesn’t say anything as he leaves.
I’m such an idiot. We started this whole thing with a no strings attached mentality. Somewhere along the lines, things changed. I think I have feelings for Seth. I don’t want him to go on a date with some girl because I’d rather he be going on a date with me. It’s all I can think about as I walk back to my room.
I know it probably won’t work out. My father would never approve of Seth, even if he doesn’t have an issue with me being with a guy. If we were dating, I’d have to come out eventually. What would Maddy think if she found out? Shit. I’m so screwed right now. Sleeping with Seth was supposed to be a fun way for the both of us to blow off some steam and get our rocks off. What if he doesn’t even want to date me? Maybe he doesn’t feel the same.
I toss my bag on my bed and grab my phone. I open the text thread with Seth and reread the last few messages. It’s just us making plans to meet up and study today. Even before Jen showed up, things were weird. I think I fucked it up before when we were in my dorm, and we were cuddling.
Everything just felt too real. Lying next to him naked post orgasm felt too intimate and now I’ve ruined it.