Chapter 5 Raelynn
RAELYNN
My orgasm washes over me, flooding my veins the way the waves off Lake Michigan crash into the beaches and soak the sands. It ebbs and flows. A tsunami of feelings and emotions. Of light and happiness. Utter ecstasy overtaking me in a way I’ve never experienced before.
And it’s all because of this man.
I grind my hips, the wood wall behind me pressing hard into my back as my body spasms. Jax continues to suck at my clit until I can’t take the overwhelming pleasure anymore. Until it threatens to consume me so completely that I won’t be able to break free of it.
Gasping for breath, I push against his head. “Stop. Oh God, stop. I can’t—”
He slowly lifts his face from between my legs, his scorching-hot gaze boring into mine as he licks his lips and lifts his fingers to his mouth to suck my arousal from them as well.
Good God…
Jax Benton has become a force of nature.
He was always so comfortable out here, in the woods, exploring his grandfather’s land and working with his hands.
Trying to learn and understand how things grew, how they worked, how to make them better.
And the years have only made him stronger, more determined.
With all that passion and focus directed at me, my heart threatens to burst the way my resolve did the moment his lips hit mine.
He takes a half step back and slowly allows me to slide down the wall until my unsteady feet hit the floor and his strong arms tug me firmly against his slick body. He presses his lips to mine, kissing me long and slow and sweet, the taste of my arousal still on his tongue.
“I want to do that again.”
His murmured words send my heart thundering even harder than it already was, and I loop my arms around his neck and bury my face against his shoulder. He lifts me easily—the skinny boy I knew from high school, now the brawny, burley lumberjack who can throw me around like I weigh nothing.
He carries me to a door on the far side of the cabin and nudges it open with his foot, and suddenly, I’m floating before he lays me down on a soft comforter and covers my body with his.
His hard cock presses against my stomach, and I groan and wrap my legs around him, locking them and squeezing him against me tightly.
He drops languid kisses across my cheeks, over my closed eyes, down my neck, to my breasts, where he tugs down my bra so he can lavish attention on each one of my taut nipples.
I twitch under him as he sucks one into his mouth hard and twists the other between his fingers. “Oh, God.”
The direct line of pleasure goes straight to my clit, and I arch against him, searching for the friction where I so badly need it.
A satisfied groan vibrates from his chest through mine. “Why did we wait so long to do this?”
He moves to my other breast and gives it the same attention, sucking and nipping and twisting until I can’t stop bucking wildly. A grin spreads across his face, and he looks up at me with pure contentment filling his gaze.
I score my nails over his scalp, loving the soft feel of his thick hair against my fingertips, but I can’t face him when I admit this. Squeezing my eyes closed, I fight a sob threatening to slip up my throat. “Because I was scared and ran.”
“I was scared, too, Rae.” He kisses my chest. “To come after you.” He kisses my neck. “Of what it might mean.” My lips. “But I’m not anymore. Look at me, Raelynn.”
I open my eyes, and the look the man gives me stops the world.
He takes my face in his palm as he positions his cock between my legs. “This was always what was meant to happen. You and me. You know that, right?”
I nod as he sinks into me slowly, his hard, wide length spreading me. He captures my gasp with his lips and stills, giving me time to adjust to his size before he draws his hips back and plunges into me again, a little deeper this time.
“Oh, God, Jax.”
There are no other words.
Any I could hope to say leave me on another gasp as he rolls his hips and finally pushes himself as deeply inside me as possible.
I’ve never felt more at home than I do at this moment, when I’m getting ready to leave this town forever, getting ready to leave behind all the memories and the people here. The timing couldn’t be worse.
Tears well in my eyes, and one slides down my temple.
Jax stills immediately. “Rae, am I hurting you?”
I shake my head and urge him to keep going, moving my hips against his, matching his slow, steady rhythm. “No, I’m just…”
Completely and utterly shattered by what’s happening.
Overwhelmed.
Lost.
“Me, too.” He whispers the words against my ear and buries his face in my neck as his hips begin pumping harder, pushing him deeper, driving both of us toward something we both know could change everything.
If we had allowed this to happen, if we had done what we wanted that night all those years ago, we may have had such different futures.
Everything would’ve looked different if I hadn’t run, if I’d had the guts to stand there and kiss the boy I loved and tell him I wanted him forever, not just for one night.
And now, this might be all I get.
I fight the emotion threatening to choke me as he shifts up onto his knees and adjusts my hips to give him a different position. He thrusts into me, his hand tightening at my waist, his body slamming to mine in a way that’s meant to cement him there forever, as if he wasn’t already there.
My best friend.
The boy who always had my back and always held my hand.
Who never asked for anything in return.
I open my eyes to watch him now, the beauty of his massive, strong body earned through hard manual labor every day since I last saw him.
Jax isn’t the type of guy who gives up on anything once he sets his mind to it.
And he’s intent now, drilling me, dragging me closer to another precipice that I’m not sure I’m ready to fall over.
The first orgasm almost killed me. And now, with him inside me, the head of his cock dragging against that perfect spot deep in my core, this one feels like it might actually finish the job.
But we roll together so perfectly, a synchronous movement, a beautiful orchestra of gasps and moans, and our sweat-slicked bodies gliding until the chords in his neck strain and every muscle in his body tightens.
He’s barely holding back, ready to unleash everything into me that he’s felt and wanted for the last ten years.
“Let go, Jax.”
My words fill the space between us, and his eyes move from where our bodies connect to meet mine.
“I fucking love you, Rae.”
In any other circumstance with anyone else like this, the words would seem hollow, fake, impossible, considering the time and distance between us, but I hear the sincerity in them.
I know he means them.
He isn’t the type of person to throw those words around and use them as ammunition with a woman in bed, and they’re exactly what I need to finally let myself go and give myself over to him fully.
This orgasm builds between my legs and slithers up my spine, coiling inside me until it breaks, releasing tension I didn’t even know I was holding. I clench and spasm around his cock, and he drops his head and thrusts into me harder and faster.
“Fuck…” His fingers dig into my hips, and he tips his head back. “Rae!”
My name fills the room as he fills me and buries his face against me while my body twitches and tries to come down from the cataclysm I just experienced.
He feathers kisses along my neck, over my collarbone, and back up to my lips, where he steals what little breath I have left.
Jax Benton is a dangerous man, not because of his strength, not because of his brawn, not even because of the devilish smirk he still has and knows how to use, but because of the way he was able to reach into my chest, grab my heart, and wrap himself around it so tightly, I won’t ever be able to get it back.