24. Envy
Chapter twenty-four
Envy
Why does everything you say have the ability to send me to heaven or drag me to hell?- Envy Fate
She’s not talking to us. It’s been three days, and she has avoided us, ignored us and is barely making eye contact. I stalk down the hall and then jog. She doesn’t notice me, not until she’s swiped her key and opened her door.
I shove her inside, follow her in, and kick the door closed.
She whirls, and her eyes widen as she sees me. She backs up before she forces herself to stop. Her eyes have shadows, and she looks miserable. I’m sure she’s lost weight.
Her suitcase is near the door. There’s no food, no drinks, just the dark. She hasn’t even been taking care of herself.
And that just enrages me.
“How long are you going to ignore us?” I snarl at her. “How long are you going to punish us?”
She shakes her head. “You have an omega.”
“So you keep saying. And we’ve told you they are okay with you. They know all about you. So how about you choose another excuse like you’re afraid we might abandon you or ghost you or I don’t even know. Just pick something new because the omega bullshit doesn’t mean shit because, at the end of the day, I know how you feel about me. And you won’t walk away from me that easily. Not twice. ”
I snarl and stalk towards her, ignoring the way she attempts to evade me, until I have her in the kitchen's corner, pinned between the wall and the counter.
“I don’t care about any omega but you,” I say truthfully. “You’re the one in here.” I pat my chest twice.
She lets out a cry of pain. “I don’t want to be the other woman, I don’t want to-”
“Shut up, Ryn! You’re not the other. You would never be the other,” I say and slam my mouth down on hers.
She fights me, shoving me back, but then she moans and goes slack in my hold.
“I missed you,” I murmur. “Fuck, I missed you every second that we were apart.”
“Envy, please, it’s not right.”
“It is right. Mako asked you to trust us. He said we wouldn’t hurt you. Do you believe that I would hurt you?”
“No,” she whispers after a long delay.
“Do you think that I’m lying?”
“No, but it’s not fair-”
I kiss her again, sliding my hands up under her top, feeling all the hot, soft skin until I get to her bra. It’s lace, only just holding her. I moan into her mouth and slide my hands up, palming her breasts.
She arches her back, her resistance gone.
“Let me make you feel good, Ryn, please?”
She shudders but nods. “This is so wrong.”
“It’s not. Trust me,” I stress, and when I see the resistance in her eyes crumble, I lift her top and throw it away.
The bra is violet. I don’t know what I was expecting, but the colour suits her. It’s soft. I lean towards her, pressing my lips to her temple.
“I missed you. I couldn’t think straight. All I could think was I needed to get back to you.”
“Envy, you’re an alpha, you need-”
“You. I need you.” My whisper is against her lips, trying to cut off her arguments. “I will always need you.”
I peel her bra from her body and drop it on the floor. I’ve seen her nude before, but not like this. It’s just me and her. I can take my time. She’s aroused for me. She will come for me . That distinction is everything.
I push her skirt and underwear off, and when she steps out of them; I lift her up, walking into the bedroom and laying her down.
“So beautiful.” I crawl over the top of her, kissing along her collarbone .
With a growl, I pause and study the masterpiece laid out before me. Now, I have an entirely naked omega laying like a feast.
She grips my shoulders, holding me to her as I lean in closer. Her breathing is hard, she pants, and her body reacts to my every touch. Goosebumps break out on her skin as I explore.
“Envy-”
I suck a hard nipple into my mouth, lathing my tongue over it. Over and over, watching her reactions, learning all her tells. Figuring out what makes her tick. For hours. For minutes. For an eternity, and it’s not long enough.
I drag myself down her body, aching, lost, licking the slope of her stomach, and nipping the skin.
Her thighs part, but when I get between her legs and look at her, I’m lost.
“You’re beautiful,” I repeat.
I don’t give her time to respond. I just dive in, licking with the flat of my tongue. The glistening slick tastes of coconut, and instantly, I’m hooked. I need more. I want more.
I bury myself between her legs, while she undulates against my face, her legs tense and move restlessly as she lifts her hips.
I’m surprised when she comes. She lets out a deep moan, and when the flood of slick comes, it tastes even better than I’d dreamed. I lick until she’s a twitching mess.
Then I trace her with my fingers, exploring. I push into her and groan, shifting my weight. She is hot and tight, so tight. I want nothing more than to bury myself in her right now.
But I won’t.
I lean back in, licking and sucking, stroking and rubbing with my fingers and watching as she falls apart for me over and over.
And when she’s lying in my arms, exhausted and sated, I don’t even feel a little bit sad.
“Envy?”
“Yes?”
“Why won’t you have sex with me?”
I hesitate. I’ve been dreading this question because I don’t know how to explain it properly. “That’s a hard one to answer, but let me try. I don’t want to have sex with you until I know that we’re going to be forever. Until you are sure of me, and there are no barriers. You are my all or nothing.”
“But-”
“Nope. No more other omega nonsense. I want you, and I’m determined that I’m going to have you. I just want to wait because, Auryn, I don’t think I could let you go.”
She is quiet for a long time, and then she turns her face into my chest. “I love you, too.”