Chapter 18
Lena
I’ve no idea what just came over me. As we drive away, Mia still fast asleep in the back, it almost feels as though nothing happened. Only the dampness between my legs and the soreness that comes with great, rough sex tells me I wasn’t imagining things, that it wasn’t some daydream or fantasy.
Judge is as unreadable as ever. I feel as if I’ll become addicted to seeing behind his mask. Because I know that, for a brief time, I made him let go of the control that he clings to.
I still can’t quite believe it. I’ve been with four different men in the space of a week.
I don’t know how I should feel. Society tells me I should be ashamed.
But I don’t feel like I’ve done anything wrong.
I feel emboldened. We’re all consenting adults.
And though the men are all good friends, they aren’t jealous of each other; they’ve made it perfectly clear that they are happy to share.
Even so, I worry about how Rex will react, what he will think.
He was fine with Cole and Doc, but he was there for both of them.
Will he be upset that I slept with Judge alone?
I’m so new to this whole polyamory thing, I have no idea what I should and shouldn’t be doing.
Surely Judge wouldn’t have slept with me if he thought it would hurt Rex, though?
I fret over this the whole car ride home. Judge looks over at me from the corner of his eye. “Don’t worry, Rex won’t be upset,” he says, as if he knows exactly what’s on my mind.
“How do you do that?”
“Do what?”
“Know exactly what I’m thinking.”
He almost chuckles, a sharp exhale of breath. “I don’t. But I’ve become quite good at reading people over the years.”
I nod, understanding. “You’re always watching everyone. Half the time, it’s like you blend in with the shadows.”
“I prefer it that way.”
“So, Rex won’t be mad, the others too. About what we just did?”
“Quite the opposite,” he replies with a knowing smile.
“How can they be? I mean, why?” I’ve never known guys to be so trusting. To share so freely without jealousy.
Again, almost as if reading my mind, Judge replies.
“Don’t get me wrong, if you hooked up with some other dude, we’d beat the shit out of the guy and you’d be out the door.
Cole can be pretty possessive, we all can.
But not with each other. It’s hard to put into words the bond we share.
Most women we’ve dated have been put off by it, knowing our sexual preferences, even if we’re monogamous.
If we each found the perfect woman, that would be great, too.
But we like sharing, and if we fall for the same woman, that’s fine by us.
Lena, what I’m saying is, whatever happens next is your choice. Whatever you decide, we’ll respect it.”
It’s the most I’ve ever heard Judge speak.
I’m a little awed by it. He’s so succinct and clear, explaining himself well without judgment or shame.
I don’t really know how to respond, so I just nod and thank him, losing myself in thought.
I know I need to make a decision soon about whether there really is a future in all this.
When we arrive home, Cole, Rex, and Doc are there waiting for us, sitting in the living room.
“Where were you?” Cole explodes, jumping up from his chair.
“I’ll take Mia up to bed,” Judge murmurs.
We’ve been gone all day. It took a while to travel to and from the hospital, and when you factor in stopping for food, spending hours with Big Joe, and our impromptu romp in the woods, it’s already dusk. I wonder how long the guys have been back, wondering where we all went.
“We were worried something had happened. That Zeke had found you,” Doc explains rationally.
“I’m sorry, I didn’t think… We were visiting Big Joe in the hospital, and time kind of got away from us. I thought Judge would have told you,” I offer lamely.
“Sure, if you count a message saying, ‘Going out. Lena and Mia are safe,’ as perfectly fine and not a cause for concern,” Cole says sarcastically.
Judge reappears, looking sheepish.
“I should beat the shit outta you for disobeying orders and then ignoring my calls,” Cole snarls at Judge, getting in his face. “Why the fuck didn’t you answer?”
While this is happening, I notice Rex prowling over to me like a caged lion. “Because they were fucking,” Rex says.
My cheeks flush scarlet as I realize Rex can literally smell sex on me, so much for not being mad about it.
He seems livid. Doc chuckles and looks appreciatively at us, as if only now noticing our rumpled clothes and hair, my lips swollen from his kisses.
Cole’s attention snaps to me as he takes me in before looking back at Judge, who confirms it with the slightest of nods.
Rex comes to stand behind me, so close he’s almost touching me.
“Where did he fuck you, Lena?” he purrs.
“In an empty room in the hospital? A supply cupboard?” I don’t move, I feel like a deer caught in headlamps.
He’s the predator, and I’m his prey—one move, and he’ll strike.
“No. That’s not it. So, in the car?” I must have moved slightly, some subtle shift that answers him.
“Yes,” I breathe as he presses himself against me, and I feel the hardness of his erection against my back.
His fingers lightly trail down my front, between the swell of my breasts, and I feel myself getting aroused as I realize this is another of Rex’s games.
The others watch with hungry anticipation.
“That’s not quite true, though, is it. If it were me, there wouldn’t be enough room inside to fuck you properly. Judge fucked you outside, didn’t he?”
“Yes. On the hood,” I admit, gasping as Rex lifts my skirt and strokes me through the lace of my panties.
Being watched by the others only serves to turn me on more, and I moan, my panties getting soaked as Rex possessively strokes my clit, holding me tight against his chest. “Such a bad girl. You’ve been fucked by all four of us now.
” He pushes my panties to the side and slips a finger in my tight slit. “And you loved it.”
“Yes,” I mewl in agreement.
“Do you want to be fucked by all of us at once?”
“Yes, god yes,” I moan in agreement as he slides his fingers in and out.
As if I’ve spoken the magic words, the others spring into action.
I hardly know where to look, as Judge, Doc, and Cole remove their clothes.
Although Judge and I just had sex, this is the first time I’m seeing him naked, and I marvel at the tattoos that snake across his lean chest. Doc has hardly any tattoos, and with his tan skin and dark eyes, he looks every inch the definition of tall, dark, and handsome.
In the brighter light of the kitchen, Cole is even bigger than I remember; his tall, broad physique dominates the space.
His muscular arms are adorned with tattoos of soaring eagles.
The sight of each of them, naked and erect, is enough to turn me on even more, and I don’t feel self-conscious about my body when Rex strips me bare.
“Stay still. Don’t move.”
I ache for Rex’s touch as he pulls away from me to remove his own clothes, but I do as commanded, shaking with anticipation for what’s to come.
I wonder how on earth I’m going to sleep with four men at the same time, and I’m grateful that Rex is taking charge.
Much to Cole’s disappointment, no doubt, control freak that he is.
But perhaps he enjoys giving up control in the bedroom.
I hear Rex sitting down behind me, and I feel a stab of disappointment, wondering if he’s going to just watch.
I’m soon distracted by Doc and Cole, who guide me over to the couch.
Doc sits, pulling me down to sit astride him.
I’m so wet, so horny, and ready that I’m grateful we don’t bother with foreplay.
I position Doc’s cock at the entrance of my slit and glide my slick pussy down his shaft slowly until he fills me.
“Lena,” Doc murmurs, looking into my eyes as I take charge, placing my hands on his chest and grinding on his cock.
Doc kisses and caresses my breasts, and I moan as I reach out for the others.
Cole comes behind me, pulling me back to kiss him and angling Doc’s cock inside me so it hits deeper as he teases my clit.
I moan, Cole capturing the sound as his tongue delves inside my mouth.
It feels delightfully wicked to have Doc’s cock inside me while Cole teases my clit.
“I want you to suck Judge’s cock,” Rex orders, and Judge comes around the back of the couch so I can reach him. I lean forward, again tantalizingly changing the angle of Doc inside me, and start to suck Judge’s cock.
With the new angle, my breasts are in easy reach for Doc, and he takes full advantage, nipping and sucking my nipples as I grind on his cock. I let out a moan of pleasure as I feel Cole part my ass cheeks, his tongue delving into my asshole.
“I’m going to fuck your ass, Lena,” Cole growls.
Anal sex isn’t something I’ve ever considered or particularly wanted to try.
But the idea of being filled by them all is so naughty, so arousing that I pant my approval.
I feel the cool jelly of the lube as Cole strokes and teases my ass, getting it ready.
He slips a finger inside, and with Doc’s cock inside me already, it feels even tighter.
I feel as if I could explode from this already.
I grind on Doc, rubbing my clit against his washboard stomach as I take him deeper while I simultaneously suck Judge’s cock.
“You have no idea how fucking sexy you look right now,” Rex growls. “Fuck her ass, Cole.”