Chapter 34
I’m Your Man
Lynn
“I thinkI had too much to drink, but I had fun. Thanks for doing this.”
I squeal when he stops and tosses me over his shoulder. He’s able to move faster with his long legs. We get to a cabin. Then he jogs up the porch stairs with me bouncing in his hold.
He allows my body to slide down his front as we get inside. It’s cute and cozy. He takes my hand and leads me into the bedroom where a king-sized bed covered in rose petals awaits.
There’s one of those sex chairs off to the right of the room. It blends in with the décor, and if you didn’t know better, you would think it were an ordinary chaise lounge.
I’ve seen them before but wouldn’t allow myself to think of Trevor. However, now as I stand here with him, I can’t keep myself from thinking about all the things he would do to me on it.
It’s positioned right in front of a mirror, so I can only imagine watching us as he takes me all over it. My juices start to flow from the thought alone. Anticipation hits hard.
I kick my shoes off because my feet are killing me. Trev works on the buttons of his shirt as he looks me in the eyes. I stand before him with my hands on my hips.
I can’t believe he’s all mine. I went from having the world’s biggest crush on him to being his girl in Paris to now having him in my life as the love of my life.
“What are you thinking, darlin’?”
“That you’re amazing and I can’t believe you’re mine. I remember when all we did was squabble. You used to drive me crazy. Now, I can’t see my life without you.”
He swallows hard as if trying to swallow down his emotions. His eyes are suspiciously moist as he searches my face with his gaze. Again, I get the feeling that something’s wrong.
“Talk to me, Trev,” I whisper.
He closes his eyes and takes a deep breath. I move closer to him and place my hands on his bare chest now that his shirt buttons are sitting open. He wraps his arms around me almost protectively.
“For darn near my entire life, it’s been ingrained in me to keep you safe. To look after you. Then, I started to love you as more than my daddy’s best friend’s daughter and that need to protect you became something I felt in my bones.”
He pauses and swallows deeply, his Adams apple bobbing. Placing his forehead against mine, he continues. “I’ve failed you. I allowed my temper to get in the way of doing the one job I had. In trying to be the man I wanted to be in life, I was manipulated into a life that shouldn’t have been mine.
“I wanted to be a good man with you, but I was turned into a bitter man without you. I almost lost control tonight, but the thought of losing you or leaving you without me again caused me to get myself in check.”
“Trev, is everything all right?”
“It will be.” He lifts a hand to cup my face. “My question is, are you okay? I’ve told you all about my life while you were gone, but I don’t think you’ve told me everything that has happened to you.”
I gasp and step back. He knows. I furrow my brows wondering how.
“Cody,” I breathe. “Why would he tell you about that?”
“Why wouldn’t you?” he says the words sincerely.
Not with any bite or anger, but with curiosity and concern. As he looks me deep in the eyes, I can see he wants to protect me and understand. I’m not sure how I feel about Trevor knowing.
After being able to allow myself to be intimate with him, I have pushed the incident to the back of my mind. Now, as I stand here, my brain begins to unpack my feelings so quickly, my knees almost give.
However, Trevor is right there to catch me. He lifts me into his arms and carries me over to the chair I had been eyeing earlier. Taking a seat with me in his lap, he lifts my face so I’m looking at him.
“You don’t have to talk about it if you don’t want. I just need to know you’re okay,” he says.
I lower my gaze. “I thought I was. It’s not something I talk about. I mean, I wasn’t okay for a long time. I didn’t trust men, and I couldn’t date or try to be intimate.
“I … I had been missing you, and I called. I wanted to know why you felt the need to send me that letter.
“I thought maybe we could be friends if nothing else. I didn’t understand why you would say those things. When I called, she answered. I was devastated.”
I don’t realize tears are pouring down my face until Trev begins to wipe them away with his thumbs. I take a deep breath, trying to gather my thoughts. I want to tell him, I want to help us both understand why I haven’t told him.
I blow out a breath and continue. “I figured that was all the answer I needed. From that day, I knew I would never contact you again. You were married. You didn’t want me.”
“That was a lie. I wanted you. I just didn’t know you still wanted me. I thought I was doing the honorable thing.
“I let you go because I thought you were happy. Your happiness always comes first, even if it hurts. I wanted you so bad, baby.”
“I know that now. That day when she answered saying she was Mrs. Monroe, I didn’t. I went to that party with those thoughts still in my head.
“I wanted to show you I didn’t need you. I could find new friends. I would find someone who did want me.
“Only, what I found was trouble. If that champagne hadn’t been so nasty and I had consumed the entire glass, I probably would be telling you a different story. However, I only had a sip and spit most of it back in the glass.
“It all happened so fast. The thought of him taking something from me I’d only given to you snapped the fight back into me. I remembered who I was and what I’m capable of and fought my way free.
“Then I ran like hell.” I scoff. “I ran right out my shoes, but I didn’t care. I kept running until I got home. I sat rocking and sobbing until Cody and Elise found me.
“A few days later, Cody brought in Matthew for me. He became everything I needed. A big brother, a manager, a PR manager.
“Wilson may be my head of security, but he takes his lead from Matthew. He’s like the big brother I never had. Cody checks in when he can, but Matt is always there,” I murmur.
“I’m glad you had Billings and Matthew, but I wish I had been there for you. It pains me that I wasn’t,” he says.
“You couldn’t have known what was happening to me in New York. You had your life here. It’s in the past. I don’t want you to worry about it now.”
“I’m your man. I’m gonna worry about anything that involves you. Like I said, your happiness and safety are a priority to me.”
“In that case, it would make me happy to change the subject. I didn’t tell you about it because being here, back in your arms, made me feel safe. I want to be present with you, not with what might have happened if I hadn’t gotten away.
“I’m here with you and that’s what matters. I know you want me, and I want you. I love you. Let’s not make this night about one of the worse days of my life,” I say.
He crushes my lips with his in a searing kiss. I open to him, whimpering as he palms my breast. He deepens the kiss. I moan and wrap my arms around his neck.
There’s a smoky flavor in his mouth that makes me groan and want more. He grasps my face in his hand and devours my mouth. I shiver in his hold as he begins to nip and nibble on my lips.
“You will never be without me again,” he breathes into my mouth.
“Trev,” I moan.
“I am yours until the day I take my last breath. Forever isn’t long enough to describe my love for you. I will love and be connected to you long after I’m gone from the earth.”
I stand from his lap and pull the zipper down on my dress and unhook it to let it fall from my body. He reaches to unzip his dress boots and kick them off, then pulls off his socks.
In nothing but my panties, I straddle his lap after he shifts on the chair to throw his legs on it. He cups my breasts then dips his head to pull one of my nipples into his mouth.
“Yes,” I cry out as he sucks deeply while rolling my other nipple between his fingertips.
I shift until my knees are planted beside his hips. Tugging his head back by his hair, I look down into his eyes. The love I see is all-consuming and overwhelming.
If he asked me to marry him in this moment, I would say yes. It’s not like when I was nineteen. I now know what we’re capable of handling. This time, our love is unbreakable.
We’ve followed our dreams and become the people we were meant to be, who we were meant to be together. As we have an unspoken conversation, he kneads the cheeks of my ass.
“I know,” he says as I try to tell him everything I feel with my gaze.
I kiss him, pressing my lips hard again his. The energy in the room changes and we both slow down. Trev pulls back and bites his lip as he stares into my eyes. I’m entranced by his gaze.
He drags his hands up my back, raising goosebumps across my skin. It’s like he’s setting me on fire with his touch. He grabs the back of my neck with one hand and tugs me back to his lips.
With the other hand, he turns it to glide it back down my spine, then slips it into the back of my panties. I whimper into his mouth as he finds my slick entrance from behind, bucking forward into him.
He moves his hand on my neck down to the center of my shoulder blades and cradles me against him as he moves his lips to my ear while pushing his fingers in and out of my soaked heat.
“Tell me what you want. Tell me what you need from me. How can I make tonight one of the best nights of your life?
“Tell me what you desire, Lynn. How do I become everything to you? How do I keep you from ever doubting me again?” he whispers in my ear.
“I want you. I need you, your touch. I need all of you, no more holding back.”
I know he’s been fucking the shit out of me since we’ve been together, but I know him well enough to know he’s still holding back some. There’s no need for either of us to hold back. This is who we are, what we want.
“A night with everything out there and just us in here would be the best night ever. I desire you, to be yours and only yours, to give you all of me. You’ve always been everything to me. I will never doubt you again because I know it’s you.”
I look him in the eyes and bring his hand to the center of my breasts as I rock my hips and he keeps pumping his fingers into me. I’ve always felt it. I just didn’t know what it was.
“That fire inside, part of it is you. I can feel you in here. When I follow that feeling, it always leads me to you.
“I won’t doubt what I can feel. I’ve always loved you, and you’ve always loved me. I can trust that feeling.
“You live inside me. You’re the flame to my wild heart. You make it complete.”
He moves lightning fast to take my lips and kisses me with so much passion my toes curl. I come apart all over his fingers. He tilts my body back until I’m lying over the curve of the chair.
Reaching for my legs, he tugs them from beneath me. Breaking the kiss, he peels my panties from my body and drops them to the floor. He unfastens his belt and removes it—all while holding my gaze.
I swear, I can see the fire burning within him. I reach for my breasts and squeeze them to relieve some of the ache. Trev drops his gaze to the action and it’s like his restraint is snapped.
“Trev,” I cry out as he reclaims his seat, then lifts my hips in the air to feast on me.
The chair supports my shoulders as it was made for positions like this. Trev is doing the rest of the work in supporting me as he holds my legs against his head.
Reaching over my head, I try to grasp ahold of the chair, needing an anchor. It’s useless, because it’s not my body that needs the anchor, it’s my soul.
It’s like I come out of my body and sit looking down on us. I’m somewhere in between, locked in the pleasure of his touch and reaching for the ecstasy he’s offering. Seeming to understand this, he begins to rub my clit.
“Oh. My. God.”
The words swoosh from my lips as I begin to squirt. I try to crawl backward away from him. My belly caves and my chest heaves. Trev tries to hold me in place as he goes to return to feasting on me.
“Ow,” he rambles as I accidently knee him in the head.
I pop up in shock and reach for the side of his face. “Babe, I’m so sorry. Are you okay?” I ask.
“Yeah, I’m fine.”
We both burst out laughing. His eyes twinkle with amusement. I wonder if he would be this amused if he were on the receiving end of the pleasure.
I push him back to find out. That was amazing. It’s only fair I try to match his energy.
Scooting back some on my knees, I reach for his pants and underwear to peel them down his hips. He lifts up for me to tug them down, helping to push the fabric as I pull.
I get them off and drop them. His big fat erection comes into view, causing my mouth to water. I bite my lip and smile, looking at him through my lashes.
This is going to be fun.
* * *
Trevor
A partof me knows I don’t deserve this woman. As she fits her small body between my legs and takes me into her mouth, I can’t help but sit in awe of her. She’s so strong and loving.
If I’m hearing her right, I’m the only man she’s ever known. If it weren’t for my blinding temper, Donna wouldn’t be a factor in what’s kept us apart for so many years. I will forever regret my part in all of this.
I was so young and dumb. All of this falls on me and still she loves me. Lynn would have me even if I’d never recovered from that accident.
“Focus on me,” she says after making a slurping sound that snaps me from my thoughts.
I groan and cup the side of her face. This chair is fucking amazing. I’ll have to get one for our bedroom. I throw my head back and rock my hips up with her bobbing motion.
“Mm,” she hums around me.
I look back at her, my lips parting at the sight of her enjoying this as much as I am. Lifting my left leg, I plant my foot on the chair. The motion catches my attention in the mirror beside us.
I drop the leg back down to get a view of Lynn as she works. I reach to brush her hair out of the way to see her face. She looks so fucking gorgeous swallowing my cock.
It feels amazing. The sight of her enjoying this while working her hands and mouth are enough to have me so hard it hurts.
“Baby, that’s so good,” I groan.
“You taste even better. I want you to come for me.”
Her words trigger something inside me. I want to come for her too, just not like this. I lift and stand. Swiftly, I grab her around the waist and carry her until we’re by what seems to be the head of the chair.
Placing her on her feet, I then turn her and bend her over the chair. I enter her and groan loudly. She calls my name out as I fill her tight pussy.
In this moment, I feel whole. She asked me not to hold back so I won’t. I grasp her hips and begin to fuck her hard.
I chase away my guilt, hurt, and anger as I pound into her. She takes it, offering me forgiveness, love, and a fresh start with each thrust. I can feel us healing each other with each passing second.
Bending over her body, I latch my lips onto her shoulder and suck her flesh into my mouth. Her pussy is getting so wet for me. The popping sound of my hips hitting hers fills the air like music.
I release her neck from my lips and straighten. Her walls begin to squeeze at me, causing me to glance over at the mirror. She’s watching us with lust in those big brown eyes.
Grabbing her breast, I bend my knees, drop my hips and thrust up into her, bringing her onto her toes. The wet sound her pussy begins to make drives me insane. The thought that she’s mine and has only ever been mine fills my head and swells my chest.
I wait for the guilt to come in and tamp down that joy, but it doesn’t. I know what I’ve done and the consequences of my actions. However, she’s made me whole again.
“Lynn,” I roar as I come inside of her.
I’m panting heavily, but I’m not done. I pull out and turn her to perch her on the chair, lying her on her back to enter her again as she pulls her legs into her chest. Then I reach to rub her clit as I watch our connection.
Watching her cream all over me is one of the sexiest sights I’ve seen in my life. I’m growing harder with each thrust. Her cries of pleasure fill the room, coaxing me to go deeper, harder, faster.
I give her all I have, knowing she’s giving me nothing less. I’m not sure how long it is before I come again deep inside her. What I do know is that I plan to do so again, over and over throughout the night.
When we leave here, she’ll be carrying another piece of me, because she already holds my heart. Always has, always will. My wild heart has come back to life along with hers.
This is who we are.