Chapter 28
28
RAINE
I ’m lying on my stomach with my head resting on my forearm when Killian climbs in bed. He lies on his side, facing me, and our gazes lock.
My left hand slides over his chest. “It’s nice not having to worry about getting caught,” I say softly.
“You never had to worry. They would’ve blamed me.”
“Sure. With good reason.” My tone is serious, but I let a hint of a smile show so he knows I’m teasing.
His heavy palm rests in the hollow of my back, his thumb stroking my skin and pushing against my muscles until they relax.
As my fingers trace the muscles of his abs, the back of my hand bumps against his cock. My index finger slides along his length. He’s as hard as stone. My hand closes around him and pumps up and down a few times.
After a moment, he pulls my hand away and then rolls closer to me, putting his hand between my legs from above. His palm presses against my ass as his fingers slide into my pussy. I spread my thighs and angle my hips so my clit rubs against the bed .
Just as the excitement begins to build, he pulls his hand away.
“Hey,” I whisper, reaching for his arm to put it back.
He swats my ass and sits up. “Stack up the pillows and lie face down with them under your hips.”
I arrange things and lie with my chest and the side of my face on the mattress. It’s more comfortable than being on my hands and knees, so I approve.
Killian takes a black pump bottle from his nightstand. At first, I think it’s lotion because we’ve used that on him during hand sex. But this is a clear gel that turns his cock shiny and slick.
“You know what I’m going to do to you, right?”
It takes a moment for things to click into place. A long time ago, he’d talked about back door sex and how he’d have to use lube. He’s put a finger inside my ass. It added to the excitement. But his whole cock…?
My toes curl against the sheets. “We can try it.”
I can tell by the look in his eyes he plans to do more than try. My heart thumps harder. Killian pushes my knees apart and then moves so he’s kneeling between them. The blanket ends up bunched up over my ankle.
“Pull the covers up. It’s cold.”
“You won’t be cold.” His fingers grip one of my ass cheeks to open me.
The sensation of his spreading my cheeks to make both my holes available to him causes my pulse to hammer, and my pussy to grow even wetter.
“Reach back and hold yourself open.”
I shiver but slide my hands back. When I’ve obeyed his command, he lowers himself onto his left palm, so the heat from his body radiates down onto my skin.
He presses his cock into the crease and slides it up and down, coating me with warm lube, too. Killian pumps more slick gel on himself and lets it drip down onto me.
The weight of his body presses against mine as the head of his cock teases my asshole. I circle my hips but can’t get a position that will rub my clit against the bed .
“Remember how to relax?” His voice is husky in my ear. “Do that.”
His finger presses his cock down against me. I close my eyes and concentrate on not clenching. When he enters me, my ring has to stretch taut around him. My breath grows jagged.
“Don’t fight,” he warns as he pushes deeper.
His cock is so thick. A burning pain shoots through me. I gasp and let go of my cheeks. My palms go to his thighs and try to push him back.
He doesn’t retreat.
“Killian,” I groan. “I’m not ready enough.”
“You will be. Move your hands, so I don’t crush them.”
My fingernails dig into his thighs. After a beat, he rocks forward. My hands collapse and are trapped between our thighs. One of his hands reaches around my leg, so he can tease my pussy. Two fingers push into me and his rough palm grinds against my clit.
The double penetration sends a spiral of lust through me, despite the burning in my ass. I moan into the sheets, my jaw slack. His hips draw back and then thrust forward gently. It’s like a scalding knife. Sharp pain is followed by scorching heat. My scream starts just as sharply, then fades.
“Relax for me. I’m gonna fuck you until I come.” His voice isn’t harsh, but it’s adamant. “I’m gonna fill you up with it.”
I shake my head, groaning as he starts to work me from both sides. Cream from inside me coats his fingers as he twists and then presses deep. He’s so big that it’s like his fingers are stroking his cock through me.
The sounds I make are tortured groans. He thrusts harder, forcing my clit down onto his palm as he does. I feel him from my ass all the way into my belly.
The arousal and pain become intertwined. I want to beg him to stop but I also want to come.
His harsh breath and the sound of his groin slapping my ass drowns out everything else. My beaded nipples scrape across the sheets as he pulls my body back onto his cock, skewering me until I don’t know where he ends and I begin .
Suddenly, I’m coming. The orgasm causes all the muscles of my lower body to clench, including the ones circling him.
“My pretty little whore,” he rasps with his mouth against my hair. “You’re gonna milk my cock with your virgin asshole?” Killian grunts and thrusts all the way inside, so his body’s pressed against my back and crushing me into the mattress.
My body continues to spasm until I think I’ll lose my mind from how much I feel all at once. My screaming into the sheets doesn’t deter him.
While I’m still coming, he sets a punishing rhythm that makes me unravel.
After breathless, excruciating moments where I scream my cries into the sheets, his hips jerk in short thrusts and silky warmth flows into me.
I can’t catch my breath. As his arms coil around me like snakes, it’s like I’m floating.
The way he used me was ruthless and raw. And it gave me the most intense orgasm of my entire life.
KILLIAN
I rub the cramps out of her muscles and then put Raine in a tub of warm, soapy water while I shower. Claiming her ass was the last thing I needed to do to satisfy the dark urges that have haunted me for so long.
The sex was intense, especially during the parts where she struggled through it. I love that she made herself take me even when it hurt. But surprisingly, the thing that mattered most was the way she clung to me when I carried her into the bathroom. And the way she kissed me while I filled the tub with bubbling water and silky foam.
When I’m finished with the shower, I dry off and lean against the wall, watching her. This is my best fucking life. Making enough money doing shit I don’t hate. And having her .
Raine’s eyes are closed as her toe plays with the lever that opens the drain.
After a while, she drains the water and refills the tub part way. While she’s lathering up her skin, I hear noise that signals War and Jamie are back. Her lids rise, and she glances in that direction.
“I’m glad they didn’t come home earlier,” she whispers. “I’m sure they would’ve heard us.”
“They would’ve heard one of us, that’s for sure.”
With a defiant smirk, she throws the washcloth at me. I catch it but don’t throw it back. One of us did the ass-fucking, and one of us took it… screaming. I move closer and set the washcloth on her knee.
Jamie’s advice fills my head, so I say, “Do you need anything?”
“Maybe a nose full of cocaine since my body feels as though it’s been fucked by ten guys, not one.”
My brows rise. “If you want pharmaceuticals, I’ll get them for you.”
A low chuckle emerges from her throat. “No. I was just kidding. About the cocaine part, at least.” Her gaze moves down my chest and stomach and stops at my groin. “I love your body, truly. It feels really good when you’re inside me. But a few hours to recover is probably a good idea.”
I nod. “I waited a long time to do the things I want to do to you.”
“Flood gates. I get it.” She smiles and then rinses her hair and body and stands.
I wrap a towel around her and hold her hand as she steps out of the tub.
“We’ll do whatever you want for the rest of the night.”
“Stream movies?”
“Sure, of course.”
She smiles as she pushes her hair behind her ears. Opening the door, she cocks her head to listen. “I think they went upstairs.” With quick steps, she returns to the bedroom.
I follow and watch as she puts on underwear and an oversized sleep shirt. When she’s back in bed, I get in with her, bringing my laptop. She’s lying half on her side, half on her stomach, watching me.
“If there are film festivals you want to go to, Raine, tell me. We can afford to travel. It won’t matter if the event’s sold out. I’ll get entry passes.”
Her fingertip plays with a damp strand of my hair. “That would be amazing. You wouldn’t have to sit through the screenings. I know you’d be bored. But it would be cool to travel together, at least for me.” Lowering her hand to her pillow, she curls deeper into the covers. “I know you prefer when we stay inside. Alone. We can have that to, if we plan things.” She yawns and rubs her eyes. “I think I’m too tired to watch anything.”
“Okay.” I set the laptop on the nightstand, trying to decide if it’s the right moment to continue talking or if I should shut the hell up and let her go to sleep. Putting an arm behind my head, I look up at the ceiling. “Things have changed. On my end.”
“Oh?” she murmurs.
I slide lower in the bed, so her face is only a few inches away from mine. Out of the corner of my eye, I confirm she hasn’t closed her eyes to go to sleep. When I don’t speak, she raises an eyebrow.
“How so?” Her voice is soft, like the rest of her.
I could crush her so easily. Could tear her apart during sex. At least my body could if I let it. I never would now.
“It’s more than it was,” I finally say, not sure why I’m fucking around when I should just tell her. It’s not like me to evade questions when Raine’s the one asking them.
After a few moments, she props her head on her hand and studies me. “What are you trying to say?”
I turn my head and stare her in the eye. “Yeah, that.”
“You love me?”
I nod, wondering if she can see the pulse jumping in my neck. This is like a hard workout and more.
She lowers her head back to the mattress and her fingers reach over so her fingertips can tap against my lips. “It’s changing for me, too.” Her hand slides down, her fingers scratching along my jaw and then tracing the muscle in my neck. “I didn’t think either of us could ever love the other. For me, too much had happened. It was so toxic. I thought you’d never change. ”
“Some things are the same,” I admit. “I’d still kill to protect you. The difference is now, I wouldn’t just be doing it for myself.”
“Progress. Of sorts .” She smiles and presses a finger against my side.
“I want to hear you say it.”
“I will. When I’m ready.”
I roll onto my side and pull her close, wrapping my arms around her. “It was harder to admit than I expected.”
“Of course it was.”
“Of course?”
“Everything you’ve ever felt has been one-sided. You didn’t need anyone to reciprocate your feelings. This time, you care whether I feel the same way. That’s love, Killian. It’s meant to be shared.”