Chapter 20 Axel
Axel
I was intoxicated by the feel of Luca’s skin on mine. Enamored beyond words, it was difficult to speak without taking what I wanted. “Are you sure about this? About me?”
It was the emotion in his eyes that almost took me to my knees. I wanted to beg him to look at me like that for the rest of our lives. Like he could love the real me.
“Yes, Axel. I’ve never felt safe with anyone, until you. I want you to know what you mean to me.”
“Your trust means everything to me.” Kissing his forehead, I cupped his face.
We stood chest to chest, vulnerable and open to one another.
“There’s something I need to say to you.
Sex, I know. But I’ve never made love with anyone.
You might be the only person I’ve ever allowed to see the real me.
It’s a big responsibility to be someone’s first.”
Luca tried to step back, but I tightened my hold on him. “Don’t shut me out.”
“I’m not,” he replied. “I’m not asking you for a commitment. I know we don’t do relationships.”
I burst out laughing. How could he not see it? Luca was fooling himself, and I was pleased to point out the flaw in his thinking.
“What’s so funny?”
“You are adorable,” I said, looking into his eyes. “We’re already there, love. You and I have ever,” kiss to right cheek, “so,” kiss to his left cheek, “slowly,” kiss to the tip of his chin, “accidentally fallen into the best kind of relationship.”
Luca’s eyes had fluttered closed between kisses. “What kind is that?”
Something new and wonderful filled my chest as I held him in my arms. “The kind that changes a man so slowly that you don’t realize it’s happening.
The kind that leaves you yearning to be with your person every waking moment.
The kind that seeped into my bones so deeply that you’re the first thing I think about every morning, and the last thing I think about at night.
The kind that makes me want to give you the world, even though you do your best to deny me the privilege.
When we do this, you’re mine for as long as you’ll have me. ”
Luca’s eyes slowly opened, full of tears he tried to blink away. “How can you feel that way about me?”
My heart felt as if it might leap out of my chest, into his.
“It’s simple. You are the best thing to have ever happened to me since the moment we met, love.
It seems I’ve been waiting for you as well.
Don’t expect me to let you go now that I’ve found you.
” I wiped away the tear that slid down his face, then kissed his cheek.
“I want to take care of you and make this the best night of your life.”
“I don’t want to have to think. I want to feel.”
“I can do that.” Releasing him to take his hand, I laced our fingers together and led him to my bedroom.
Padding onto the soft carpet, I stopped in the middle of the room to check in with him.
“Be patient with me. I’m used to being in control, but tonight, I’m giving that to you.
You alone determine what happens and how far we go.
I can read the sounds you make and the way your body moves.
Your sighs and whimpers, but I need your words. ”
“Okay.” Luca ran his hands through my hair, then pulled me in for a kiss. The rasp of his facial hair against mine caused explosions along the synapses of my nerve endings. I loved him, and there was not a damn thing I could do other than surrender to it.
When he pulled back, he appeared confident in his decision. “I’d like to shower off the day if that’s okay.”
“Of course. Whatever you want.”
“I might be a while. I’ve, um… researched what I need to do if I’m going to…you know.” He laughed at himself. “Why am I so nervous?”
“We’re following your lead. Tell me what you need.” Stripping my shirt over my head, I tossed it to the floor. Luca’s eyes roamed over my chest, admiring my ink. “I’m all yours, love. Do as you please.”
Those seemed to be the words he’d been waiting for. “I want to watch you undress.”
I wasted no time. “Have you ever seen a naked man before?”
He shook his head. “Only myself.”
Another first that would be mine. “I’m going to ruin your eyes for anyone else,” I said smugly, hoping to ease his nerves.
“Do your worst.”
I tucked a finger into his waistband. Pulling him to me, his hands fell on my chest. Luca shivered as his hands slid down to my unbuttoned jeans.
He kissed down my neck as he slipped one hand inside the back of my jeans to squeeze my cheek.
I groaned at the contact as he continued to kiss my chest while tugging at the zipper.
The back of his hand skimmed over the trail of hair that led inside my jeans.
I fed off his confidence, and when he hesitated, I urged him on. “Touch me. I’m dying here.”
He bit his lip and speared me with his eyes as I fought the urge to close my eyes to savor the first time he wrapped my shaft in his hand. Moaning uncontrollably, I breathed deeply. “It’s been so long,” I murmured as he squeezed my girth.
“I want to hear you. I love the sounds you make.”
Holding on for dear life, one swipe of his thumb over my leaking tip had my eyes rolling back as another moan escaped me.
Luca was going to make me lose it before he did.
This wasn’t about me; it was about him. But at the same time, I didn’t want to wreck his confidence.
“Love, is this what you want? I’m supposed to be taking care of you. ”
Luca leaned in and bit the side of my neck. “Yes. I want to see you fall apart from my touch. It’s intoxicating.”
His bare chest slipped along mine, sending another ripple of sensations through me.
He released me, much to my displeasure, to tug my jeans to my thighs.
My erection popped free and bobbed in cool air, honing in on the semen pooling and running down the side.
I was a mess of sensations, unable to focus when Luca dropped to his knees.
“I want to look at you,” he said, working my jeans lower.
“You’re fucking perfect,” he whispered as his hands went to my thighs, spreading his fingers to take in the coarse hair.
Long fingertips moved into the valleys where one muscle group changed into another.
I shivered as he teased the hair along my cock, then trailed his fingertips over my sac.
“You’re killing me, love.” I couldn’t remember the last time I’d been touched so reverently. I could feel his emotions in the way he ran his fingers over my skin. Luca studied every way that I shuddered and tensed my muscles. He was turning the tables on me. “I’m supposed to be…”
His right hand slid from my groin, over my abdominals, and grazed my nipples.
Warm brown eyes found mine. “You’re supposed to give me what I want.
I’m in control tonight, remember?” My heart squeezed, and I couldn’t form words when he leaned in and rubbed his face against my length.
“And you’re what I want,” he murmured, his warm breath ghosting over my skin.
He was testing every ounce of constraint I possessed.
His low hum of pleasure almost undid me, and I had to touch him.
My fingers found his elastic band and pulled it free.
His hair would have to be my distraction as he explored every inch of me.
“So perfect,” he murmured. His hands continued to roam my body as I watched, his fingertips teasing the crease between my cheeks. My shaft jerked as a shiver quaked through me. “Have you ever been touched there?”
Widening my legs as much as I could in my denim shackles, I groaned. “No. But I would allow you to. This would be so much easier if we were both naked.”
“True,” he said, moving away.
Luca stood and stepped back out of my reach while I discarded my jeans.
He began to remove his clothes with newfound confidence that was sexy as hell.
Never taking his eyes off me, he stripped himself bare.
Gritting my jaw, I fought not to look at his naked body.
Instead, I kept my eyes fixed on his, with the momentary slip to look at his ink.
Luca appeared to enjoy my efforts. “Where did all this confidence come from?”
He stepped closer, both of our cocks straining toward one another. I didn’t have to look at it to know. Luca trailed a finger over the intricate designs on my chest. “Touching you made my fingers tingle. It was like I was absorbing your energy and confidence. I didn’t want to stop.”
“You don’t ever have to stop.” Reaching for his neck, I pulled him to me and stole his mouth. I craved to pick him up and throw him onto the bed. Pulling back, I kissed down his neck. “I want to devour your sweetness.”
“Then do it. I won’t stop you.” He breathed heavily. “I’m yours, Axel. Have me.”
Gloriously naked, I allowed my eyes to roam down his body. He was perfectly sized, long and veiny. The tip was almost purple from constraint, and I wanted to ravage him. Mark him all over so no other man ever dared to take what was mine. “Remember, you asked for this.”
His grin unleashed a wave of desire I could no longer control. Picking him up, I took the few steps to the bed and placed him in the center on his back. I checked in. “You okay, love?”
“I love it when you call me that.” I never planned to stop.
Climbing over him like a predator, my erection dripped a trail up his thigh. Luca’s eyes watched as I marked his skin. “Jesus, that’s hot.”
I smirked back. “Just wait until I have you in my mouth.” Pressing a hard kiss to his lips, I tasted every millimeter of his sweet mouth.
He forgot about showering as I pinned his hands over his head and kissed down his neck and made my way over his body, taking a moment to worship his ink.
My hands slid down to his forearms, only to wrap around his biceps as I tortured the skin on his stomach.
His scent filled my nose, along with a sweet smell of his pre-cum on his abs. “Hmm, you’re making a mess.”
He huffed out a breath, making me smile. “Your fault.”
I kissed his side, sucking hard enough to leave a mark. “Guess I’d better clean that up.”
With the flat of my tongue, I lapped at every inch of his skin, making him squirm and hiss. I was about to explode, but tonight wasn’t about me. “Axel, please,” he breathed. “Please.”
“Okay, love. I’ve got you.” Stretching back up, I leaned in to allow him to taste himself on my tongue. His moan and the way he lifted his hips against mine were all I could take. Pulling myself away, I gave myself a moment to gaze into his swirling brown eyes. “You are so fucking beautiful.”
Not giving him a moment to respond, I stretched back down and took him into my mouth.
Luca sucked in a deep breath, almost to the point of hyperventilating.
Summoning all the self-control I possessed, I took him back in hand, licked up the underside along the prominent vein, then circled the head with the tip of my tongue.
A steady flow trickled down the side, where I greedily took care of it. “Delicious.”
Luca released a panting breath as I went back down on him. “Please, please, please,” he chanted. His thighs tensed, then trembled, as his hands clawed at my bedding. He was holding back.
Popping off, I met his gaze. “Let go, love. This is just the first time,” I whispered, then sucked him to the back of my throat.
When Luca came, he sat up, pressed my face to his groin, and sighed before falling back onto the bed.
I cleaned him up and released his spent member with a pop.
He hummed and shivered every time I touched his oversensitive tip.
He was the most relaxed I’d ever seen him.
Leaning up again, I kissed him softly. I needed to take care of myself. “I’ll be back.”
Luca’s eyes fluttered open as he reached for me. “No, you don’t. It’s my turn.”
He wrapped his legs around my hips and arms around my neck, then rolled me onto my back.
My hands landed on his ass to pull him closer.
We were skin to skin, head to toe, as he took over the kiss.
I liked him on top, pressing himself into me, taking charge.
Luca pulled back to look into my eyes, lips wet and kiss swollen.
His cheeks were a lovely shade of pink from my beard burn. “I’ve never…”
I leaned up and bit his lip. “You don’t have to do anything.”
“I want to. But if I bite you, I apologize in advance.”
Nodding, I closed my eyes, thinking I could stop my orgasm from roaring through me.
But the minute his mouth closed around me; I had to see him.
He worked my cock with his hand and sucked on the tip.
But when his eyes met mine, I saw everything in his eyes.
It was all I needed to lose myself to him. “Luca,” I warned.
He stayed put and plastered his left hand to my chest, taking everything I had to give him. When the shivers took over, he pulled off and looked up at me with his doe eyes. He was beautiful, and mine. “Was that okay?”
An exhausted and sated smile spread across my face. “No, it wasn’t okay. It was perfect.”
He rolled his eyes as I pulled him to me.
Settling on my chest, he wrapped his arm across my torso as I held him close and kissed his head.
I was in so much trouble. He had the power to destroy me if I allowed it, but he was all I wanted.
We stayed tangled together until I lured him into my shower, where I took him apart all over again.