Chapter 21 #2
She nodded. “Yeah. I don’t know what would have been illegal, but I’m sure there was something they were doing that wasn’t on the up and up.”
“I’m here for you, and if I’m on a mission, your friends will be with you.”
Before running away, she never expected anyone to have her back. It just wasn’t an option for women. If you screwed up, everyone would make sure that information was spread far and wide. With Q and his friends, now her friends, she knew they would help her.
Now they just had to wait for the social services person to get back with her so she could get her identification paperwork completed and then she could try to find work. Q was being very nice paying for so much stuff, but she wanted to pitch in and help with money.
The people at The Refuge had been very nice when she asked about money. That conversation had opened her eyes.
“What are you thinking?” Q asked.
She turned to him, smiling because she wanted to assuage his worries.
“I’m thinking about being able to dream bigger than I ever thought possible.
I won’t be an airline pilot or a ship captain, but I could be a nurse or a paramedic.
I could be anything, and that was never a possibility before.
But I know one thing I really want to be. ”
“What?”
“With you.”
Q heard Flora’s words, but it took a second to process through his brain. He pulled her onto his lap and kissed her. She didn’t pull away, so he turned her so she was straddling his legs.
She sat up and placed both hands on his chest. “I’m not saying I’m ready for sex, but I want more than just kissing.”
“You don’t have to.”
She nodded. “I know. I want you. I want to feel your body up against mine.”
He held her gaze, searching for any doubt or fear in her eyes. He found none.
The last thing he wanted to do was rush her, so he decided to take this as slow as he would have when he was a teen, figuring out how to explore a woman’s body. If Flora wanted to remove clothes, that was up to her. This first time, he would touch her on the outside of her clothes.
His fingers slid down the side of her body, his thumbs grazing her breasts. She jumped, and he slowed his movements. Her eyes grew darker as he ran his fingers over her belly and then up the center of her body. She didn’t shy away when he ran his fingers between her breasts to her throat.
He wanted to make this special and make her feel good. Would she be relaxed enough this first time?
She had her hands on his shoulders but moved them lower to the top of his pecs as he reached down and cupped her breasts. She jumped when he slid his thumbs over her breast.
“Was that too much?”
She shook her head. “No, I liked it.”
He ran his thumbs over her breasts, slowing as he grazed over her nipples. She gasped, then rolled her hips closer to him. He was getting hard but wasn’t at the point his dick was uncomfortable.
Flora adjusted and reached up, unbuttoning her shirt. “Is this okay?”
“Yes. It’s up to you how much you remove. You can stop there if that’s what you want.”
She stood and moved off his legs before grabbing the front of her jeans and unbuttoning them. “I want it all off. I want you to touch me between my legs.”
He swallowed and nodded, wondering how the heck he’d gotten this lucky. She shoved her pants low and kicked off her shoes and socks, standing in front of him in only her shirt and underwear. She looked so freaking sexy that his cock hardened. He reached down and adjusted it in his pants.
When Flora knelt in front of him, he couldn’t hold in the gasp. Then she reached up and pulled at the button on his pants.
“You don’t have to.”
“I want to see you. I’ve never seen a naked man before, and I have no idea what you look like.”
He cupped her face and lifted her chin so their gazes connected. “I’ll take off my clothes and let you explore my body. I’m probably going to come—have an orgasm because just being next to you like this is making me so hot.”
She licked her lips, and he almost blew his load right then.
He stood and removed his shirt and then his pants.
Her wide-eyed gaze was filled with lust. His balls pulled up as anticipation filled him.
He wanted this more than anything, but he couldn’t scare her.
Going slow would make it much better for her.
“Before I remove my underwear, I want to make you feel good.”
“How?”
“I’m going to touch you. If you don’t like something, tell me. I don’t want to go beyond what you’re comfortable with. I want this to feel good for you.”
Flora nodded as anticipation filled her. Q sat beside her and moved her to his lap. He ran his fingers over her shoulder and then lower to her breasts. He pulled at one nipple and then the other, making her gasp.
When his fingers slid lower over her belly, her whole body shook. Her heart was racing, and she felt like she couldn’t get enough air. She wondered if anyone had ever died from this feeling.
“Are you okay with this?” Q asked.
“Yes.” Her voice came out breathy and thin.
His gaze stayed on her as he slid his hand even lower over the outside of her panties. She gasped as he pressed one finger against her, sending a shockwave through her. He paused and raised an eyebrow.
“Do that again.”
He smiled as he did that again. She felt like her whole body was on fire. Heat raced up her neck and down her legs. He was only touching her on top of her underwear, but it was enough to make her feel like she was about to fly apart.
He rubbed that spot again, and she gasped and clenched her muscles. It was too much. She clung to him, crying out his name as something overtook her that she’d never experienced before.
She couldn’t breathe, and stars danced in her vision. She melted against him, seeping into oblivion. Her eyelids felt heavy, and she closed her eyes for a moment, but she wanted more. She wanted to see what he looked like without clothes on.
After a moment, she pushed away from his chest and opened her eyes, feeling a little like she was drunk or something. “That felt amazing.”
“I’m glad you liked that. It was just a small taste of what it can be like between us.”
“I want to see you naked. I know the basics of sex, but I don’t know what to expect. I didn’t think it would feel that good when you touched me.”
“I’m glad your orgasm felt good.”
“Does it feel that good for you when you have an orgasm?”
He nodded as he moved her off his lap. He stood in front of her and shoved his underwear low. She gasped. “How is that supposed to fit in me?”
His chuckle warmed her. “Women get babies out. My dick is tiny compared to that. The first time will hurt, but we’ll go slow and make sure you’re really ready.”
“How can I get ready for that?”
He leaned over her and placed his hands on the back of the couch beside her head. “First off, I can touch you, then slide my fingers inside. You can also finger yourself. Have you ever done that?”
She shook her head. “No. That’s not something we could do.”
“Well, I’m here to tell you that it’s totally fine for you to touch yourself in private.”
“I’m not sure I could.”
He shrugged. “You don’t have to. There is no requirement to do it, but if you ever want to, you can. I want you to feel good about yourself and your sexuality.”
Heat rose again on her cheeks as she looked between them and saw his dick. She wanted to touch him but was afraid of getting it wrong.
“You can touch me.”
She glanced up and met his gaze. “How?”
He sat next to her and took her hand. “Let me show you.”
Q thought he was going to come as he guided her fingers over his cock. Her touch was light, almost whisper soft, and it was like silk on him, leaving him grasping for control. When she squeezed his cock at the tip, he had to close his eyes and think of anything else to stop his balls from emptying.
“Is this okay?”
“Oh God, yes. I’m so close. I can’t control—” He gasped again as she wrapped her fingers around him. It was enough to make him blow. He had more control than this, but with her, he was lost. She made him feel things at a different level.
He gasped at the intense sensation when she ran her fingers over his cock after he’d come. She froze, looking afraid, and he shook his head.
“Just too sensitive. It’s okay, just too much for me to handle.”
“Does it always feel this good?”
He shook his head. “No. One of us might feel off, or we’ll have something on our minds. Life gets in the way, but I think when you connect and really want the other person to enjoy what you’re doing, it’s great.”
“Well, I really enjoyed that. I don’t know what I’m doing, but I want to learn.”
He nodded. “I want to make sure you don’t feel pressured into a relationship with me. That was amazing. You’re amazing, and I want you, but you can still say no to me.”
“I don’t want to say no to you.”
He held her gaze, hoping she really meant that. “Still, we’re going to go slow. I have feelings for you, and I don’t want to overwhelm you. You’re new to this.”
Laughter spilled from her mouth. “I’m new to everything real.
I don’t know most of what’s going on, but I do know I feel things for you.
When I was gone, I kept thinking of you.
I met other men, some of them single, but I had no desire to spend hours talking to them.
This thing between us feels right. Henley talked about feelings and how to know. And I know that you are it.”
“I can mess up, and I can be a jerk. I want to try with you, but I’m not perfect.”
“Neither am I. And I think we can both grow together.”
He rested his forehead against hers, wondering how he’d found such a great woman out in the woods. He hadn’t even been looking, and he’d found her.
“Would it scare you off if I told you I was falling in love with you?”
She shook her head. “No, it wouldn’t. I’m falling in love with you, too.”
He sighed, happy that they were such a great fit together. He hoped Flora never changed her mind, because he wanted their relationship to last forever.