Chapter 3
Raven
You’ll never be good enough for anyone, it’s better this way.
To end it all now before you fall in love with them.
No more bleeding yourself out, no more blades.
The demons will never let me rest. I can faintly hear people talking while I am being jostled around.
I can feel him, one of my guys, as he grabs my hand and squeezes.
I want to open my eyes, I’m trying, but I can’t.
My whole body hurts, and my eyes feel glued shut.
Then everything goes black again, and I’m left with a coldness I’ve never experienced before. I’m alone; I’ll always be alone.
“She’s trying to give up,” I can hear a man yell, but they aren’t wrong.
Let me go, it’s better for everyone that way.
My guys will be better off without me in their life, that’s the only reason all this is happening.
Me, it’s all because of me. Bret won’t ever give Luis back if I’m still here.
I’ve been a pawn in his game for far too long and now I’ll be off the board.
The light is right there, I can see it. I can damn near touch it.
Beeeep. Then my body is jerked from where I’m laying and it feels like I was just struck in the chest by lightning.
It happens again, then more commotion as I’m moved around again.
Lights pass over my eyes and I just want to open them, then I hear it.
Damien’s voice, faintly next to me. Please, please let me see him.
One last time, just to see one of the loves of my life before I leave this shit world.