Chapter 24
twenty-four
Ev
Thanks for the other day, Sir
Sorry you didn’t get a lot out of it
Tony
I didn’t go to your estate so that I could get off
Besides, I think Jaime had to thank you for how “worked up” I was when I got home
How are things with Santos?
Ev
Good, I think
I just keep worrying
He has a lot on his plate
I don’t want to be another thing he has to battle with
Tony
You mentioned something along those lines
Boy, speaking as a Dom, you’re not something he’s adding to his plate, you’re his key to get some fucking release
Ev
But he’s not a Dom
Tony
Yes, I heard that a dozen times
Does it matter that much?
Ev
No
I just worry, that’s all
Tony
Can I be frank, boy?
Ev
Of course, Sir
Tony
I don’t think you’ve had a lot of closure with that online Dom.
Either that, or something about your dynamic with him has set you back, and until you figure out which one it is, and do something about it, you’re going to second guess every step you take with Santos.
Which isn’t fair to anyone, but definitely not someone who, as you’ve put it, has other battles to fight
Ev
I’m not sure I follow, Sir
Tony
Mind you, most of what I know comes from Jaime and María, but I would say I have a good sense of who you are as a sub, and how much you’ve grown since you joined Plumas.
I was there too, many of the times a scene went wrong and you had to pick up the pieces.
It hasn’t set you back in years, but when I was there on Monday?
It was like having a flashback to that first year where you were insecure and couldn’t pick a kink to try out at any given time
Ev
I just don’t want to overwhelm him more
And, I mean, yeah, the thing with Sir Ismael affected me more than usual
I guess I was more invested, and thought it was real
Or sub-frenzy?
I don’t know
Tony
You do realize not all dynamics start off as an experienced Dom (or top, or however you wanna call it) and a less experienced sub, right?
You have more experience than him. Take advantage
Ev
Wouldn’t that be like Domming him?
Tony
So it’s the two of you who get hung up on semantics. Sure, you can say it’s Dominating someone if you ask them to kick your balls until you’re gasping for air on the floor, but who’s going to end up in serious need of a first aids kit afterward?
Ev
It’s more than that, Sir
Maybe I’m selfish, but I don’t *want* to do that
I mean, yeah, I wanna talk about what I want and don’t want, but I don’t wanna *tell* him exactly what to do
Tony
Then find someone else who does it, Ev, because that guy might worship the ground you walk on, but he’s begging for direction just as bad as you are
Ev
You think that’s fine? Like, he won’t hate me?
Tony
He didn’t hate you when Sir Ismael was in the midst, did he?
Ev
Well, no
He went really hard on me then, too
Tony
So, in the presence of two different Doms, he goes as hard on you as you want him to, and you’re still wondering what the solution to your problems is?
Ev
Weren’t you the brat *tamer*, Sir?
That sounded like a lot of attitude
Tony
Pot, meet kettle
Talk about cruising for a Dom with your man, boy. That’s an order
Ev
Fine
I will, Sir