Chapter 16
Tianna
The days seem to trickle by slower and slower. Being with Remy has calmed something inside me. It’s him. It’s always been him, and no matter how hard I tried to fight it, I lost.
“You look happy,” Kiki says as she walks over and passes me a drink.
“I am, and I’m not.”
“You miss her. I get that. But the guys are doing everything they can to get her back. I’m sure they’ll have her in no time.”
“I hope so. It’s so hard being without her,” I tell her. She nods her head just as all the guys stand and rush from the room. Kiki glances around, just as confused as I am. She tries to stop one of the guys to see what’s going on, but they ignore her and rush to the office.
“What the hell is happening?” she mutters under her breath.
“Must be important.”
“Must be.” We both sit back and watch as a few come out and make their way outside, but no one says a word to us.
We don’t move from our spots as we watch for a few more minutes when the guys start to filter out and out the front door.
“I’m going to ask Locke,” Kiki says and takes off across the room to him. I watch them talk before Remy comes out, his eyes finding mine. He motions for me to come to him and I do quickly.
“There’s some shit goin’ down. I need to go, but there will be a few guys hangin’ back.”
“What happened?”
“I can’t talk about it right now. Just wait for me, yeah?”
“I will. Be careful.” He leans down and presses his lips to mine before pulling away and heading out the door. Kiki kisses Locke as he does the same, and then she comes back over to me.
“I didn’t get much information,” she reports with a sigh.
“Me either.”
“So, do you have everything ready for Charlie?” Now, I look over at her.
“What do you mean?”
“They’re going to find her, Tianna, and she needs things. A bed, toys, clothes.”
“I haven’t even thought that far ahead,” I tell her.
“Well, let’s go grab the laptop and see what we can find. Most of that shit we can have here in a few days,” she says as she grabs my arm and drags me along with her. We walk down the hall and into her and Locke’s room, where she grabs her computer and drops onto the bed. I sit next to her as she pulls up everything.
“This is so cute,” she squeals as she looks at things.
“I don’t have the money for this,” I tell her.
“It’s fine. Remy gave me his card and said to let you order whatever you wanted,” she says, pulling his card from her pocket and passing it to me. I flip it in my hands as she keeps scrolling.
“That’s what he said?”
“Yeah. He didn’t think you’d take it from him, so I took it for you,” she laughs. She’s right. I probably wouldn’t have taken it from him.
“After everything I put him through,” I mumble under my breath.
“He loves you, Tianna. And that baby,” she says. My stomach churns as I stand and race into her bathroom. I’m hanging my head in her toilet when she walks in.
“You okay?”
“I’ve been sick. I don’t know what’s going on.”
“Tianna, don’t get mad, but are you pregnant?” My heart nearly stops in my chest. Could I be? No. I can’t. That would mean this baby is Brad’s. No. I shake my head rapidly as she passes me a rag. I grab it and wipe my mouth before standing next to her.
“I honestly don’t know.”
“Do you want a test? The club girls keep them around,” she tells me. My stomach rolls as thoughts of Remy with the club girls cross my mind, and I rush back to the toilet.
“I’m going to get one,” Kiki says before leaving the room. Oh my God. What if I am? What if the baby is Brad’s? What will Remy say? He isn’t going to want me after that.
Tears well up in my eyes, and I quickly blink them away. No. I can’t keep crying. I have to be stronger than that.
Kiki returns with the test and helps me off the floor for a second time.
“I’ll wait outside,” she says, but I shake my head.
“Stay. Please.” She nods her head, and I pull my shorts down to take the test. I’m nervous. I’m scared to death that if I am this baby is Brad’s. My stomach churns at the thought.
I pee on the stick and cap it, setting it on the edge of the sink before cleaning myself up.
“Are you scared?” Kiki asks.
“Shitless. I don’t know what Remy would do or say if I am.”
“He’s not going to love you any less, Tianna.”
“You don’t know that. He might not even want anything to do with me.”
“Have a little faith in that man. He loves you,” she tells me once more.
“I’m trying,” I tell her. She pulls me into her arms and holds me while we wait fifteen minutes for the test. I feel sick. I don’t know what to think. If Brad found out … oh God. He could never know. How am I going to hide it? How would I hide this from him?
“It’s time,” Kiki says after checking her phone. We both lean over the counter and stare at the test in front of us. Two pink lines stare back.
“He’ll take this baby from me, Kiki. He’ll take it, and I’ll never see it again,” I sob now.
“Fuck. Come here,” she says, pulling me back into her arms. “Remy won’t let him near you. Do you hear me? The guys will protect you and this baby.”
“How can I even have this baby? Do I even want it?”
“God, Tianna. I’m so sorry. I don’t know how to help you right now.”
“I can’t tell Remy. Not until I decide. Promise me you won’t say anything,” I beg her as I pull away and look at her.
“You can’t keep this a secret.”
“I have to! I don’t even know if I want to have this baby!”
“Why wouldn’t you?”
“It’s his, Kiki. It’s Brad’s. Do you know what he’d do if he ever found out?” I can’t do this. I don’t know what to do.
“You can’t keep this a secret, too, Tianna. You’ll rip Remy apart if you do,” she says. She’s right. It will kill him if I keep this a secret, but how do I tell him?
“You’re right. But … just give me a few days, okay? Let me think about this,” I tell her. She nods her head and pulls me back into her arms, holding me as I cry.
Why does nothing in my life work out? Why is everything so screwed up?