Reuben Chapter 5
I had meant to explain myself calmly to her then, if she permitted, to ask for a first kiss.
However, having her too close and sensing she was about to bolt, I reacted by plastering her upper body to mine and laying my first kiss on her.
I took it easy, coaxing her rather than devouring her, which was what I wanted to do.
Cristiana’s scent, the feel of her skin, and the weight of her body on mine fired up my inner Dom.
I often gave my subs both gentle and hard, whatever suited us both best.
As I kissed and continued to coax Cristiana’s mouth, I was taken by surprise when, suddenly, her tongue thrust inside my mouth seeking what I hoped was my tongue.
I’d been holding back from doing this to her.
With her making that move, I switched to a more aggressive kissing style.
Her moan when I did told me she was all for it.
An almost frantic wave had not just my mouth thrusting and twisting my tongue, kissing her mouth, and nibbling on her lip, but her feeding the same way from me.
Her hands rubbed along my pecs. I wanted my shirt gone and us skin to skin.
Cristiana’s ass coming up off my lap made my hands automatically slide from her ribs to underneath each ass cheek.
I gripped them and squeezed. Her ragged whimper and the way her hips bucked told me she liked that, too.
Just this much had me rock-hard and convinced she was the perfect sub and woman for me. There was no way I’d want anyone else, not even to play, when I had her. I wasn’t letting her leave until I finished my prior explanation and hopefully sealed the deal.
I was the one to groan when her undulating hips caused her to rub her core over the erection I was sporting.
Cristiana moaned and pressed down on it.
My hips, of their own volition, thrust upward, driving my cock into her pussy.
It didn’t matter that there was clothing between us. We both panted and gasped.
I wanted this to continue and for the natural progression to lead to her naked on my couch with me buried inside of her.
However, first, I had to clarify things.
I refused to have her come back later and say I didn’t, and she was leaving me.
Whatever it took to keep her if she committed to me, I’d do, short of sharing her. I could never do that.
My mind was made up. Cristiana Perez would be my woman and sub.
And it would be for life, though I’d keep that to myself for now—no use scaring her off.
I had a feeling she would be skittish. The past she wasn’t telling me had to be the cause.
I’d find out soon and make sure she was aware she was safe with me.
Reluctantly, I let go of her ass cheeks, then her lips. She whimpered and tried to bring our mouths back together, but I shook my head.
“No, bebé, baby, we’ve got to stop. We’re not done talking.”
As she slowly moved back, I saw her desire clearly, as well as her disappointment at having to stop.
“Believe me, I hate to do it. But I want us to be on the same page and in agreement. After that, if you want to kiss, I’ll be more than happy to do it,” I assured her.
As she shifted her hips back, she dragged her pussy over my engorged cock. We both groaned.
“Fuck, I need you to sit still so that I can think and talk,” I told her, as I slipped her off me and onto the sofa next to me, but I didn’t put a lot of distance between us. I took her hands in mine again.
“Where did we leave off?” I muttered. “Oh, right, you cut me off before I finished. What I was about to say is, while all that is true with all the women in my past, it’s not what I want with you.
With you, Cristiana, I want you to be embedded not just in my life here at Lustz, but also in my outside life.
I won’t need other women to play with or have sex with if I have you.
And so you know, sharing you will never be done.
Never. I’d kill anyone who touched you that way.
I want and need all of you, and in return, I’ll give you all of me. ”
Her astonishment was evident on her face.
Her mouth dropped open. Her eyes widened.
She scanned my face. I let her see my desire and so much more.
Never had I been tempted to give my heart to a woman, but I did with her.
It was crazy to think that after only two encounters, but I didn’t care.
Mikhail, Hoss, and Carver had been right.
When it was the woman meant for you, it could be instantaneous.
The beginning of an emotion I was unfamiliar with was blossoming inside me.
The wild, exhilarated way it made me feel had me thinking it was the beginning of love.
Wow, that was fucking unreal and scary while, at the same time, incredible.
Another insane thought entered my head. If I had a ring with me, I knew I would’ve brought it out as I got on my knees and asked her to marry me. I’d pledge my life to her.
Somehow, I managed to restrain all those crazy feelings and thoughts. I waited anxiously for her to say something, anything. Finally, after several moments, her mouth closed a little, and Cristiana spoke.
“R-Reuben, I don’t know what to say. Everything you said isn’t news to me, except the last part. I don’t see how you can say those things so positively. We barely know each other. You can’t possibly know what you’ll want or do. And if you’ve never been monogamous, how do you know you can?”
“I can’t tell you how I know, only that I do. I feel it here and here.” I pointed first to my heart, then to my stomach.
“Have you ever had a lasting relationship with someone where you were exclusive?”
“In high school and before I found myself in this lifestyle, yes, I had a few.”
“I’ll be honest, Reuben, the thought of risking this with you and finding out you can’t be only with me is scary. We don’t even know what we like or want from each other. Just because you’re a Dom and I’m a sub isn’t enough. You know that.”
“I do. So, tell me, what is it you seek, in general terms? What is needed for you to be fulfilled and happy with your Dom and sexual partner?”
She swallowed before answering.
“I don’t need a man to control and dictate my entire life.
I’m intelligent and independent enough to do that.
I do need someone who will support me when I need it.
To be there to talk things through, and to share everything about his life with me, while I do the same with him.
I want him to be able to see me as his strength when he needs it.
In my book, it’s all about being the ultimate partners.
“As far as when it comes to me being a submissive, I’m not looking for a Dom who is into harsh punishments, humiliation, degradation, excessive pain, or those things.
I thrive best when all my senses are awakened and satisfied, if that makes sense.
I don’t mind hard and wild, but it has to be tempered at times with soft and gentle.
I want to experience all levels of those sensations. ”
Her confession made my heart race. Christ, she was exactly who I needed and wanted in my life.
“Cristiana, damn, what you just told me is right out of my dreams. I’m not a Dom who is into those things you mentioned you don’t want.
The senses are what I’m all about. Carino, you’ve got yourself a very dedicated, thoroughly experienced pleasure Dom. ”
Her gasp, the wonder, and the heat my confession caused in her gaze had me smiling.
“Are you serious?” she whispered.
“I’m fucking one hundred percent serious.
The kind of man you want outside of the play and bedroom is the sort of woman I want.
My friends have nothing but their ideal women.
If you can give me those things in and out of the club, then you’re perfect for me.
And I’ll do whatever it takes to ensure you’re never unfulfilled, undesired, unseen, and more.
Your pleasure is mine. Please, God, tell me you’ll do it.
Tell me we can come together to make our dreams come true,” I demanded hoarsely. My hands came up to cup her face.
Next thing I knew, her hands did the same to mine. “Reuben, I hope you’re telling the truth, God help us. Because if you’re not, I can’t guarantee I won’t go crazy. My answer is yes, if you’re sure.”
My response was to kiss her again. It was all hot and hungry this time. I was afraid to believe she said yes.