Chapter 12
Grace
Son of a biscuit eater! What had I just said?
Had those words actually come out of my mouth?
Goodness gracious and shut the front door!
What the fudging-fudge had Kai done to me?
I’d said, fuck! OMG! I’d asked Kai to fuck me—right now!
My heart threatened to beat out of my chest, and my pulse thrummed a staccato rhythm throughout my body. I felt flushed and turned on in the best of ways. I’d never been so bold or direct. It was liberating, exciting, and scary all at the same time.
Kai stared at me like he wanted to eat me, and I welcomed it.
Only Kai could have this effect on me, pushing my boundaries and comfort zones while making me understand I was safe and in control. My core pulsed in anticipation, and I’d never been so excited.
“Fuck, sweetheart!” Kai groaned. “You can’t say shit like that or I’m likely to embarrass myself again.”
He buried his head in my neck as I chuckled.
“You told me to!”
“Yes, but I didn’t expect you to say it today, right now. Nothing could have prepared me for hearing you say those words.” He pulled away from my neck and met my gaze with his blazing sapphire-blue eyes. “Are you sure? Are you ready to have sex with me right now?”
He was so caring, so concerned with me and my needs and wants. “I’m sure. I want this with you, Kai. Show me what it can be like, but only if you’re ready too.”
The respect and care he’d shown me made it easy to give myself to him.
I couldn’t get enough of this man. His kindness, his words, his touch. I wanted it all for as long as he’d have me.
“I want to. I want it all with you.” He pressed his forehead to mine, and we breathed each other in.
“But there’s a problem. I don’t have any condoms.” He moaned, clearly frustrated.
I tugged on my lower lip. My core was still throbbing at the idea of sex with Kai. I wanted it. I wanted to share this with him. “How would you feel about going without?” It couldn’t hurt to ask, right?
His eyes widened in surprise. “You’d actually want that? I haven’t had sex since well before I lost my leg, and had full blood work done at various times over the year, and everything came back clear.” His brows pinched together. “What about pregnancy?” His voice wavered as he avoided eye contact.
I got it; we’d just reconnected. Neither of us was ready for a baby, but his avoidance of my gaze and pinched expression had a twinge of hurt welling inside me.
Did he not want children someday? Maybe he couldn’t, or something else happened when he was injured.
I’d always longed to be a mother, but had known it could never happen with Cain.
Would it be the same with Kai? No, it wasn’t. It couldn’t be.
As I tried shaking off my unwanted melancholy, I placed my hand on his cheek, begging him to look at me. “I have an IUD and have had two different panels done since I left Cain. Both came back negative. So, if you want to do this with me, I’d like to share this with you.”
“I’ve never gone without before. I’d love nothing more than to fuck you raw and feel you come apart on my cock,” Kai growled.
“Oh, my!” Well, that was one way to get my heart racing again. Oh, boy! Holy hotness, Batman. Wetness pooled between my thighs, and I was so ready to take this step with Kai. I’ve never wanted anyone as much as I wanted Kai.
“Are you sure?” Kai asked again.
“I’m sure. Take me, Kai, make me yours.”
“Fuck, Wildflower!” Kai rolled back on top of me and crashed our mouths together. He took control of the kiss, his tongue licked along the seam of my lips before delving in. His tongue glided over mine before I shocked both of us and flipped our positions, so I was straddling his waist.
“Well, sweetheart. If you wanna drive, all you had to do was ask,” he teased, as he pulled me down to kiss me again.
This time our tongues battled for dominance, and he ran his hands over my thighs and around to squeeze my butt before settling his hands on my hips. Kai guided my hips to rock against his fabric-covered cock, and I was on fire.
“Kai,” I panted. Needing more, wanting his skin on mine everywhere possible.
My hands teased over his stomach and down to the waistband of his sweats.
“I need you naked.” Panting, my desire took over, making me bold and uninhibited.
I’d never been in control or been this demanding before, and it was turning me on.
The respect Kai showed me in every touch, every caress, had sparks dancing across my skin.
He’d given me the space and ability to voice what I wanted, and getting to do this with Kai was beyond my wildest hopes and dreams.
“Your wish is my command,” Kai said as he sat up, taking me with him as he kissed me passionately. He reached behind himself and pulled his hoodie up and over his head before throwing it to the side.
“Now these.” I teased my hand along the top of his waistband, delighting in the way his muscles quivered at my touch. “I want to see you.”
“You will, darlin’. Up.” He tapped my hip, and I hurried to move off him as he lifted onto one leg, and he pulled his sweats and boxers down in one swift movement.
He was a thing of tortured beauty. All tanned skin, scattered scars, and sculpted muscle leading to an impressive cock.
But something else distracted me from his intense erection.
Delicate lines of a tattoo curved along the edge of his thigh, in line with his groin. It was small, only about four inches long but it made me pause.
Were they… flowers?
“What’s this?” I whispered reverently, as I tentatively stroked the delicate line work of forget-me-nots, lupines and asters.
A blush colored the apples of his cheeks, as he ran a hand over the top of the tattoo in a subconscious gesture. Like a comforting tick he was unaware he was doing.
“It’s my wildflower.” His words rang out in the silence between us, turning it heavy as my gaze met his.
“Your…wildflower. Kai…is this…really…” My voice trailed off, it couldn’t be for me, could it?
“Sweetheart.” That one word held so much emotion I thought I’d drown in the ocean storm that swirled in his blue eyes. “It is. I needed you with me.”
“Oh, Kai.” My breath hitched, a knot tightening in my stomach as my fingers brushed his cheek, the world narrowing to the space between us. I used my body and mouth to convey the immense honor I felt about the tattoo.
This man, my Kai, had inked his skin as a permanent reminder of me, ensuring I was always with him. If that didn’t clearly demonstrate the depth of his emotions, then I don’t know what would.
We got lost in each other, fueled by the truth he’d just revealed. I met his kiss, stroke for stroke as I began to rock into his body again.
His cock, which had softened at my discovery, rose quickly and soon we were both groaning as my desire tripled.
I teased my fingertips down his sides, over his ab muscles, right to where the tattooed flowers lay, next to his massive erect cock—like, wow.
I’d only seen one before, and Cain’s was nothing to write home about, but Kai, oh my, he was packing.
My core throbbed at the thought of having that inside me.
Would he even fit? I shivered at the need that was flooding my body.
“It’ll fit, don’t you worry,” he drawled, and my gaze snapped to his heated one as amusement twinkled in his eyes, as he slowly stroked his impressive length.
“Did I say that out loud?” I asked, feeling my cheeks heat.
“You did, and it’s adorable.” His hand came up, and he ran his thumb over my cheek, still gazing into my eyes.
We held eye contact as all the emotions, longings, and desires swirled in the air around us.
In that moment, it was just the two of us, how we always should have been.
Sharing all the things, all our firsts, all our dreams—together.
“Wildflower.” The emotion in his voice had my eyes welling with tears. I felt it too. All we could have been, all we could have shared, all that had been robbed from us.
But we could have it now.
“I know; I feel it, too. Kai, I…” Was it too soon to tell him I loved him? I think a part of me always had.
“Come here, sweetheart.” He pulled me back on top of him as he lay back down, resting our foreheads together, breathing deeply. “You sure about this?”
“I’m sure.” I kissed him, getting lost in the moment of having this man all to myself. Kai’s hands danced over my skin, tracing patterns and causing goosebumps to pop up in their wake. He reached up and unclasped my bra, throwing it aside before he tweaked one of my nipples, and I moaned.
I rocked my throbbing core over his erection as he continued to pluck and tweak my nipples, ensuring each one got the same attention. It was as if my breasts had a direct line to my clit as the pleasure grew and my pulse quickened. “Kai!” I whimpered, not sure if I wanted him to stop or keep going.
“I’ve got you, Wildflower.” I should have known he’d be able to play my body like a fiddle. He released my breast and trailed his hands down my stomach to tease my folds. “Fuck, sweetheart. You’re soaked. I can feel your pussy leaking over my cock, and I haven’t even entered you yet.”
My body shivered at his words, my back arching as he rubbed over my clit. “Please, Kai. I need you.”
“Lean forward, sweetheart, let me get you ready.” His other hand came up the back of my neck and pulled me to him so he could kiss my mouth.
Our tongues danced, and his fingers traced over my butt and down to my entrance before he slipped a finger into my tight heat.
I moaned into his mouth, enjoying the sensations but needing more.
He thrust his finger in and out before adding another and curling them inside me.
I panted as I rocked back on his fingers.
He wasn’t wrong; I could feel the slick wetness leaking out of me and over my folds as he thrust his fingers in and out.
“You ready for another one?” he asked.