Chapter 21
Chapter Twenty-One
Drea
After my night with Blair, anytime I needed a release, the image of her riding my face came to mind. It was so incredible, but I knew it wouldn’t happen again. Nobody needed to know, and I could just move on with my life.
We didn’t have to see each other for another few weeks, but I was still nervous to see how it would go.
I wondered if I should call her, maybe see if she wanted to hang out, but I admit, I was scared.
I was scared I wouldn’t be able to handle being around her, knowing that one perfect night was all I would ever get.
I was scared to admit that I might have wanted a lot more than just one night with Blair.
Today I was meeting Cara for lunch at the Luna Rosa before our weekly pickleball game. There were a few things about the signing she wanted to discuss.
As I walked into the restaurant, my stomach was in knots. The last person I wanted to discuss with Cara was Blair.
I didn’t know how to be honest while also not telling the whole truth. It was only one time, but I didn’t know what I would do if Cara ever found out about it. I wasn’t sure how she would handle it, considering how difficult we had been for her over the years.
“Hey, doll, you look great!” Cara greeted me with a hug and a double-cheeked kiss. I showed up to lunch in a silver silk button-up blouse and black trousers, and Cara was wearing a white sundress.
I gave her a wide grin. “Hey, love. Thanks, so do you. Did you order already? I’m starving.”
She laughed. “Not yet, I was waiting for you.”
We both ordered the chicken and fettuccine pasta with asparagus along with a caesar salad. Luna Rosa had the best chicken.
“So, what did you want to talk about?” I asked as the waitress left the table.
“Oh, right! I wanted to talk about the signing. I know you approved the capacity and a few other things, but I wanted to talk about the fees, just the two of us. I know we’ve done this before a handful of times, but I wanted to clarify and make sure we are on the same page, especially since I know things might be a little tight, hence the reason for the signing in the first place. ”
I laughed. “I almost wish I couldn’t afford it.”
She rolled her eyes. “Drea, honestly, you two are ridiculous! This sounds absolutely insane, but you two bicker like an old married couple. The way you both argue almost makes me think you could have feelings for each other or something.”
My water went down the wrong way as I began to violently choke.
“Oh my God, Drea! Are you okay?”
Barely breathing, I responded in between coughs, “Yeah… I’m fine… water went down the wrong way.”
If only she knew the feelings I had for Blair… Wait, what feelings did I have for her? I was sure the attraction was just my deprived libido talking. I was convinced that after we had sex, my feelings would go back to normal, back to the way they had been before I started to get to know her.
We slept together once, and until then, we hated each other. But the more time I spent talking to her and just being around her, the more I realized I could be content if I never did anything else. Get it together, Dre!
Thankfully, our waitress came back with our food before she could press the issue anymore.
“Where were we? Oh, right, you and Blair.”
“What?!” I yelled out, unsure as to why I raised my voice so much. I cleared my throat and tried again. “What about me and Blair?” As far as I knew, there wasn’t a “me and Blair.” It was just one night, and I was not going to tell Cara.
“How are things going with you two, anyway? Are you even getting along at all?”
My fork stopped mid-air and my face heated. There was hope in her tone, and I knew I couldn’t tell her the truth, but I could throw her a little bone.
I cleared my throat. “You could say that, yeah.”
“Good. See, I told you things would work out! She’s great once you give her a chance and get to know her.” She smiled and took a drink.
Didn’t I know it…
“I went to see her the other night. She doesn’t handle storms very well, so I wanted to make sure she was okay.” She got this look in her eyes as she talked about her best friend. The love she had for Blair was evident on her face.
“Oh really, and was she?”
She laughed. “Actually, she was. She had company over, so I would say she was well taken care of.”
My face scorched at the memory of exactly how Blair was cared for…
“I tried to pry, but she won’t tell me who it was. She seemed to be happy, though.” She shrugged.
I didn’t let myself ask for more details. “Well, that’s good.”
“She usually tells me if she’s seeing someone, and it’s been a while since I’ve heard about anything.”
I scolded myself for the slight smile that tugged on my lips at the thought of Blair not being with anyone else. We slept together once, and it wouldn’t happen again, so I had no right to feel any sort of claim on her.
I needed this subject to change. I couldn’t talk about her anymore. “So, have you talked to Fallon or Mackenzie? You know they’re getting married, right?”
She laughed. “Yeah, I know. I ran into Mackenzie the other day. She apologized for the hundredth time and told me. I’m happy for them.
That situation was weird, but it’s laughable now, and I’m glad we can all be friends.
It must be nice to find your other half.
Not all of us can be that lucky. To find someone who envelops all your thoughts during all hours of the day.
Someone you just want to be around, even if it’s just to look at them.
I would give anything to have a feeling like that, you know? ”
Yeah, Cara, it’s really something…
I cleared my throat. “Uhh… yeah, totally.”
She laughed. “Oh, ignore me. I’m just in my feelings right now. I know relationships aren’t really your thing. Let’s change the subject.”
They didn’t used to be my thing, but… sometimes people’s opinions on life could change.
“You know me so well.” I laughed nervously. I had to get it together.
We finished our lunch before heading to the club for our weekly game.