Chapter 46
Chapter Forty-Six
Blair
The car ride back to Seattle was the longest ride of my life. I stared out the window the whole time, not saying a word. My brother tried to get me to talk, but I couldn’t find the energy.
When we got to the hospital, I practically jumped out of the car while it was still moving and booked it down the hall.
I called Kaia, and she got the room number from Fallon. When I got outside her room, Fallon had just come out, tears filling her eyes. Mackenzie was next to her, holding her up, and I knew that wasn’t a good sign.
They both looked up at me, and I froze in place. The second I moved, I was admitting it was all real, and I didn’t want any of it to be real.
“What… is she…” I couldn’t say the words. I didn’t want to put them out in the universe.
Fallon took a step toward me and wrapped her arms around me. “She’s alive, yes. But…”
I pulled back and frowned at her, trying to hide my own tears. This was exactly why I was an author and not an actress. “But, what? What happened?”
“She… she’s not…” She turned to Mackenzie and fell into her without a word.
Mackenzie soothed her wife and spoke for her.
“She is breathing, but she is unconscious. We don’t know how, but she ran into the car in front of her, going pretty fast according to witnesses.
The storm was bad and the cars behind her couldn’t stop in time without slipping, and they caused a five-car pileup.
Her airbags didn’t deploy, and… she hit her head.
” She squeezed Fallon tighter and tried to force her own tears down to be strong for her wife.
“She… Uh… she’s been unconscious since the impact.
They don’t know when she will wake up, if at all. ”
My legs became weak as the ground became closer. Fallon and Mackenzie rushed over to me, but I couldn’t hear them over the pounding of my heart in my ears.
She might not wake up, and it was all my fault.
After a few minutes, I finally gained enough energy to speak. “I want to see her.”
“Blair, I don’t think—”
“Fallon, please. I need to see her, okay? I just… I need to.”
She nodded, and I stood up, brushing myself off before walking to her door. I was shaking, but I forced myself to go in. I had to see her for myself.
My legs almost gave out again when I saw her hooked up to all those machines in her hospital bed. She looked so peaceful, yet fragile and alone. I hated this. She was one of the strongest people I knew, and I couldn’t handle seeing her broken and weak.
I wondered where she was, if she could hear us. If she knew I was there for her. Did she blame me like I blamed myself?
I walked closer to her and took her hand.
It had been weeks since we’d last touched, but this touch was different.
It wasn’t filled with sadness and revenge; it was filled with love and regret.
Regret for everything we didn’t say. Love, because despite everything that was said between us, I still loved her, and that would never go away.
I sat down in the chair by her bed and caressed her hand softly. “Drea?” I whispered. I didn’t know if she could hear me or if she would want to, but I had to believe she could. The machines told me her heart hadn’t given up yet, so I tried to have hope.
I squeezed her hand three times, letting her know I was there, hoping she could feel the love I still had for her.
“Drea, if you can hear me, baby, please come back to me. I’m so sorry for everything I said, and for the night I left.
If I wouldn’t have left, then maybe you would still be here.
I need… I just… Please come home.” I started crying again, and I felt a warm hand on my shoulder.
“Blair, maybe we should get you home. You can come back tomorrow, if you’d like. It’s been a long day, and you should get some sleep.”
I wiped my tears and stood up. “I appreciate that, Fallon, but I can’t… I’m not leaving her, not until she wakes up and I know she’s okay. I can’t leave her again. I just can’t.”
“Are you sure? The doctors will call if anything changes,” Mackenzie added.
I nodded my head. “Yes, I’m sure. I know no one believes me, but it’s my fault she’s here. She wouldn’t have been leaving if I hadn’t left the way I did after the signing. I have to be here.”
“It’s not your fault, but if you want to stay, then fine. Just please eat something and try to get some sleep, okay?” Fallon gave me a hug and squeezed tight.
It sucked that it took a shitty situation for me to feel like I had friends, but I though that was what they were. Fallon, Kaia, even Mackenzie, they were my friends.
Fallon and Mackenzie left, leaving me in an empty sterile hospital room, while the love of my life was possibly gone from this world.
A few hours later, I was dozing off when I felt a warm hand on my shoulder. “Mackenzie, I already told you—” I looked up to see a woman I’d only seen in pictures, and the same man from the pictures standing several feet away from her.
“Sorry to scare you, dear. I’m Joy, Drea’s mother. That’s Vincent, her father.” If I hadn’t already known about their divorce, their body language would’ve given them away.
“It’s okay. I must’ve fallen asleep. I’m Blair—”
“Drea’s beautiful girlfriend. We know. It’s so nice to finally meet you. We have heard nothing but wonderful things about you. I’m just sorry we have to meet under these conditions. How is she?”
Joy walked closer, and I gave up my seat on the bed, figuring she had earned it more than I had. “Oh, my baby,” she whispered softly, tears filling her eyes.
“She’s unconscious but stable. They haven’t given me any more information than that.”
She nodded and wiped the tears away. “Thank you for being here for her. I can see why she loves you.”
I chuckled softly. “We haven’t… It’s complicated.” I didn’t know what else to say.
“I don’t know much about your relationship with Drea, but from what she’s told me and the way she talks about you, it’s so obvious to see she’s crazy about you, dear.
I’m sorry to cut this short, but I would like to speak with the doctors.
Please don’t leave on our account. You can stay as long as you would like.
” She gave me a warm hug and a double-cheek kiss like I was royalty, and then she was gone.
Vincent kind of just sat in the corner and didn’t really say much, but as soon as Joy left, he seemed to have cheered up.
We talked until she came back with the same news I had gotten, and he made an excuse to leave.
They stayed for another few hours, and Joy asked me if I needed anything when I told her I was staying the night.
I assured her I was fine and sent them on their way to their hotel.
It was nice to talk with her parents. They were both so warm and reminded me so much of Drea.
I finally broke down when her mother asked about going to visit for the holidays, and I told her we weren’t together anymore.
I didn’t go into the details as to why, but she didn’t press for any more information.
She told me it said a lot about me as a person, and how I felt about Drea, to come see her after things had ended. I admitted that while, yes, we were no longer together, I was still in love with her, and I needed to make sure she was okay.
I tried to keep it together, but the tears wouldn’t stay in. I was grateful Joy let me have my moment and cry it out. If Drea ever woke up, I would have to remember to tell her how lovely her parents were to me.