Chapter 30
THEY ROLLED ON THE mattress, scrambling for purchase on the warm fleece blanket underneath them, until Josh could reach the nightstand.
Riley was desperate to feel Josh inside of him.
He hadn’t been sure if he would ever want this, but seeing how it lit Josh up like a Christmas tree had him desperate for it.
Josh slid along his body and wrapped his mouth around Riley as he prepped him.
The blow job was an epic distraction from the burn of Josh stretching him. Riley could feel every inch of Josh’s fingers as they slid inside, working him open while Josh laved his cock with his tongue.
“Fuck, fuck, fuck, I’m ready,” he pleaded. “Please, Josh.”
“Anything, Ri. Anything.”
Once Josh was wrapped in a condom, he settled on top of Riley and slowly moved inside him. Too slowly, in Riley’s opinion, but Josh was being careful.
Josh would never hurt him. He wasn’t capable of it.
When Josh’s hips met Riley’s ass, Riley pulled him to his mouth. There was nothing like kissing Josh, and Riley enjoyed every touch of his tongue, every nibble of his teeth, every scrape of his stubble.
He got lost in the sensations of everything, his body on fire as Josh sped up and drilled into him.
Josh hitched one of Riley’s legs over his arm, and the angle had Josh pegging his prostate on every pass.
They were no longer kissing, but panting against each other’s mouths, sharing breaths as their tongues tangled lazily, too distracted by their bottom halves to do anything else.
“Riley, Riley!” Josh shouted, reaching for Riley’s hard dick between them and sliding his hand along his shaft until he burst between their bodies, Josh following quickly behind.
Josh didn’t stop until they were completely spent, then he fell atop Riley, both of them struggling for breath.
“I love you so fucking much, Ri,” Josh said, taking a deep breath after the words stole all of his oxygen.
He held Josh against him, running his hands through Josh’s sweaty hair.
“I love you too,” he rasped. “More than anything.”
After their first time, they’d learned their lesson, and after a moment Josh pushed away from Riley’s body to dispose of the condom. He returned with a warm washcloth and cleaned the remnants of the hottest sex of his life from his body.
Josh fell to the mattress and cuddled against Riley’s exhausted body.
Riley fought for the energy to wrap his arms around Josh, and settled his head against Josh’s.
“To think, we could have been doing that for years,” Riley said, his words a whisper in the quiet room.
“I wonder when we should have started,” Josh thought out loud. “Like, when should we have figured this out, you know?”
Riley shook with silent laughter, his energy not restored enough to make actual noise.
“It wouldn’t have been the same if we were each other’s first. Nothing to compare it to. We might not have realized how amazing we were together. Not enough experience to make it good.”
“Maybe. I keep trying to figure out when I started loving you,” Josh said, his voice wistful.
“You think of anything?”
Josh smiled against his face. He was far too close for Riley to make out his blurry features, but he had memorized every one of those details years ago.
“Do you remember when you punched that random kid from the neighborhood in the face ’cause he called me names?”
Riley sputtered. “That’s when you fell in love with me? We were like nine years old. I can’t even remember that guy’s name. He went to private school or something.”
“No, not then,” Josh said, laughing. “It was in seventh grade when we ran into him again and you apologized to him because you realized hurting people is bad. But you told him he was still a dumb fucking asshole. That’s when I fell in love.
I wasn’t a fighter and I didn’t want you to fight anyone else.
I never wanted to see you get hurt, especially over me.
“When I pictured us as grownups who’d lived long fruitful lives to the old age of forty, since we didn’t quite understand age yet, it was us together in our own place.
I always figured there were women somewhere else in the house or something.
But it was just us, with kids running around.
I never realized they were our kids, or that it was weird that we were cuddling in this fantasy.
I mean, we cuddle all the time. But I’ve always been happiest in your arms. Nowhere else. Always.”
Riley pulled away enough so he could see Josh clearly.
“You want to have kids with me one day?”
Josh's smile stretched from ear to ear as he answered, “Hell yeah, I do. You’d be such a good dad. A good husband.”
Riley had already melted into the mattress after that session of amazing sex, but this was like the whipped cream on top of his hot cocoa. He hadn’t thought life with Josh could get better, but it always did.
“You’d be an amazing dad. I can’t wait to have that with you,” Riley said as he leaned forward and planted a quick kiss on Josh’s lips.
“We have to decide how to get one of us pregnant. I’ve been looking into those mpreg novels Cole mentioned.”
Riley pulled farther away from Josh. “Uhh, you know that’s just in fiction, right? We can’t actually get pregnant. We could adopt or find a surrogate or something.”
Josh blinked at him, and his eyes widened. “Of course, yeah. I was totally joking.”
Riley chuckled as he pulled Josh against him. He’d never let go of this man. Josh would always be his himbo.