Chapter 5
5
ALLY
I couldn’t stop watching. I didn’t even feel guilty about it. Luke Patrick had brought out a new side of me.
“You want to make love here, in front of the mirror?” he asked.
“Is that weird?” I asked.
I hated the uncertainty in my own voice. I was doing everything to come across as confident. But I also didn’t want to turn him off with some unusual request.
He looked at the mirror, then shook his head. “Sounds good to me. Hold on.”
He headed to the bed and grabbed a couple of pillows. He set those on the floor at the foot of the bed, then tugged the comforter to the floor, making a comfortable bed for us.
Had anything ever been more romantic?
I had my panties off by then, and I settled onto the floor, looking up at him. He was in charge here. I was his student.
“Can you see yourself?” he asked, looking back over his shoulder.
I nodded, looking down my body at the mirror. It went all the way to the floor.
“Spread your legs,” he said.
It was a command, but the huskiness in his voice made it clear he was aroused. Beyond aroused, going by the fire in his stare.
I did exactly what he suggested. That gave me a look at my own privates. I frowned at what I saw. How could any man see that as sexy?
“Hand me one of those pillows,” Luke said.
I did exactly that. He dropped the pillow next to my feet and lay down. Then he gestured for me to come to him. He wanted me to climb on top and fuck him. And watch in the mirror while I did it.
But there was something I wanted to do first. Something I’d been curious about for a while.
“You’re so hard for me,” I commented as I wrapped my hand around him.
As he looked down at me, his lids grew heavy. Behind him, I could see myself in the mirror. I saw what he saw. This was hot.
When I touched my mouth to the tip of his erection, he let out a moan. But he didn’t take his eyes off me, and I didn’t take my eyes off that mirror. I looked hot. Really hot. I’d never imagined sex could be so...empowering.
He didn’t let me continue for long, though. After sliding as far as I could take him a couple of times, he sat up and urged me upward, guiding my hips until I was straddling him.
“Wait,” he said. “I have condoms in my bedside table.”
“Oh.”
I couldn’t believe I hadn’t even thought of that. If I wasn’t going to look out for myself, I shouldn’t have sex.
Following Luke’s directions, I withdrew the small square packet and returned to him. I just hoped he didn’t expect me to put it on him.
He held out a hand. “I can do that.”
I shook my head. “I want to learn.”
Judging by the way his eyes darkened, he liked that. I did my best to look sexy as I ripped open the packet and withdrew the item inside.
It took a little instruction, but I finally got the condom in place. And then I straddled him again, guiding him inside me. That was a lot easier said than done.
“It’s tight, isn’t it?” I asked. “Is that the hymen?”
He shook his head. “You’re just tight. Take your time.”
As he said the words, I could tell he was struggling to sound calm. But his breathing was still deep, his chest rising and falling. It couldn’t be easy for him, having to hold on like this, but he waited as I held him inside me, stopping every now and then to give my body time to stretch to accommodate his size.
When finally he was fully inside me, I lifted my gaze to the mirror. The sight of me on top of him reignited my arousal. He lifted up slightly and pulled me toward him, engaging me in another long kiss. There was so much meaning behind it, it sent tingles running through my body.
This wasn’t just sex to him. It meant more. And I hated to admit just how much it meant to me. My heart was already involved in this, no matter how hard I tried to keep this about losing my virginity.
And then I was sitting up straight, riding him as his hands roamed my upper body. His thumb settled on my clit, rubbing me as I bounced up and down. I couldn’t take my eyes off myself…seeing myself as he saw me.
But when I looked down at him, I found an even more powerful sight. Especially when our eyes met and held in a long, meaningful stare.
I couldn’t believe it when my orgasm started building again. Was it possible to have three in such a short span of time?
Then I cried out, closing my eyes and throwing my head back as he continued rubbing me. He didn’t give up until he was sure I was finished. That seemed to signal that it was okay for him to stop holding back.
Holding my hips in place, Luke moved inside me, his hips thrusting faster and faster. Finally, he took his gaze off me to close his eyes and let out a long groan.
And then he was finished. What was I supposed to do now? Climb off, get dressed, and leave? No, I was spending the night. But what if he kicked me out or drove me back to the retreat center?
“Come here,” he said, gesturing for me to move toward him.
I climbed off and snuggled up beside him. I could stay like this forever. I didn’t want to leave. I looked up at him, and he gave me a slow, tender kiss that took my breath.
“I’m going to go get cleaned up, and then we’ll do this again, but this time on the bed,” he said.
I smiled. I liked the sound of that. But as he walked into the bathroom and closed the door behind him, I couldn’t help but feel an impending sense of doom. I was deceiving him, after all. If he found out, he’d be furious.
But how could I report the story after all we’d just done? The real question was, how could I not? It was, after all, the only thing that could save my struggling career.