Chapter 36 Thea #2
His hand is suddenly cupping my face, his thumb making soothing strokes on my cheek as he braces over me with his other hand. “Shh, it’s alright. How are you?” I appreciate him checking in more than I can say at this moment.
“Good,” I say hoarsely. I’m so hot, I really hope Liam was right about a knot appeasing these mini heats. I’ve never felt so hot before. “Please alpha, fuck me.”
Keelan looks at me intensely for a second before he slowly starts moving his hips.
All the while he keeps his hand cupping my face.
It’s grounding having that connection, I bring up my own hand to hold him there just in case.
He’s going deliciously slow and there was a slight pain at the start just from the stretch but it’s gone now.
I need more. More speed. More connection.
“Faster,” I beg. He must see whatever he needs in my expression as he begins to move faster.
I can feel his knot start to swell. Holy shit how is he going to fit?
That panicked thought is buried as he keeps moving and that knot teases my entrance.
I’m holding his hand against my face so tightly as he fucks into me with abandon.
My body is screaming at me, more, need more.
Need the knot, the connection. I feel lost to this moment as I shout, “Keelan, now!”
Without waiting, his knot finally enters and locks in, triggering one of the most intense orgasms of my life to wash over me.
On instinct, I turn slightly to the hand I’ve been holding onto and bite into his wrist. All I hear is Keelan nearly roaring above me and then I feel pain at the left side of my neck.
The pain is washed away as the connection that my body was craving this whole time forms. I thought it meant the connection from a knot.
It was the bond. I just bonded Keelan. All I feel is pure love from him.
It’s everything and too much all at once.
We’re locked together with his knot still inside me.
I lick and suck at my bond mark. Tending to it seems to be instinctual.
I feel him doing the same. After a minute or two of that he maneuvers us so he’s lying down on his back and I’m completely on top of him.
We’re both breathing heavily and basically still fully clothed.
It’s such an odd sensation feeling someone so deep inside yourself, and I don’t mean his knot.
The bond is always described as a soul-deep connection.
I never really knew how to interpret that.
I mean, how can you without feeling it for yourself?
His scent feels more intense now. The emotions filtering in from him are pure love and happiness.
He’s so happy, I’m surprised. I bonded him without asking.
Hell, we never even talked about it. We literally just admitted to falling in love and now we’re bonded.
What do I do? Is the pack going to hate me now?
What if something happens to him, like Connor? I really won’t survive it now.
“Hey, what’s going on? Your emotions are all over the place,” he says and then a horrified look crosses his face. “Do you regret the bond?”
“What, no! Aren’t you mad at me? You should be, I didn’t get your permission. None of us talked about bonding and I just did it. You all should hate me,” I say, not able to hold back the few tears that escape as I come down from the mini heat and rush of emotion.
He’s running his hands up and down my back, his fingers making little scritches that I can feel even through my sweater.
“First, I am most definitely not mad. You’re right about not asking permission but I forgive you for that,” he says teasingly.
“Baby Girl, I’ve been okay with the idea of bonding with you for longer than you’d probably be comfortable with.
You’re my scent match; I’ve taken that seriously since the beginning.
” He raises his hand, the one I marked, and brushes some hair out of my face.
I can’t help but turn into the action and then kiss my mark on him.
A lightning of pleasure courses through him and I think his cock jumped inside me. Good to know for later.
After taking a deep breath, he says, “Second, the pack will not be mad for the same reason I’m not.
We’ve been all in from the beginning. Take things at your pace, we never wanted to rush you before you were comfortable for something.
And last, we’re bonded so if you ever doubt how I feel, just reach out and feel it for yourself, understood? ”
Looking at him and feeling the truth in his words helps push down and silence more of those panicked thoughts. “Yes sir,” I can’t help but say, immediately feeling what those words do to him. Yup our first time outside a mini heat where we can take our time. It should be interesting.
“Whatever you’re thinking, maybe pause that because it’s not helping my knot go down any time soon.”
Laughing at that I relax fully and rest my head against his chest. I send my own feelings down the bond to him, the ones I voiced earlier and maybe some unspoken ones too. The return wave of emotion he sends feels like it’s filling that deep dark hole in me, even just a little bit.
I don’t know what’s going to happen next but I don’t regret today. I stopped running like I wanted. Maybe everything happened a little too fast but it feels right. Well, if Connor is haunting me, I hope he enjoyed the show.