Chapter 45 Keelan
KEELAN
Lying in bed with my bonded omega is my new favorite place.
I truly never want to leave. I never thought something would top being in my workshop working on a new piece but it’s happened.
I mean I always wanted that kind of relationship, something deep and meaningful but after last time, I resigned myself to it not happening.
I glance over at my nightstand where the wooden heart she made is.
I don’t think she realizes I carry that with me all the time.
Especially now bonded to her it makes me think of her own heart.
It may be hurt and broken in spots but it’s coming back together slowly, creating a rugged heart, one that’s whole again but rough all the same.
That analogy works for my own heart too, in a different way.
Thea is currently half lying on me as we cuddle in my bed.
She still hasn’t set up the pack bedroom since their shopping trip the other day.
Instead, she’s focusing on getting her nest set up just how she wants it.
Not surprising with her heat coming soon.
She’s also taken to nesting around the house, having little spaces she likes to go to with a blanket and pillows.
Jake’s window seat seems to be her favorite lately.
Her wavy hair is sprawled out behind her as I play with the ends between my fingers.
She’s wearing one of my shirts, even though we moved all her things here, she still prefers my shirts to sleep in.
My inner alpha purrs in possessive satisfaction.
“Can I ask you something?” she asks as her fingers make little circles on my chest.
“You just did,” I joke. When she sighs in exasperation I add, “Of course, anything.”
There’s a moment of silence as if she’s gathering courage, that’s what it feels like in the bond. “Is there a reason you haven’t wanted to have sex since our bonding?”
I’m not surprised by the question. I figured it’d come up sooner or later.
She readjusts her position so she can face me for this conversation.
Better to get it all out, I don’t want anything holding me back anymore.
“First, it absolutely has nothing to do with you if that’s what you’re worried about.
I haven’t told you about my experience with our ex, that was on purpose.
Before I get into what happened there, let me back up a little.
For years I’ve been wanting an omega. I was one of the first in the pack to voice that need.
Having someone to love and care for, that idea just soothed something in me.
” Pausing, I feel her sending her love and reassurance down the bond for which I’m grateful.
She hasn’t said the words but I know how she feels. She’ll voice them when she’s ready.
Taking a deep breath, I continue, “When we met Amber and she was scent compatible with half the pack, I didn’t think anything of it since she said she was open to courting us.
However, as you’ve heard from the others, she wasn’t interested in all of us equally.
I went in with full intention to court her, build a relationship, but she quickly shot that down.
She only wanted sex from me. It was the only kind of attention she’d give me.
The first few months I was so desperate for connection I went with it hoping she’d change her mind.
It was stupid on my part.” A light growl interrupts me and I look down at the furious omega looking up at me with rage in her eyes.
“You’re not stupid. I swear if I ever see this woman I can’t promise I won’t punch her repeatedly in her stupid face for everything she’s done to this pack.” I can’t help but smile at my possessive omega. I love how much she cares for us all.
“Easy there, Baby Girl. No maiming allowed,” I say, easing the tension.
She pouts a little. “Just a little?” She holds up two of her fingers with a small distance between them.
“Our vicious omega, what are we going to do with you?” I joke. The look in her eyes shifts from teasing to soft affection as she kisses my chest. A silent gesture as I try to redirect my thoughts back to what happened last year.
“That went on for the first few months. The last two months of the courtship I ended our arrangement. I guess you can call it that since it most definitely wasn’t courting.
She was not happy, and took it as a rejection, lashing out at me.
” I don’t want to rehash what she said but Thea deserves to know the source of my hesitancy.
I want her to know every part of me inside and out.
“Basically she said no omega would want to be with someone who can barely communicate and too dumb to work a real job like Micah, Eli, Liam, and Jake.” Before I can continue Thea is growling more intensely now.
I try to stir up a purr to calm her but it’s hard with everything else going on in my head.
I run my hand up and down her back, trying to soothe her.
“Don’t try to make me feel better, this is about you. That fucking bitch. You know what she said is bullshit right? You are so smart and incredibly creative to be able to make the things you do. You make art every day, things that literally take my breath away.”
Swallowing down the emotions she’s bringing up in me.
Her words mean more than I probably could say.
“Thank you, Baby Girl, I know now it’s not a reflection on me what she said but of her.
It took a lot of therapy sessions to get that through my thick skull.
I’m glad you enjoy what I make. It was the first love in my life.
Now it comes second to the biggest love I could have. ”
She’s frozen. I really did mean to wait for her to say it first. “I love you, Thea. I’m sorry I let my past hold me back in any way.
I just wanted to enjoy being with you without sex in the way.
A small part of me worried that if we had sex somehow moments like this, cuddling in bed, talking, you visiting me at my workshop randomly to bring me snack, would go away.
” She goes to say something but I barrel on, “I know it’s a little irrational to worry about that especially when we’re bonded. ”
She sits up and moves so she is now firmly sitting on my lap.
Just being surrounded by her scent in bed usually has me half hard.
And with her on top like this, I’m fully turned on.
She no doubt feels it, but chooses to ignore it as she says, “You’re right it’s irrational, but I’m definitely not one to judge when it comes to thinking rationally.
Especially when it comes to our emotional wounds.
We are bonded and you’re stuck with me whether you like it or not.
” She moves her hips so slightly it could almost seem accidental but that little gleam in her eye tells me otherwise as she leans down so we’re face to face.
“All those moments and more won’t ever stop because I love you too teddy bear.
” She voices before kissing me hard as if she’s pouring everything she said into this kiss to ensure her point gets across.
I return her kiss with just as much passion, one hand holding her tightly while my other cradles her head.
My fingers pull lightly on her hair, making her gasp.
Taking the opportunity, my tongue enters her mouth teasing hers.
She rocks her hips against me, chasing that friction.
Flipping us so she’s on her back and not breaking our kiss, my hand that was holding her to me moves around to the front and under her shirt.
When I lightly pinch her nipple she’s moaning into me.
Breaking our kiss, I pepper light ones along her jaw until I reach my mark and I suck on it hard, making her body shake. “Keelan…please,” she begs.
“Please what?”
“More, please.”
Granting her request, I move down her body slowly, pushing up her shirt so I can suck on her big tits.
She’s so vocal. My cock is leaking so much just from the sounds she makes.
Teasing her some more with light bites to her nipple, I move to the other one when I see Parker’s mark on her.
Trailing my hand down in between her legs, I find that she’s already soaked.
My fingers are circling her clit, teasing it but not touching directly as I suck and bite her nipple.
“Fuck, Keelan please,” she begs. She’s so on edge, next time I’ll properly edge her but this time I want to taste what’s mine.
Moving down her luscious body, I leave lingering kisses along her soft stomach until I get to her wet pussy.
My first taste of her and she’s the sweetest Gods damn thing on this planet.
I feel my inner alpha taking over as I eat her out like a starved man, my tongue swirling and sucking her clit as two of my fingers slowly pump in and out of her.
Her thighs are shaking on either side of me.
She’s close. I don’t let up, this time adding a third finger.
I need to stretch her a bit to take me, but not before she’s coming on my face.
“Keelan, fuck, fuck, don’t—” She cuts off with a moan as she’s coming, flooding my mouth with more of her slick.
Her body is still shaking lightly as she comes down from her orgasm.
I keep my fingers in her slowly moving in and out, but I lean up and kiss her deeply.
Breaking apart we’re both a little breathless.
I sit up and push my sweats down, finally freeing my cock. “Holy shit! That is not real,” she exclaims.
I look at her and see her looking at my dick so I look at it to make sure nothing’s wrong. Which it isn’t, then I’m laughing so hard I nearly fall over.
“I’m not kidding Keelan. I can’t believe dicks like that exist outside of romance books. It’s too much, girth is great and all but there’s a limit I can take.” She sounds worried.