Chapter 65 Dio’s Journal - Entry 2
I finally filled up my previous journal, so I started a new one. Hopefully, these entries will be less exciting.
Physically, I continue to feel better, even though it has been slower than I’d like.
While I’ve been healing, I’ve continued to miss boxing.
If ever there was a time for me to be able to manage my emotions with that physicality and the pain of some fresh bruises, it would be now.
Especially because boxing is really the only outlet I have anymore.
Beyond the physical healing I’ve been doing, there has been some other healing work. Over the past month, I’ve slowly come to a conclusion I believe I’d been holding back for a while.
I think my feelings for Chaosta are more than physical attraction. Of course, that still doesn’t mean I can allow myself to have her.
Fuck that hurts. I’m working on accepting it, though. Also, just because I can’t be with her that way doesn’t mean I can’t make sure she’s safe.
I’ve been spending some time trying to track her down.
All of this was easier somehow when she was around, and at least I could keep an eye on her.
Now she’s gone, my imagination has been unkind.
It’s been too easy to imagine her getting hurt or killed.
Of course, my mind is also torturing me with thoughts of her with someone else.
I’ve had plenty of time to think about where she might have gone. My guess is that Malam brought her to the demon stronghold. While I realize the danger in locating such a well-guarded secret and trying to break in, I can’t help myself. I need to see her so I can convince myself she’s safe.
Somehow, though, knowing why I’ve been in mental agony makes it easier not to lash out. I’ve even mended things with Reem. While the relationship is still strained, I can understand caring about something like he cares about the band.
As I’ve been recovering, we’ve been getting back to rehearsing.
We have also managed to find a large venue where we can hold a rescheduled concert later this year.
Although it’s not as large as the outdoor space we had booked, at least we will be able to honor many of the tickets our fans had for that concert.
We also sent a free record to everyone whose tickets we won’t be able to honor.
Some people are upset, but not many, so overall, that seems to be resolved and settled.
Our rehearsal has been going well, and I’m confident our next concert will go well. In the last few days, we’ve even started working on some new material. I’ve been inspired to write some stuff. As our typical lyric writer, Fem has been gracious enough to step aside for me.
Unfortunately, our magic work hasn’t been going as well.
Being able to produce weather effects like we did when that crowd came after us felt good.
However, Chiron has also stopped showing up to teach us, and we have no way to contact him to ask why.
My suspicion is that Chaosta told him not to continue helping us.
I can hardly blame her for it. We’ll just continue to do what we can to practice.
It is giving me more time to try to locate the demon stronghold, time that I think will be much needed.