Chapter 13
Orlando
The internet said I was supposed to be doing this naked, but maybe Master didn’t know that?
He was definitely Master, not Daddy, but he was also a worrier, so getting me naked right off the bat might’ve made him nervous.
Oh.
He’d asked a question.
That was why he was looking at me.
“The internet said being in this position would turn off my brain but it lied.” That was kind of sad. “It’s still working but it’s sexy and kind of good weird, so I’m not complaining.”
I decided to point that out just in case.
There was no point in giving him something else to worry about.
Oh.
His list.
“Yours.” Wait. That wasn’t enough words. “I would like to see yours please, Sir.”
Ha.
Manners too.
What else?
He was still worrying.
“Just because you like it doesn’t mean I have to like it too.” Perfect. His worry-meter was dropping fast. “You already like doing Daddy stuff with me and you’ve agreed to spank me and you like glaring at me, so we have a lot in common.”
How weird could his list be?
“I’ve researched things.”
Terrence was really helpful even when he didn’t know he was saying stuff out loud.
“That’s kind of a scary sentence, but I know you’re doing your best to make me feel confident about this.” Bastian was being a pain in the butt. He wasn’t freaking out anymore, though. “I’m not sure you should be allowed to just randomly google BDSM topics.”
“Me neither.” We could do that together. “Some of them are kind of scary, so we’ll do that together after our next date.”
Hmm.
“Unless there is confusing stuff on your list. Then we’ll need to google it now because I can’t go to bed not knowing what they mean.” I shrugged but remembered to leave my hands behind my back. “It’s not reasonable.”
And it was his job to take care of me and that was just one interesting way he was going to have to do it.
Bastian’s lips twitched but he technically didn’t smile. “I will not leave you confused about anything on the list, but I picked out a simple one for the time being.”
How simple?
Oops.
I realized a bit too late that thought must’ve shown on my face.
At least he thought it was funny?
When he stopped laughing, I got a kiss on the forehead that could’ve gone a few different directions.
But he wasn’t giving me grandma vibes anymore, so I decided it was a good thing.
I was even wonderfully patient as he shook his head.
“This list has my top preferences and kinks on it, so it’s going to be helpful to you. ”
Oh.
That was good.
Oh.
“I won’t tell about anything on your list, though.” I was really glad it was going to be helpful. “What kind of kinks?”
Would it be stuff I didn’t know?
I really didn’t want to look stupid, but there was a lot of confusing things on the internet.
What would I do if Terrence hadn’t talked to Leander about it?
“Thank you.” Bastian’s expression softened again and he petted my head which always seemed to be a good sign. “I wasn’t worried about that, though. Neither of us will talk about our preferences, needs, or just kinks we’re curious about with anyone else unless we’ve talked about it first.”
“Yes. Like your friends. You’ve talked about them.” He really liked the idea of me having friends I could be little around. “But you said we’ll talk about that in more detail later.”
Bastian liked details.
“I think that’s a great idea.” His smile said I was right. Details. “But now it’s time for us to make sure we’re both on the same page tonight.”
“Because you can’t reward me if you don’t know what I like.” Terrence was really smart. “But I know to use my safewords, and even if you like something confusing, I’ll be polite.”
Pretending to huff, Bastian glared at me. “I don’t like anything confusing.”
Oh.
What did he like that was weird?
“Sit down.” Bastian growled out the order making me realize I’d sat up a bit too much.
“Yes, Sir.” Wide eyes. Look cute. Look sweet and sorry as I sat back down all the way. “I was excited to see what you liked. I’ll be good.”
I’d try until I got an orgasm, at the very least…Terrence said it was a good idea to make sure the Dom or Daddy got to come too, though.
Horny Daddies didn’t always remember that littles were cute when they were mischievous.
“I’m just going to pretend that was believable.
” Bastian seemed like he was going to be the remember I was cute kind of Daddy, which just reinforced the fact that I’d picked a good one.
“Alright, we’re going to look at the list together and if you have questions, you’re going to ask them.
Then when we’ve gotten the questions out of the way, we’ll go through and check off the ones that you’re green for and mark the ones that are red or yellow for you. ”
“Yes, Sir.” Look cute. Don’t act confused unless I’m really confused. Don’t panic if it’s weird because we can always find something else we both like. “I’ll remember.”
Sitting still was hard, but I stayed on the ground as Bastian moved a folder on the coffee table closer to us and opened it.
I’d never been more excited for anything in my life, but I stayed put and mostly quiet as he pulled out the top list and moved it so I could see it.
“Deep breath for me. We’re not in a rush and I’m not going anywhere. ”
Air in.
Air out.
I even remembered to do it very slowly like I knew he’d like.
Yep, he smiled. “One step at a time and you’re going to ask me questions about anything you don’t understand.”
“I will.” I could do that. Read. Ask questions. “I’ve been researching.”
And so far, the top stuff was entry-level BDSM with stuff like spankings and some of the toys I’d seen online…and in Terrence’s dirty box.
He had lots of toys.
“There might be one or two things that you haven’t heard of before, and that’s fine. Most people would be confused by a few of the kinks on the list.” Bastian sounded very relaxed but it was a complete lie.
I just had to find the fun part.
Oh.
Found it.
Bastian had been right. Most of the stuff were things I’d seen online in lists or in blogs that I’d found.
He’d picked a simple list, because Terrence had talked to Leander about a really long one he’d found with scientific names for stuff like peeing on people and having sex when one partner was asleep.
Scientists were weird and thought we needed fancy names for everything.
“Omegas get bred. Terrence read about that in a book. Leander kept getting embarrassed but he liked the book too.” I was starting to be very glad I’d been smart enough not to look for those kinds of books at the library.
“Once I found those, showed me other books with that stuff in it where they were just regular people playing pretend.”
My mother said the algorithms were insane but I thought they were pretty smart.
“You’ve gotten a fascinating education from him.
” Bastian sighed and rolled his eyes, but his face stopped his scrunchy thing and his shoulders relaxed.
So he might get annoyed with Terrence but he seemed less stressed.
“But yes, omegaverse books have something like that. However, it’s also a kink regular people explore without the added omega dynamics. ”
“I’d be a good omega. Terrence said so.” He seemed to think he’d been talking to himself at the time but he hadn’t been.
“In your way it’s what…pretending to knock me up?
Talking about how you’re going to breed me?
That’s what they did in one of the books.
Oh, the sub had a belly thing he wore. His boyfriend really liked that.
Oh, and I read one book where they were just playing with the kink and then the sub got pregnant for real because he had a medical issue they hadn’t known about.
I don’t have that. I’m just the regular kind of guy, so we’re good. ”
If I got knocked up without being married first my mother would kill me. We weren’t really religious, but we were that level of religious at the very least.
Bastian just blinked but that might’ve been because he was wondering what my father would’ve done to him.
That was a good question, but I was betting he’d be so confused he’d just go fishing.
“Do you have one of those belly things?” I wasn’t willing to get fat for a fantasy but I’d wear a belly.
Hmm.
I didn’t get up off the floor but I pushed my belly out and studied it. “I’m not sure if I’d look sexy like this.”
Bastian was still blinking and looking like his brain hadn’t caught up to reality, so I was patient and went back to sitting very still. “I’m green on that as long as I don’t have to actually get fat. I had that awkward phase in middle school and I’m not doing that again.”
“You don’t have to gain weight. It’s mostly just the idea of knocking you…well…impregnating a partner that’s arousing.” Bastian caught himself but he let the good part escape.
He wanted to breed me.
That would definitely involve his dick in my ass unless he wanted to play those medical games that guy had posted about online.
Better check.
Stirrups weren’t sexy…they were kind of scary.
Nope.
Not on the list so I’d worry about that later.
“What was that face for?” Bastian seemed like he was trying not to laugh as his hand ran down and rubbed my back. “Were you worried about something?”
Would it sound crazy?
“You have to promise not to laugh.” Everybody laughed at me and I wasn’t sure I wanted this to be one of those times.
“Promise.” Bastian frowned, but it didn’t look like he was mad at me.
“Baby, no matter what you were worried about or what you were concerned might be on the list, I won’t laugh at you.
We’ll be silly about this stuff sometimes, but if there is something that you really don’t want to do, we’ll take it seriously. ”
Bastian had teased me when I was little, but I really couldn’t remember him being mean as I’d gotten older. Sure, he’d ignored me when I’d been annoying but that was just an age difference thing and I’d done something similar to other people’s kids when I’d been that age.
“Okay.” It wasn’t ridiculous. Everyone had kinks and scenes they didn’t want to do.
“I found a guy online who talks about stuff he and his partner have done. Scenes and stuff they’ve explored.
They did one where they played in a room that looked kind of like a doctor’s office with stirrups and things like that. He liked it but I didn’t like it.”
I was glad he’d found something he’d liked, but it hadn’t made me curious like some of the stuff Terrence had talked about.
“First of all, playing doctor can be something we mark as a red activity and we don’t have to do it.
” Bastian’s easy acceptance and just the matter-of-fact way he responded made my stomach less whirly.
“Secondly, while I could be the doctor if that was something you wanted to explore, it’s not where my kinks align.
I don’t dislike the idea, but it’s not something I’m pushed toward. ”
Good.
“When you talked about that kind of scene, I thought about how it would work and then my brain filled in the gaps of how it would go if you wanted to do that but didn’t actually want to…you know…put your cock in my ass.” Was that a rude way to say it? “Penetrate me?”
Hmm.
“I don’t know how to say that without it sounding odd.” There were a lot of options—even I knew that—but none of them sounded right. “But you know what I mean.”
When Bastian finally smiled, it wasn’t because he thought I was ridiculous, it was a naughty grin that made him look sexy and slightly evil. “Well, if we’re talking about you being bent over like a good omega who’s begging to be bred by their alpha, then you might use the word mount or claim.”
Oh.
Just imagining how that would go had me flashing hot and cold and I was glad I was kneeling because my legs felt wobbly. “Those…those are good words.”
And not ones I’d ever had anyone say to me.
“We’ll have to think up some others for different situations, but my sweet boy probably shouldn’t say fuck or dirty words like that. Those are words for a Master.” Somehow Bastian had gone from, well, Bastian to Master so fast I wasn’t sure when it had happened.
“Most…most guys say…they use those words.” It seemed like a requirement to be a full-grown adult male unless I was dealing with a woman and she liked phrases like making love. Even Terrence said fuck. Especially when he had his toys out for his afternoon nap.
“You’re not most guys.” Master’s firm tone said there was no negotiating that part. “You’re my sweet boy. So little or big, you’re not going to use those words.”
I.
He.
That.
“Yes, Master.” Most subs online had glossed over the rules their Doms had made for them, but someone really should’ve pointed out how amazing it was. “I’ll be your sweet boy.”
His pleased hum sent a shiver through me and I might’ve moaned because his expression shifted to a sexy smirk. But the way he was watching me was so distracting I might’ve done something else without realizing it. “I’m very glad because I want to be able to reward my sweet boy.”
Rewards were amazing…hopefully.
Once I’d actually gotten one, I knew it was going to be amazing.