49. Ellie
Chapter 49
Ellie
“What the fuck is going on, Ellie?” Fury growls, storming into our room.
A room I’ve been locked in for the last hour.
Diesel practically threw me in here and then locked me in. I didn’t even know these rooms could be locked from the outside. That’s a bunch of bullshit. If I was going to stay here—which I’m not—that would have to change.
My suitcase is on the bed and I’m throwing things in it. I’ve only been packing the last fifteen minutes. Until that time, I was trying to break out of the room. When it became clear that wasn’t happening, I started packing.
“I tell you what’s going on, Liam ,” I snarl. “Connie the mother-trucking biker slut.”
“Fuck,” Liam hisses and my heart squeezes in my damn chest. Until this moment, I expected him to completely deny everything, but he’s not. When I look at him and really focus, I see the guilt on his face.
“Right,” I mutter, throwing more shit in my suitcase. “I’m such a fucking idiot. I truly believed you.”
“Damn it, Ellie.”
“How many more were there, Liam?”
“Ellie—”
“Never mind, don’t tell me. It’s not like I’d believe you anyway. I’m such a stupid fool. Why did I believe you? My dick has never been inside another woman, Ellie. I only wanted you, Ellie. My dick was broken without you, Ellie. Jesus! I’m a fucking idiot!” I snarl, again throwing more crap in my suitcase.
Liam stomps over to the bed, grabs my suitcase, holding it upside down so everything falls onto the floor. Then, he slings the suitcase across the room.
“You’re not leaving, Ellie!”
“The fuck I’m not, Liam. There’s nothing keeping me here.”
“Damn it, woman! I’m here. I matter. Didn’t you learn the first time around?” he growls. I pick up my suitcase, looking at his face. I hate that superior look he’s sporting. I swing the suitcase at him, hitting him in the waist. Not that the big dummy could feel it.
“I really hate that you’re built like a brick outhouse.”
“That’s not the term, Ellie.”
“I don’t give a fuck, Liam. You lied to me.”
“I didn’t. I just didn’t tell you the whole truth.”
“Are you for real right now? Do you know how it felt to be told by a whore that she’s been riding your dick for two years!?!?!”
“First of all, that bitch hasn’t been riding my dick. I didn’t lie to you when I said my cock hasn’t been inside another woman.”
“Then tell me, how does that whore claim she’s had your cock? Don’t you try lying to me either, Liam. You have guilt written all over your freaking face.”
“The bitch sucked me off a few times, Ellie. That’s it.”
“That’s it? Christ you’re such an asshole. That’s why you told me you got a clean bill of health before coming to Phoenix. I’m so stupid. I should have known it happened before. I mean, you were getting a hummer at the bar. Gee, Liam, I knew you liked blowjobs, but I didn’t know it was your favorite.”
“That’s because with you, it’s not,” he growls.
“Oh, I’m so sorry I don’t live up to the skills of a fucking professional. Shit, you’ve been fucking me without a raincoat! If you gave me a fucking disease, I’ll kill you, Liam Maverick.”
“I don’t have anything. You know as well as I do that the club makes the girls take mandatory tests for that kind of shit.”
“Gee, I feel soooo much better now,” I huff.
“Damn it, Ice. What did you expect? You left for two years. So, I got drunk and let some bitch suck my cock a few times. It didn’t mean anything, the whole fucking time I had you in my mind. It was you I wanted.”
“Surely you get why that doesn’t fill me with happiness,” I growl, still angry, but suddenly feeling exhausted.
“I get it, but I got to tell you that I’m really fucking pissed that your first instinct is to leave me. You did that once and almost destroyed both of us. When in the fuck are you going to grow up and face our relationship like an adult, Ellie?”
“I am facing our relationship like an adult,” I mumble, but I’m lying and we both know it.
“Bullshit. Ever since you’ve came back, you’ve been hiding something. Don’t even bother denying it. I see the look on your face when you think no one’s looking. You look tortured. If you don’t love me, if you don’t want to be here, why in the fuck did you come back?”
“I came back because I love you. I want to be here, Liam.”
“Then why won’t you agree to have a baby with me? Why are you holding a piece of yourself from me? I can feel it, Ellie. I know you’re not giving me everything. What the fuck is going on with you?”
“Well, it’s a good thing I didn’t give you all of me, isn’t it Liam? Considering you’ve been giving it to Connie,” I mumble.
“That’s bullshit. You can be pissed about it, but you know Connie meant nothing to me, Ice. You also know that I have never wanted anyone but you. I saw you almost five years ago and all other women ceased to exist for me. You’re it for me, Ellie. You’ve always been it. You’re the one always running away. You’re the one holding pieces of yourself away from me.”
“I told you, Liam. I’m just not ready for a baby. There are things we need to?—”
“Then stop putting it off, Ice. Tell me what I don’t know. Let it out.”
“I can’t, Liam.”
“You need to, Ellie. Tell me and we’ll deal with it.”
“Okay, I can, but I don’t want to.”
“Why, Ice?”
I swallow, my mouth suddenly feeling dry. I sit down on the bed, suddenly tired and feeling all alone. I look up at Liam and I know he can see the pain on my face. I don’t try to hide it from him.
“I don’t want to tell you, because once I do, you’ll kick me out and you’ll never take me back.”
“Now you’re talking crazy, Ellie,” he dismisses me, but I don’t blink as I look into his eyes.
“No, I’m not. I betrayed you, Liam and I know you well enough to know that you will never be able to forgive me.”
I see the shock on his face. My nerves are churning in my stomach and I fight the urge to be sick. I hold my head down, suddenly wishing I could take it all back and keep my secret.