Chapter 20
CHAPTER TWENTY
JAKE
M y body is a tight wire as I force myself to go slow and easy with her. She feels like a goddamn slice of heaven as her body takes me in like we were half of a whole, just waiting for the other to create this perfect fit.
“Are you okay?” I ask, afraid to breathe, as I sit fully inside her now.
“I’m more than okay,” she whispers, blinking back the tears.
“You’re crying.” I swipe one away. “Did it hurt? I tried to go slow. I’m sorry if…”
“No,” she smiles, shaking her head. “It didn’t hurt, Jake. These are happy tears. I never knew it could be like this. It feels so good to have you inside me.”
My heart breaks all over again for the pain she’s endured in her past. I’m going to make damn sure she never feels anything but love ever again. “I never knew it could be like this either.”
I’ve been fighting what I’m feeling, telling myself it’s too fast, but the moment I buried myself deep inside her, I knew there would never be another for me.
I’m no longer falling for her. I’ve fallen about as deep as you possibly can, and I’m going to show her exactly how much in every way I can tonight.
I’m used to being dominant in bed. I like it rough, and I like being in control. There’s never been any emotion for me except the end goal of making sure we both are deeply satisfied. There are no attachments and no expectations other than one night. Very few, I’ve slept with twice, but neither of us wanted anything but sex, so it didn’t get messy.
I never wanted anything else…until now.
Now, I want it all. I do one more thing today that I’ve never done before.
I make love to a woman.
My movements are slow as I take the time to feel and memorize every part of her. I listen to her sighs and little sounds as her fingers dig into my back. I absorb every detail like a sponge, wanting to hold it all inside and soak up every last bit I can.
When she wraps her legs around me tightly and arches her hips, I groan as I go deeper.
“God, you feel amazing. You take me so good, little hummingbird.” I go a little harder but still hold back, wanting to ease her into it.
Her fingers rake down my back, and pleasure shoots through me when I feel the sting of the scratches. My hand wanders over her body as I hungrily feel every inch of her. Bending down, I kiss her thoroughly as her hips raise up to meet mine.
Taking one of her hands, I thread our fingers together and hold it above her head. She grasps it tightly with each thrust of our bodies. I set a steady pace that allows us to feel every single thing we give to each other.
It’s unlike anything I’ve ever felt. The emotions overtake the physical, adding a whole other spiritual connection that I never knew existed. Our souls blend together until there is no way of telling where one exists without the other.
Her lips part on a moan as she closes her eyes and arches her head back on the pillow. I can tell she’s close when her body starts to tighten around me.
“Look at me, Lyla. I want to watch you.”
Her whiskey-colored eyes find mine, and when I see my future staring back at me, that’s all it takes as I go hard and deep for us to fall apart together.
She cries out my name as her pussy squeezes me tight like it never wants to let go. A growl escapes me as I pour into her as sensations I’ve never felt before release throughout my body. I hold her tightly to me and feel her heartbeat match mine in a fast, steady rhythm as we pulse together.
Burying my face in her hair, I breathe her in, knowing I’ll never feel anything better than when I’m buried deep inside her.
I roll us to our sides, keeping us connected and wanting to stay there for as long as I can. My hand runs down her back and weaves in her hair as I try to take in what I just felt.
“That was…I don’t know what that was,” she laughs softly against my chest. “No wonder everyone is out having sex all the time if it feels like that.”
“I don’t think what we just did was normal. I can tell you I’ve never felt half of what I just felt with you. I’ve never had sex like that before,” I admit truthfully. “All slow and feeling every single thing in the moment.”
“What do you usually like to do?” She asks, her eyes filled with curiosity.
“I loved what we did,” I smile at her, not wanting to spoil the moment by talking about my sexual history.
“I loved it too, but I still want to know everything about you, including what you like in the bedroom. ”
I sigh, knowing she’s not going to let this go. “I’m usually the one in control. I like to push the boundaries sometimes, but in a good way. I never do anything the girl doesn’t want me to do, and it’s always for both our pleasures. It’s nothing like what he did to you, so I don’t want you to think that for a second,” I add quickly.
“I know it’s nothing like what he did. You are nothing like him.” She bites her lip and places her hand over my heart. I can almost hear her mind reeling as she thinks about what I just said. “Is anything painful?”
“Pain in the bedroom can almost mimic pleasure if it’s used in the right way. I don’t get off on hurting the girl I’m with, but spanking, hair-pulling…things like that can be quite pleasurable when done the right way. Even…” I stop myself as I remember her past.
“Even what?” She watches me as I avert her eyes. “Tell me,” she says when I keep quiet.
“Even restraining someone can be pleasurable.” I hold my breath as I watch her take in what I just said. Thoughts of her being held down flash in my head, and I pray she doesn’t compare me to him.
“Show me,” she says with determination on her face.
“You want me to show you?” I was not expecting that answer this soon. “What part exactly that I’ve said to you do you want me to do?”
“Anything you want. You pick. I’m not going to be chained by him anymore, Jake. If you say I’ll enjoy it, then I want you to show me. Unless you need more time before you know…you can actually show me,” she moves her hips against me, and my body immediately responds. A smile plays on her lips when she feels me get hard.
“I don’t need more time,” I softly growl and press into her. “ Are you sure you are ready?” I peer into her eyes for any sign that she’s scared, and I’m relieved when I don’t see anything.
“I’m sure.”
“Turn over onto your stomach.”
“On my stomach? I’ve never…”
“Good,” I say, cutting her off as she flips over. “From here on out. I’m your first for everything. Anything that was done in the past to you is going to be replaced with pleasure by every touch I give you. You are mine, little hummingbird. Mine to protect, mine to worship, and mine to love,” I say softly, swallowing down the emotions swirling in me as I trace her flawless back with my finger. “No one will ever touch or be inside this body again…only me. Do you understand what I’m saying?”
“Yes,” she breathes against the pillow. Her breaths are shallower, and I can tell she’s turned on by my words and the anticipation of what’s to come. “I need something back, though.”
“Name it, and it's yours.” I run my hands over her round bottom before squeezing it hard. She moans softly into the pillow as her hips raise slightly. A satisfied smirk plays on my lips at how her body eagerly wants to participate.
“I don’t share either, Jake. My body is the only one who gets to have you, and I’m the only one who gets to touch you.”
“I’ve belonged to you since the night of the wedding, sweet Lyla.” I lift her hips and raise her gorgeous ass in the air. “You have me on my knees for you,” I quietly say. I swipe my finger through her center and moan when I feel how wet she is for me. I watch my cum drip out of her as it slides down her leg, and possessiveness washes over me that it’s me who’s coating that sweet pussy.
“Say the word no at any time, and I stop. I won’t be mad, and I won’t judge you. You are safe with me.”
“I know. I feel safe.”
I center myself and grab her hips tightly .
“And Jake?”
“Yes,” I say through clenched teeth, feeling her warmth on my tip and holding myself back from plunging in.
“If you ever restrain me and I struggle, I want you to know it’s not to get away from you. It’s because I want to run toward you.”
I close my eyes as her words slam into me with such force that I’m unable to decipher all the emotions that I’m feeling. This beautiful girl who’s been through hell and has been given no reason to trust or believe in love ever again is choosing me to open her heart to.
“Lyla..I.” I search for the right words to describe what I’m feeling, but I can’t because there are none.
“I know,” she whispers. “There are no words for what this is between us.” She presses back into me, and I slide an inch in. “Show me,” she pleads.
My fingers dig into her skin as I go deep inside on my next breath. She cries out, and for a second, I’m worried that it was too much too soon, but her body pushes back into mine, and her moan has me filling her again.
Her ass hits me with each thrust, and I relish in the sound of each slap against my body. Wrapping my arm around her waist, I bring her up against my chest. My hands squeeze her breasts as I pinch her nipples hard.
“Oh, God,” she moans as she continues to ride my dick.
“How does it feel to have my cock buried this deep inside you?” I grab a fistful of her hair and slightly pull, exposing her neck to me.
“So good,” she pants. “Don’t stop,” she whimpers.
“Baby, I’m just getting started,” I grin before sucking her neck deeply, making sure I’m on her skin tomorrow.
“Jake,” she moans.
“Ready for the first one?”
“The first one?” I can hear the surprise in her voice and grin.
“I’m not about to give you just one. A good girl like you deserves at least two.” I reach down and rub her swollen bud while I slam her down on me. I give her one last push over the edge as I pinch her clit hard and go deep inside.
My name sounds just like it belongs there as she screams it from those beautiful lips as her orgasm tears through her. Her pussy puts me in a vice as she pulses me tightly. I hold back my release because I’m not through with her yet. She’s panting hard and trembling as I release her and flip her over.
Her eyes are hooded and dazed as she fights to come back to me. “I don’t think I can again. It’s too much,” she rasps out. “I might die.”
“You aren’t going to die,” I chuckle. “And you most certainly can and will,” I grin devilishly as I devour her breasts. Her head arches back, and I feel her fingers start to touch me.
I decide to test her slightly and see how she reacts. My hands grab her wrists and pin them above her head. I hold her there firmly with one hand as I tease her sensitive nipples.
“Jake,” she squirms, trying to escape my grip. She doesn’t say stop, so I keep a firm hold on her.
“Hmmm?” I ask, sucking a nipple deep before lightly biting it.
“I want to touch you.” She strains again, but I don’t budge.
“And I want you to want to touch me. That's the whole point. But I’m not going to let you until I decide it’s time.”
“Why?”
“Because I said so,” I grin at her before sucking her bottom lip and diving in for a kiss, silencing her. Her body responds just like I wanted it to as she opens her legs wider for me, giving me just the angle I need to fill her deeply.
She wraps those long legs around my waist, and I press further into her .
“Higher.” She moves her heels higher up, and I grin at her. “I think you can do better than that.” I tap my shoulders, and her eyes widen.
She lifts one leg on my shoulder, and I switch hands that are holding her wrists as she slides the other one up. When I plunge deep, her head arches back on a moan.
“Feel good?” I go harder, making sure she feels me in every inch of her body.
“You’re so deep,” she gasps as I set a pace that drives us right to the edge.
“You’re going to cum with me, baby.” I let go of her wrists and sit back slightly so I can watch her pussy greedily take me in. “Look at us, Lyla. Your pussy was made for me, and I was made to be inside it.”
Her eyes watch as we join together. My dick glistens with her arousal on each thrust. I reach my hand down and apply pressure to her clit with my thumb, rubbing it hard as I go deep into her.
I feel her body fall seconds before I pour inside her with a shout. She cries out my name in the distance, but I barely hear her as I’m consumed by the sheer force of my orgasm.
I keep myself buried inside until every last tremor has left our bodies. Sweat clings to us as I gently remove her legs and bring her against me. I brush back her damp hair and see her eyes focus on me.
I swallow the lump in my throat and say the one thing I’ve never said to another girl before, unable to hold it in any longer.
“Is it crazy that I love someone so much in such a short amount of time?” I whisper. I see the surprise in her eyes before she quickly blinks back the tears that are threatening to spill.
“No more crazy than me loving you back,” she manages to get out as a beautiful smile breaks through her tears .
“You have no idea how happy you just made me.” I close my eyes and press my forehead to hers.
“I think I can take a pretty good guess because I’ve never been happier than I am right now.”
“We need to celebrate,” I grin, getting out of bed and flinging her over my shoulder.
“What are you doing?” She laughs against my back.
“Taking care of you, and then we are celebrating with a big piece of whatever delicious dessert you made.”
I walk us to the master bathroom and turn on the water in the big walk-in shower.
“I made a bourbon chocolate cake.”
“That’s it. I was going to ask you to be my girlfriend first, but we are going straight to wife.”
She giggles as I set her down. “If you play your cards right, I might say yes one day.”
She takes a scrunchie from her wrist and puts her hair up in a messy bun. I stare at her, completely captivated. She has no idea what she does to me just by simply existing.
“I’m not kidding, Lyla. I’m going to marry you one day, and we are going to have lots of babies and live happily ever after.”
Her eyes shine brighter than I’ve ever seen them, and I love that I’m the one who helped her find that light.
“Define lots .” She bites back a smile, and I walk us under the spray.
“At least two, but probably four, unless we have all boys like my mom did, in which case we have to go for a fifth. I need a little girl that looks just like her momma.”
“Five? You are crazy,” she laughs.
“I think we already established that crazy is a big part of our relationship.” I back her up and silence her laugh with a kiss.