Chapter 10
TEN
Sable
This was not how I saw my first time going.
I had gotten myself into the wrong situation with the wrong man. As Milo stared me down with his irresistible, icy blue eyes and brooding jawline, I couldn’t look away. Even knowing deep down in my soul we were headed for disaster.
He took a long sip of his drink, eyeing me from the rim of the glass. I covered myself in the throw and leaned against the foot of the bed. I had never felt this vulnerable before.
“Why didn’t you tell me?” He slammed the glass on the dresser, causing me to jump. “Didn’t you think that was an important detail?”
“I thought I could do it, but when you wouldn’t untie me, I panicked and…”
“Secrets will not work between us.” He threw his hand in the air. “Not ever. ”
“It’s not that I don’t want to be with you.” Why did this have to be so humiliating? “Can’t you tell by the way I respond to your touch? Your kiss?” I pulled my knees into my chest. “I’ll fulfill my end of the deal, but you have to be a little patient with me.”
“I can be a patient man when I have to be, but usually not when it comes to sex. I don’t like being blindsided either.”
“Oh.” I had seen comments girls left about him on social media. Most responses indicated that these women were willing to do anything he asked. I got the feeling a lot of them had. Look at him. Who wouldn’t bend to his will?
I’d bend any way he wanted me to…
“What have you been doing all this time?” He joined me on the floor. “Where have you been hiding?”
“I’ve been mostly surviving.” I swiped the hair from my face, daring not to look at him. How could I after what just happened? “I’m not doing a very good job.”
“I don’t understand how you got yourself into this situation.”
“You were right there with me.”
“I know how you ended up here.” He clenched his fists. “What I don’t get is why you would offer yourself up in the most intimate way if you had never had sex before.”
That was a valid question, but I didn’t even have the answer to it.
“It all happened so fast, but you saved Chance, and that’s what you wanted from me.” I shrugged. “I’m not proud of myself, but a deal is a deal, and I entered into it, so…”
It wasn’t as if having sex with him was some kind of hardship. He was fucking hot, dangerous, and should have been off-limits because of what I knew about him. But here I was some sort of half-virgin, sitting naked on his floor, trying to explain why I bartered my body to save my brother.
Beyond ridiculous.
“When I offered to help you, I assumed you had done this before,” he said.
“Done what? Had sex or traded myself to others?”
“Both.”
Ouch. I gripped the bedpost and pulled myself off the floor, trying to keep the throw from slipping to reveal my naked body.
“Why me?” He reached for my hand and guided me into his lap. “You could have gone right to Bello and offered him the same deal.”
“The kiss at the club.” I gazed into his eyes, ignoring the urge to hide from him. “It meant something to me.”
“I appreciate your honesty.”
“I’m sorry this didn’t go the way you had hoped, but please don’t go back on your word. Bello will kill Chance if you ask for your money back.”
“Chance’s debt is paid off, but yours isn’t.” He gripped my chin and held me still. “And just because you’re a virgin, that doesn’t get you off the hook.”
“But I’m… I mean tying me up and…”
“I wouldn’t have done that if you had been honest with me.
” He let go of my chin and traced his fingers along my jaw and to my throat.
“That was your fault.” He slipped the throw from my shoulders as he leaned in and kissed my neck.
“I’m still going to get what I want, but I’ll have to be a little more patient with you. ”
A chill coursed through me when he slowly swiped his thumb along my nipple, triggering a fierce and steady shiver .
“You’re going to have to relax.” He scooted me off his lap and stood, pulling me to my feet.
I caught the throw before it could fall to the floor and covered myself with it.
“You’re not going to need that.” He tugged it from me and tossed it on the edge of the bed. “Let’s start over.”
I pressed my palms against his chest, taking in the ink that covered most of it.
He ran his hand through my hair and tangled his fingers in it, guiding my mouth to his.
Once our lips connected, my fear dissolved into desire.
The longer he kissed me, the more I explored with my hands, running them over his shoulders and down his taut back.
Milo glided his hand along my throat and to my breasts, cupping one in his hand as he lowered his mouth to my nipple. He trailed his other hand down my stomach, brushing it against my mound. Nudging my legs apart with his knee, he thrust his fingers inside me.
“I feel like I won the lottery with you,” he whispered into my ear. “I’m going to be all of your firsts. I’m going to show you a world you wouldn’t dare imagine.”
I bit my lip, trying not to hiss from the sting he’d left me with earlier. The burn between my legs was nothing compared to the lust that surged inside me. I was the moth to Milo’s flame. No matter what sordid details brought me to him, I felt no shame.
I wanted this. I wanted him.
He led me onto the bed, and as I propped myself against the pillows, he rid himself of his pants and boxer briefs. I gazed fixated on his stunning body. All of his glorious muscles were covered in tattoos and olive-colored skin.
He got on the bed and positioned himself between my legs, brushing his lips along my inner thighs. He kissed between my legs, taking his time to trail the tip of his tongue along my slit. I gripped the comforter when he licked inside my tender sex.
“Did I hurt you before?” he whispered with a hint of regret in his tone.
“It wasn’t your fault.”
“I only want to bring you pleasure.” He reached for my hand. “There is a place for pain, but only if it heightens your experience.” He kissed his way up my stomach. “We’re going to explore everything until I learn what you like and what you don’t.”
“I’m not even sure what I like,” I admitted. “But I do like being close to you.”
When he swirled his tongue over my nipple, I wrapped my legs around his waist. He gripped my wrists and pinned them above my head, staring into my eyes.
“I want you to feel all of me, but I can’t risk hurting you.” He leaned back on his thighs and tugged me onto his lap, resting my legs on either side of him. “We’re going to do it this way.”
“Okay.” I had no idea what I was agreeing to, but I wanted to be with him.
“If I lay you down and get on top of you, I’m going to rip you in half.” The devil in his glint flickered before me when he grasped my hips and eased me onto him. “Trust me, you’re not ready for that.”
I gripped his shoulders when he forced my hips down and slid me onto his hard shaft. I squeezed my eyes shut, holding my breath when he was deep inside me.
“No.” He took my chin between his fingers. “Eyes on me.”
I opened my eyes and let out a slow breath as our gazes locked.
After a few seconds, I acclimated myself to his intrusion. He must have sensed my apprehension, because he stayed still inside me, allowing me time to get used to him. His tender kiss ignited a fire inside my stomach, encouraging me to move my pelvis up and down.
“I guess that means you’re ready?” He smirked before bracing himself against the mattress with one hand while he held my hip firmly in the other. “Show me how you want it, Sexy Sable .”
Heat filled my cheeks, but I couldn’t resist the urge to rock into him.
He directed me, lifting me up and bringing me back down onto him.
Each time he did that, the wetter I became, creating enough moisture that the thrusting no longer flared.
The pulsing between my legs intensified, taking me higher with every pass.
“I think it’s time to properly fuck you.” Milo wrapped his arms around me, bringing me close to him and holding me tight against his chest.
He increased his speed with his pelvis, quickening the pace of his thrusts. I held onto his rigid biceps, trying to keep up with him, but at some point I just went along for the ride, allowing him to take control and take me to new heights.
For the second time tonight, I surrendered to him. Digging my fingers into his arms, I quivered against him as I released, but unlike my first climax, this time Milo came with me, releasing his warmth inside me as my name came out of his mouth in a low, guttural moan.
He held me tight, kissing me with long strokes of his tongue. I could taste the hint of vodka in his hot, seductive mouth. He pulled back and stared at me with a scrutinizing look in his eyes that seemed a bit warmer than before.
“What?” I bit my lip. “Was it okay? ”
“It was better than okay.” He brushed the hair from my eyes. “Are you okay?”
“I’m better than okay.” That was the truth. I had waited for a man like him to come along and make me a woman. “Thank you for being understanding.”
“Don’t thank me,” he said. “I’m not that noble.”
When he shifted on the bed, I realized he was still inside me.
“Should we?” I motioned between us. “Move or something?”
“Are you uncomfortable?”
“No.” I smiled. “I’m not.”
“Good, because I like being inside you.” He tugged on the end of my hair. “Get used to it.”
“Not that I’m complaining, but now that we… well, now that I gave you what you wanted, aren’t we done?”
“Do you want to be done?” His thighs tensed beneath my bottom. “Because I’m not ready to let you go.”
That declaration probably should have scared me, because our arrangement had no boundaries. Considering he was still inside me, keeping his bodily fluids in place, proved that. This was Milo’s world, and I was happily living in it.
“I’m going to take you shopping tomorrow,” he said. “We’ll spend the morning at a private boutique making sure you have everything you need.”
“What do I need?”
“Everything.” He arched his brow. “Starting with a coat.”
“You don’t have to do that,” I said. “I’m the one who is working off a debt.”
“ Sweet Sable. ”
His ego didn’t need any more bloating, but I liked the nicknames. They made me feel important to him.
“You just gave me your virginity. That ten grand is paid off.”
I frowned, because after being with him, I wasn’t sure I wanted the debt to be paid off. What did that mean for our strange relationship?
“But like I said, I’m not done with you, and since we never set any clear terms, why change that now?”
“What do you mean?” I asked.
“It means we’re still playing by my rules.” He kissed my neck, trailing his lips up to my jaw. “I made you mine tonight.” He traced his fingers along my lips. “I won’t take that lightly.”
A shiver rolled through me. Was it a burst of excitement or a bizarre warning that I should heed? What could it hurt to play by his rules for a few more days?
“Are you still furious with me?” I stroked his cheek, focusing on the silver nose ring that intrigued me.
“I wasn’t furious with you,” he said. “I was upset because of the position your brother put you in.”
“I told you he’s young and stupid.”
“You have to stop making excuses for him.”
I couldn’t argue with him, because he wasn’t wrong, but Chance never had a proper role model. And here I was, making excuses again.
“I was mad at myself too,” Milo said.
“Why?”
“Because I should have read you better.”
“You couldn’t have known I was a virgin.”
“It’s my job to know people.” He ran his hand along my spine. “My family relies on me to understand who people are and what they can potentially do. ”
“That’s a lot of responsibility.”
“We all have a role in this organization.” He pressed his lips together. “I don’t want to talk about my business.”
I wanted to get to know him better, but pushing him about his business or his family didn’t seem like the correct route.
“Can I ask you something?”
“Sure.”
“The first night we met.” I touched his nose ring. “You didn’t have this.”
“I had the piercing, but I don’t wear it all the time.”
“How come?”
“My father doesn’t like it.”
“I like it.” I ran my finger over the small hoop. “It’s sexy.”
“I’ll wear it for you.” He leaned me back on the pillows. “But right now, I want you to do something for me.”
“What?”
“Spread your legs.”
“Are you always so wicked?”
“You have no idea how wicked I can be.” He hitched my leg over his hip. “Now that you’re mine, I’m never going to let up.”
Belonging to Milo Accetti came with certain advantages, but there were also disadvantages. I just had to figure out which one outweighed the other.