Chapter 8
Olava??s face was gray. His eyes burned and wept. A line of cold sweat threaded above his upper lip. His jowls hung and his clothes looked now like they belonged to another man, a bigger man, a healthy paunchy man.
The pain in his belly had increased, and now he could no longer work in his shop.
He sat the whole day now in the living area watching Zarabeth go about her work.
Occasionally he would moan softly and run from the room, clutching his belly.
His friends came by, but they couldna??t drink or eat or jest with him, for he was silent in his pain and withdrawn from their concerns.
Thus they left him to go about their own business.
Few came around anymore. The women visited Zarabeth, giving her advice, looking sadly toward Olav, and shaking their heads.
Olav looked at Zarabeth now. It was the middle of the day and she was cookinga??likely bland soup for him, curse her.
Bland soup and bread soft enough for an old man with no teeth and a liquid gut.
Damp tendrils of hair framed her face. She was silent, so very silent, never raising her voice even when he screamed at her in his pain and fear and his frustration, for he couldna??t bring her to heel as a man should his wife, and he became more afraid by the day.
Lotti played near her feet, stacking trenchers, then counting them in that ugly slurred voice of hers, then unstacking them.
Repeating and repeating until he wanted to yell.
But he didna??t; he didna??t have the strength.
Every once in a while Zarabeth would bend down and caress the little girla??s face, speak to her softly, then smile. Not one of her sweet smiles was ever for him. She was his wife, and yet it meant nothing.
A vicious cramp made him gasp, and he hobbled from the room, bent over like an old man, holding his belly.
Zarabeth looked up, frowning after him. Hea??d been ill since their wedding two weeks before, and now he looked like an old man, frail and gaunt, and he acted like an old man, querulous and spiteful.
At first, she knew, Olav had believed his belly pains simple retribution from too much mead and ale consumed at his wedding feast, but the pain in his stomach had continued, and he suffered greatly from bloody bowels.
He wasna??t capable of taking her. One night he had ordered her to disrobe in front of him. Hea??d wanted to see her, to caress her; it was his right as her husband. She hadna??t done it. Zarabeth shook away the memory.
Keith and Toki came every day, the son to help his father with his goods and Toki to gloat and ridicule, only in Zarabetha??s presence of course, mocking the failing old man and his sweet new bride who hadna??t been bedded, his new bride who wouldna??t breed a babe.
Zarabeth stirred the soup, mashing the potatoes as she stirred.
Olav could eat the soup, and he appeared to enjoy it, even though he cursed under his breath and crabbed and complained.
She had asked the ancient old crone Ungarn about Olava??s pain, and she had scratched the flaking skin on her arm and muttered that Zarabeth should give him ground-up garlic and smashed onions mixed together inside a bay leaf.
The combination sounded nauseating to Zarabeth, but shea??d done it.
Oddly, it had seemed to make him feel a bit better. But no longer did it have any effect.
She looked up to see Toki saunter into the living area as if she were the mistress.
She soon would be, if Olav died, for Zarabeth would have no rights.
Surely Olav had willed with the York council to leave all his earthly goods to his son.
Zarabeth nodded to Toki, wishing she would simply turn about and leave, and continued her stirring.
She felt Lotti move closer to her, leaned down and gave the child a reassuring pat on her head.
Lotti had kept her distance from Toki ever since that night so long ago.
a??The old man looks ready for a burial. All he needs is a winding sheet.a??
a??I think he does a bit better today,a?? Zarabeth said. a??But it is slow and mean, this strange illness he has.a??
Toki shrugged and looked down at the soup Zarabeth was stirring. a??More tasteless pap for the old beggar? What a pity you must eat what he does. Your ribs must be knocking hard against your skin.a??
Zarabeth said nothing, merely stared into the soup. She mashed another potato to pulp.
a??He still hasna??t bedded you, has he?a??
The long wooden spoon stilled. Slowly Zarabeth turned to face her new daughter-in-law, a woman several years her senior.
a??Keep your tongue away from things that are none of your business, Toki.
I shana??t tell you again. You will cease your insults of Olav.
Without him, as you once told me, you and Keith would starve.a??
Zarabeth turned away, fearing her own anger, ignoring Tokia??s soft hiss of anger.
At times, life was nearly comforting, for it had become so predictable.
Zarabeth took care of her husband, endured Tokia??s ill-humor and Keitha??s constant questions about his fathera??s health.
She thought of Magnus only in the dark of the night when it was still and warm and she couldna??t keep him out of her mind.
The pain of his leaving didna??t lessen.
It was sharp and deep and always with her, waiting to flood her with sadness and despair.
She supposed that the pain would fade, for pain always did lessen with time.
Perhaps by the end of the summer, or perhaps the fall.
But for now his face was still clear in her mind, and she could still feel the strength of him when hea??d held her, the teasing in his voice, the tenderness, and that bold way he had of saying things that made her dumb with surprise and delight.
She shook him away. It was the middle of another day, not the silence of night.
Keith and Toki had come, as usual, for the evening meal.
Toki was complaining, as usual. Lotti tugged on Zarabetha??s gown, wanting her attention.
Zarabeth ignored Toki and came down on her haunches beside her little sister.
It was the wooden trenchers. One of them had a splinter and Lotti had torn the flesh on her middle finger.
Zarabeth teased her and petted her and washed the scratch, then kissed the fingertip, all while Toki was sitting in Olava??s large carved chair, complaining of her lack of attention, complaining of the miserable meal she would surely have to endure for yet another evening, and telling Zarabeth that the child was stupid and didna??t deserve such attention.
Zarabeth rose slowly to her feet. It would never stop, never.
Tokia??s mouth rode on fast and sure wheels, her complaints and her meanness unending.
To gain control, she took time to smooth her damp hair back from her face, to smooth down the skirt of her gown.
She hated the bickering, the confrontations, but she simply couldna??t let it go this time.
Then she said to Toki, a??Get out of Olava??s chair, Toki.
Even ill, he fits it better than do you.
You will not again speak with malice of either my husband or my sister. Now, do you understand me?a??
Toki swung her crossed leg and folded her thin arms over her breasts.
She smiled. a??You slut! You stand there gloating because all this is yours, but not for long.
You wona??t be the mistress here forever, nay, not even for another month, Ia??ll wager.
The old man wona??t ever bed you. Never.
You wona??t bear a child to take away all that is Keitha??s.
That foolish old beggar wona??t last, youa??ll see.
Hea??ll soon have ashes in his mouth and worms gnawing at his bones, and youa??ll starve, you and that brat with you! a??
Zarabeth was weary to her bones, her anger now spent. She just shook her head, only to jerk around at the sound of Olava??s furious voice.
a??You bitch!a?? He came into the room, his shoulders straighter, his gray face flushed with anger.
a??Dona??t you ever again speak to Zarabeth like that!
You malignant shrew. By Thora??s wounds and Freyaa??s goodness, I never fully realized what my son must endure.
Or do you keep your wretched tongue sweet for him?
Aye, I wager that you do. How long have you tormented Zarabeth?
And she has protected you with silence, you worthless bitch.
By Thor, you are the one who should die! a??
a??Father, it isna??t true,a?? Keith said, coming quickly into the room, more quickly to his wifea??s defense.
a??Toki only cares that you are well-taken-care-of, nothing more.
She distrusts Zarabeth, for she is naught but the daughter of that runaway whore, Mara.
She is concerned because Zarabeth is young and heedless and cares naught for you save your wealth. Surelya??a??
Keith got no further. Zarabeth leapt at him, her fingers going around his throat, and she was screaming, a??You arena??t worthy to speak her name! My mother wasna??t a whore! Say no more, else Ia??ll kill you!a??
Zarabeth felt Olava??s hands pull hers away from Keitha??s throat. Toki was yelling, Lotti was cowering in the corner, and Keith simply stood there, his face pale, uncertain what he should say or do.