Chapter 3
Catherine shifted in sleep, catching herself with an aching jolt an instant before she would have toppled off the edge of Grayson de Camville’s enormous bed.
Stiffening as she came to full awareness, she pushed herself up on one shoulder and squinted at her surroundings.
’Twas nearly dawn, by the lead-gray light that seeped in the shutters.
She’d survived her wedding night.
Twisting to look behind herself, she saw that she’d moved little from where she’d finally curled in exhaustion hours after Gray had left her last night.
The blood-stained linen still lay across the bed where she’d thrown it before she slept, fearful lest someone enter the chamber while it was on the floor and realize the ruse for what it was.
Now she looked at the sheet with distaste. Though she was thankful for the reprieve it had granted her, the soiled linen represented the lie that had become her life in an undeniable, tangible way.
Forcing herself to stand, Catherine limped to the wash basin.
Her limbs protested against the ache that had worsened over the course of the night.
How long had she slept? ’Twas difficult to tell.
Still, she needed to perform her toilette before a maidservant arrived who might see her bruises and talk of them to the others at the castle.
She’d just slipped on a mulberry linen kirtle when the door creaked open. Catherine glimpsed an older woman’s face a moment before it disappeared again behind the portal.
“Pardon, milady,” her voice came gruff from the hall. “’Tis Mariah. I’ve been sent to attend to you as lady’s maid, if you’ll allow it.”
“Aye. Come in.” Catherine adjusted the fitted wrist of her smock so that it peeked from beneath the kirtle’s long, pointed sleeve. “I’ve dressed already, but I’d welcome help with my crispinette.”
Catherine watched Mariah enter the chamber, noticing the sharp expression that creased the small but able-looking woman’s face.
She looked to be nearly two score and ten years, with black, silver-streaked curls that framed her face and set off eyes the color of steel.
Though obviously roughened from hard work, her hands were gentle as she gathered up Catherine’s hair and arranged the delicate netting of the crispinette over it.
“Thank you, Mariah. ’Tis a welcome boon to have your assistance. At home I always had to tend my hair myself.”
Mariah pursed her lips, tucking the last curl in place. “I’ve served in noble households my whole life, and in all that time I never met a lady who fixed her own hair.” She scowled and added, “I’d not have thought Lord Montford the kind of man to allow it.”
“And yet I’ve spoken true,” Catherine said, startled to find the woman so querulous.
“Pardon, my lady,” Mariah said stiffly, though her expression remained sharp. “I meant no offense.”
Catherine nodded her acceptance of the apology, meeting Mariah’s gaze with as much calm as she could muster.
’Twas unexpected, this obstinate regard from a servant.
Prickles of warning inched up her back. Could Mariah suspect something amiss?
What if she knew, somehow, that Grayson had spent the night elsewhere and because of it questioned the validity of Catherine’s marriage to him?
And what if Eduard learned of it as well… ?
A sickening twist gripped her belly. Pushing herself to her feet a bit too quickly, she said, “Thank you for your help, Mariah. ’Twas thoughtful of you to come without my bidding.”
“I deserve no thanks, milady. ’Twas Lord Camville that asked me to peek in on you, to see what you might need.
” Her eyes softened a bit. “Though in truth, I know too well how hard the wedding night can be on young women,” she added, nodding to the bloodied sheet that still lay crumpled on the bed where Catherine had left it.
“Oh.” Catherine felt a flush fill her cheeks. “Well. I—I should be going down to chapel. It must be nearly prime, and my husband is surely waiting for me to attend mass with him.”
Mariah simply nodded, the same pointed expression on her face.
Catherine felt the woman’s gaze on her, boring into her back until she’d left the room.
As she descended the stairway, she tried to shake off the feeling.
Mariah’s stare hadn’t been unkind, after all.
Just watchful, perhaps. Even penetrating.
Aye, but that could be dangerous, too, she reminded herself, considering her borrowed identity and evil mission.
The caution sounded its dull warning, adding to the burdens she’d carried with her since the day Eduard had forced her to take part in his plots.
Mariah was the least of her worries right now, she reminded herself.
First, she had to face her husband in the cold light of day.
Had to use every ounce of her strength to appear serene and calm when she looked into his eyes, rather than as she truly felt.
In all of her life, even through the years when Geoffrey had pounded the knowledge of her failings into her every night, she’d never loathed herself as much as she did right now.
Thanks to her agreement with Eduard, she felt like a horrible spider, waiting to trap her victim in a web of deceit and death.
With that thought ringing in her mind, she entered the chapel for morning mass.
Her husband, however, was nowhere to be seen.
Through the course of the service, she somehow found means to let the peace of the atmosphere soak into her, allowing her a few moments of escape from her tortured thoughts.
But as soon as she left the cool chapel they converged on her again.
She walked faster, letting the sun warm her as she paced herself against their onslaught.
“Lady Camville!”
Catherine turned at the sound of the voice. Sir Alban Warton strode toward her, a grin lighting his boyish features. She tried to muster a smile in return; her husband’s friend seemed like a cheerful man who wore his good humor like a favored garment, often and well.
“Lady, I saw you at mass but had no chance to speak with you. I trust that this morn finds you content?” Alban offered her a slight bow.
“Aye, sir. And you?”
“Hale and hearty.” He closed his eyes and tilted his face to the sun. “Ah…the breeze is fragrant and the sky a sparkling blue. ’Tis a day fit for a king, is it not?”
A more honest smile tugged Catherine’s lips. “It is, sir, though I’d hazard to guess that you find every day as pleasing.”
Alban laughed. “Quite true. One learns to appreciate the simpler aspects of life when faced with the loss of them.”
Catherine tipped her head, trying to guess his thoughts. “You refer to the Crusade in Egypt?”
“Aye. I have many tales to tell of it. Your husband, however,” he added, his eyes crinkling at the corners, “tells every one of them far better than I.”
“I didn’t realize that you and Lord Camville had known each other for so long.” Catherine nodded to a serving boy who bowed as she and Alban strolled by the herb bed he was weeding.
“Oh, Gray and I met when we were lads. We squired together, received our dubbing three years later and rode out to face the infidels side by side not five months after that. He’s the one responsible for getting me back to England in one piece.
” Alban gestured toward the great hall. “But that story must needs save for another time. Will you accompany me to break your fast?”
“Aye, ’twill be welcome.” She paused and glanced at Alban, uncertain as to whether or not she should voice her concerns about her husband’s whereabouts.
In the end, the knight’s kind expression helped her to make the decision.
“Have you seen Lord Camville yet this morn, Sir Alban? I had thought to meet with him during mass.”
Alban looked surprised, but he masked the expression quickly. “There’s no need for alarm. ’Tis not Gray’s habit to seek daily mass. Your wedding was the first time I’ve seen him in a church since his last sojourn with King Henry.”
“Oh, I didn’t realize.”
“’Tis of no matter. There’s no shame in knowing less than all about a man you met only yesterday.”
Catherine nodded, troubled nonetheless. Her husband avoided the comfort of God and church? It boded ill, flaunting against the most basic rules of society. Even Eduard, as sinful as he was, attended mass daily. She’d had to look at his hypocritical face all through the service this morn.
Just then a cloud shifted from in front of the sun, and the full force of light made Catherine squint. “’Twill be brighter today than yesterday, it seems,” she murmured, almost to herself.
“Aye,” Alban answered as he escorted her onward toward the hall. “Gray will be pleased that no rain will mar his tournament—less mud usually means fewer injuries.”
Catherine frowned. “Does he expect many men to be wounded?”
“’Tis not uncommon.” Alban shrugged. “In mélées bruises and broken bones are to be expected. ’Tis much the same as regular battle, which is why the king doesn’t always view it with favor.”
“Is my husband not concerned, then, of incurring the king’s wrath with his mélée?”
“King Henry indulges Gray more often than not. War is a dangerous enterprise, and tournaments serve as our best and only preparation for real battle.”
Catherine was ready to ask another question, but before she could say anything, a hand gripped her arm, clamping down hard on the worst of her bruises there.
She stifled a gasp as Eduard’s voice hissed in her ear, “Sweet sister, I’ve had to run a merry chase to catch up with you.” Then louder, for Alban’s benefit, he added, “You left the chapel too quickly for me to bid you good morn.”
Standing still where he’d been near the door, Alban glanced warily back and forth between them.
Catherine struggled to look unconcerned at Eduard’s interruption.
“How silly of me not to have waited,” she murmured, “but I was so interested in hearing Sir Alban tell of the tournament today that I paid no attention.”