Chapter Six
“Take a walk with me,” Nikolai said, taking Lisa’s confusion a notch higher. He stepped out of the car, and waited patiently for her to do the same. They walked side by side, away from the houses by the beach, silence weaving their way around them.
But it wasn’t those awkward silences where all you wanted to do was to get it over with or just say something for the moment to end. It was a comfortable cloak that settled upon them both, and Lisa thought she could spend all day being this way with him. They had abandoned their footwear by the car, and Lisa loved how the sand got between her toes.
Nikolai stopped suddenly and looked towards the water, watching the oncoming wave. Lisa did the same, staring at the rioting water as it sprung up and thrashed about, roaring as it announced its arrival. Lisa couldn’t take her eyes off it every step of the way, each rise and fall, each crash, each roar, each spray. She walked towards the water slowly until she could feel it wrap around her legs, gently urging her forward. For the first time in forever, Lisa felt at peace. She didn’t have to worry about working at that shitty restaurant or about the drainage in her bathroom that got blocked almost every day. Tears pooled in her eyes and poured unbridled down her face, but Lisa wasn’t even aware of that. All she could see and feel were the air from the water and its coolness on her feet.
Suddenly, Lisa felt warm hands on her face and looked up to see Nikolai wiping her tears off. Her whole body went rigid at first, but she slowly loosened up, allowing herself to feel his warmth. Lisa knew she shouldn’t be doing this to herself. She would only end up getting hurt.
“I knew you would love it,” Nikolai said, standing beside her. “I come here when I want to get away from everything - all the noise, the duties…It’s a really short break, but I enjoy every bit of it.”
Silence.
“I’ve never taken a break before,” Lisa said softly, releasing a deep breath. “I always had something to do, so much so that I forgot how it felt like not having any responsibilities on my shoulders. It was the reason why I went out of my mind when you didn’t show up for two days, but you…”
The unsaid words hung between them, but Nikolai moved past it quickly, even though his dick felt a little excitement from the brief thought.
“Why couldn’t you? Did you have a lot of responsibilities at home?”
Lisa shrugged. “I didn’t think of it that way, but now that you mention it, maybe I did.” Nikolai’s eyes widened a fraction, anxious for the words that would follow. However, Lisa was oblivious to his reaction as she still had her gaze fixed on the water. “I was responsible for trying not to annoy my foster parents, which I failed at woefully because every single thing I did pissed them off.”
“Foster parents? You didn’t grow up with your biological parents?”
Lisa nodded. “More like I moved from foster home to foster home more times than I could count. More often than not I’d end up back at the orphanage, and it happened so many times I did start to think maybe I was the actual problem. Maybe I was, because when I was finally picked up by a family who actually wanted me, it was to be used as a punching bag, and a means for them to let out steam.”
“Lisa…’
“I hate pity from anyone, you know? I liked to think that it was just my destiny - to be used by people. So, I worked so hard to be away from those that I thought had the power to abuse me. But guess what? I ended up right in their laps again. I moved out of their home, but nothing really changed. You saw where I lived. I am still the girl running over people’s commands because I do not have a will of my own. I still get bitched over by people because there’s no way out of that for me. It’s all I’ll ever be.”
“You’re wrong,” Nikolai muttered. “You’re with me now. Things will be different. I’ll protect you.”
“Don’t make promises you can’t keep,” Lisa blurted.
“Hey,” he drawled softly but firmly. “Watch your tone. I have never made a promise I cannot keep, and I won’t start now.”
Nikolai stared at the waters again, thinking about how wrong Dmitri was. How on Earth had he made that conclusion that Lisa had something to do with the mole that had infiltrated the Bratva? The family the mole mentioned that he was working for used to be a core mafia family, and from what Lisa had told him, she knew nothing about that word. Sure, she could be lying. Nikolai had thought about that possibility. But the look in Lisa’s eyes told a rather different story; a story of someone who had faced real abuse. She was sincere. But there was also that impeccable English accent. Had she always had that?
“Have you heard anything from your birth parents?” Nikolai pushed just for the sake of it.
“No,” she replied. “I don’t know anything about them. When I asked, the orphanage refused to divulge any information.”
“And what about your foster parents? They should know something,”
Lisa looked up at Nikolai, her eyes roaming around his face, drinking him in. This was strange - from the walk to the conversation and his promise to take care of her. No man did that out of the blues, but then again, Nikolai was no ordinary man. Lisa couldn’t even keep up with the numerous sides to him. What was he onto now?
“If they did, they sure used it against me. Maybe my parents did something terrible to them, and they decided to take it out on me.”
Nikolai shook his head gently, and that was not a word Lisa would describe him with. But he did it all the same. Grabbing her hand, they continued their walk around the beach.
“I’m sure your parents are amazing people,” he said as an afterthought. “They gave birth to you.”
He didn’t say anything after that, but those few words were enough to get Lisa’s heart in a frenzy. Nikolai’s hand felt strong against hers, and she couldn’t help but wonder how it would feel on her skin. He hadn’t touched her back in his office, and maybe at that moment, she would have cringed.
But now…
Now…
When did it all change?
Had it really?
“Nikolai, I think…”
“You shouldn’t,” he interrupted, smiling down at her. “When I come here, I don’t allow myself to think. I just… exist.” His eyes followed the path from her neck down to the rise of her breasts and the cleavage that had been taunting him since she walked down the stairs. Lisa had great skin, he had to admit, even though it took a lot of pride to. Its paleness contrasted heavily with the black she had on, but at the same time, he loved the picture it presented - alluring, sexy.
Nikolai’s fingers brushed the exposed skin around her neck, and Lisa’s body went rigid. She closed her eyes and lifted her face to the skies, her lean throat open. A sly thought crept into his mind, and Nikolai toyed with it for a minute. But his words came back to him - don’t think. Do.
That was a lie. Nikolai had never made a decision without carefully thinking about it. He loved to know the pros and cons of every embark he went on so it wouldn’t catch him off guard. But here he was, really considering letting all that go, because of a damn exposed neck that seemed to beg for the onslaught of his lips.
Fuck it!
“Nikolai…” His name escaped her lips like a prayer, fervent and devout when he wrapped his fingers around her fragile neck. He wanted to be careful with her - needed to be careful. But that wasn’t Nikolai’s style.
The Russian Bear closed the small distance between them and wrapped a hand around her waist, with the other still wrapped around her neck. He pulled her flush against him, feeling himself go hard as her soft breasts pressed against his chest. He knew she hadn’t put on a bra when her perky nipples announced themselves in reaction to the cool air of the beach.
“Say it again,” Nikolai urged, his fingers moving on her skin on their own accord.
“Say what?” Lisa tried to fight his grip, but at the same time, she bit her lip, tuning down a moan.
“My name. Now.”
“Why?” Lisa could barely breathe, but she felt even crazier for getting turned on by it. Heat spread through every part of her body, generated by the contact on her neck, and she craved for more.
“I want to hear it from your lips as I choke you.” Nikolai loved the view he was getting. He could smell her arousal - how bad her body wanted him, how hard she was fighting it.
Nikolai loved a good challenge.
“No.”
“What did I tell you about flaunting my orders?” he asked, taking his hands off her. Lisa instantly missed the feeling and brought her hands up to her neck. She could feel the bruises forming already, but they only made her think of how close she was to begging him to kiss her.
Her eyes trailed to his lips, and all the air seemed to vanish. Lisa’s mouth went dry, and she flicked her tongue across her lips. Nikolai grunted as he followed the movement.
“Don’t do that.” His deep-set voice ignited a fire in Lisa, and she knew she ought to put some distance between them. But she remained standing within his grasp like another force was holding her to the spot.
“Do what?” Her voice had lost its firmness, and her eyes looked like she wanted exactly what he was offering.
“Lick your lips. It makes me think of all the things I can do to you.”
“You dish out a lot of commands and force me to obey them like some boss, while at the same time, you tell me that you’ll protect me. You confuse me, Nikolai.” Regardless of the compromising situation Lisa was in, she still wanted to make her thoughts heard. But it only made Nikolai regard her with an increased interest.
“I am a boss. I’ve never been anything else.”
“Well, this girl is not a submissive. Never has been.”
“Wanna test that?”
“What?”
Nikolai pulled Lisa to him, and she felt his erection in his pants. He didn’t try to hide it one bit as he grind himself against her, watching her eyes for a reaction.
“N-Nikolai!” It took everything to get his name out, as Lisa found her breath eluding her. His hands resumed their position on her neck again, and the air grew ten times hotter.
“I wanted to hear my name from your lips three minutes ago. It’s too late now. We’ll have to settle for something else.”
In one quick move, Nikolai brought down her bandeau, revealing her breasts. He was right in his assertion earlier. Lisa’s breasts were the perfect shape, round and full, with her nipples pointing to his chest. The sight was glorious.
Lisa gasped as Nikolai bent and took one nipple into his mouth, his teeth clamping down on it. Lisa screamed from the pain, a sound that soon turned into pleasure as Nikolai replaced his teeth with his tongue. A feral sound resounded in the air, and Lisa was surprised to note that it came from her.
“Not a submissive indeed.” Nikolai clamped down his teeth on her nipple again when she was about to say something, and Lisa got lost in the pain. But he didn’t leave her in that stage for long as he kept on swapping with his tongue at intervals, eliciting a pleasure-induced pain, the perfect combination to get anyone on their knees, begging to have him.
“Do you want me to stop?” he asked sarcastically, needing no answer as Lisa pushed herself to him.
It had worked for every woman he had tried it with, but Nikolai had a feeling that Lisa was different. She wouldn’t beg to have him.
Lisa was stubborn.
Nikolai loved different and stubborn.
Suddenly, Nikolai stopped and picked her top off the floor, tossing it to her. Her hungry eyes and shaky limbs watched him as he stalked away without offering an explanation, leaving her behind to watch his retreating frame. Lisa took a minute to get herself to calm down, staring once again at the approaching wave that offered no solace this time around. She felt dizzy for a minute and had to shake her head, her hair coming loose all around her naked body.
All of her senses knew that she should have screamed at Nikolai to stop the fire he had started on her body, but the problem was that she couldn’t summon the willpower to do it. She was lost in that mixture of pain and pleasure, so much so that no rational part of her made sense anymore.
And that was a huge problem. Lisa didn’t want to be attracted to this man who threw commands and mandated that they must be obliged. She didn’t want to have sex with a maniac who only got off pain, albeit mixed with pleasure. But Lisa had almost begged him to take her there and then. The throbbing in between her thighs got so unbearable that if he hadn’t stopped at that moment, she would have thrown all caution to the wind.
She needed to put more effort into staying away from him. It was the last time she was going to be coming here with Nikolai.
After about twenty minutes of staring at nothing, Lisa put her bandeau back on and made her way to the car, unsure if Nikolai was actually still there, waiting for her. So, it was surprising when she heard the soft purr of the car’s engine as she turned around the corner. Nikolai unlocked the doors from inside but said nothing throughout the ride home. He didn’t even offer to help with her seat belt. Lisa thought it was all for the best.
But the instant Nikolai brought the car to a stop at the mansion, he got out and threw the keys to one of his men, stalking to the corner of the building. Lisa was in a fix. She had felt weird throughout the ride; she could feel that Nikolai was angry because she had done something wrong to him. And now, she thought she had to make it right.
I’ll just apologize and return inside , Lisa told herself as she bounded after him. She found him with his eyes closed, resting on the stone wall at the corner of the building, where there was nothing other than gravel-filled land. Just where did this land end?
Lisa took a deep breath and approached him. “I’m sorry,” she muttered. “I got you angry.”
“Get inside,” Nikolai commanded, still not opening his eyes.
She had promised herself that she wasn’t going to argue with him, but that commanding tone of his always seemed to get to her every single time.
“Stop telling me what to do!” she threw back at him. “I just… Let me apologize.”
“What did you do wrong?” Nikolai opened his eyes and angled his head, watching, waiting.
“Well...” she bit her lips, and Nikolai felt his cock respond again. All it took was to be in the same room with her, breathing the same air.
“This is what you did,” Nikolai said as he pulled her hand in the direction of his cock, forcing her to touch it through the cotton of his pants. “How are you going to take responsibility for that?”
“Nikolai…”
“Come here.” Lisa swallowed and took a step closer to him, her heart thrashing in her chest. She knew she wasn’t going to be able to avoid him forever, because no part of her body wanted to. Suddenly, Nikolai flipped her around, making her rest on the wall, and positioned himself in between her thighs.
Lisa’s breath hitched as Nikolai trailed his hands from her cleavage down to her stomach, pausing for a fraction before moving further down, toying with the hem of her pants. At once, he slipped his hands inside, feeling for the cotton of her panties, which he found soaked.
“You’re wet for me,” Nikolai uttered with pleasure, stroking her through her sodden panties. Lisa, unable to bear the amount of passion and heat surging through her, threw her head back and echoed a loud moan, rubbing her clit against his hand insistently.
“Easy. krastoka .”
Pushing her panties to one side, Nikolai slid a finger into her, and her clit started pulsing so hard that he could feel it in his dick.
“You’ve never done this before, just as you had never sucked on a man’s dick. I like that. I’m the first man to ever touch you this way, am I not?”
“Mmm,” Lisa moaned.
“Words, Lisa.” He inserted a second finger, and Lisa gasped loudly.
“Yes!”
“Yes, what?”
“You’re…you’re the first man to ever touch me.” Lisa couldn’t make one logical thought.
“Good girl.”
In a second, Lisa’s pants came off, along with her panties. She stood in front of him half-naked and not a bit self-conscious. All she could see was the way Nikolai’s eyes darkened into a deeper shade of blue as he looked at her.
“ Krastoka ,” he murmured, resuming his position against her. Nikolai toyed with her clit again, stroking her until her legs couldn’t stay still anymore. Lisa held on tightly to his shoulders, keeping herself standing with his strength.
Abruptly, Lisa felt something cold, hard, and stretched on the outside of her pussy. She knew what it was without opening her eyes, as just hours earlier she had it in her mouth. Nikolai rubbed his dick on the moisture over and over again. The tip touched her clit, and Lisa’s whole body recoiled as she screamed in ecstasy. She pushed her waist against Nicholai, urging him to slide his cock inside her.
“What do you want, Lisa?”
Lisa did it again, this time wrapping her hands around his waist. Nikolai shook his head subtly, then leaned to whisper in her ears.
“Use your mouth. I know how skilled it is.”
Lisa felt like she was going to combust from all the buildup of passion. She tried saying something but her lips only parted, with no words coming out. Obliging her, Nikolai thrust once inside her with his cock, holding her to keep her upright. Lisa felt earth-shattering pain, but it soon dulled as Nikolai went on slowly, thrusting at a comfortable speed.
He increased the pace again when he thought she could take it, and Lisa thrashed and twisted in his grip, raw passion shooting through her. She saw red, then blue, then white all at once, and she thought she was going insane.
And then she felt it. The crazy quiver of her legs, her eyes rolling back on their own accord, the increasing and trickling moisture down her legs - then, the explosion.
Lisa arched her back as she reached orgasm, screaming into the air as Nikolai continued thrusting. She fell against his warm body, and he held her, pulling out of her at the same time. Lisa didn’t know why, but at that moment, she felt something in her move for Nikolai. It was crazy, but she felt bonded to him.
Lifting her head, she regarded him intently in all his glory, enthralled as the setting sun cast a soft glow on him. He looked like a fierce monster holding a breakable mortal in his arms.
And Lisa loved the look.
“Next time, tell me what you want.”
Nikolai picked her clothes off the floor and handed them over to her, pecking her head before walking back in the direction of the giant door.
But resting on that wall, watching the sun go down, Lisa realized that she was no longer in control of what she wanted anymore.