Chapter 15
She waited, her heart in her throat, praying he wouldn’t probe deeper. Needing to distract him, she slid her feet down his chest to the rock-hard plate of his abdomen.
To her relief, he nodded and resumed his task of removing her clothing. “I’m all for making new memories, sweetheart. Trust me, I know a little bit about unsatisfactory sex.”
Her incredulous laugh earned her a bite just above her ankle, once he’d freed her of the restrictive leggings.
“You don’t believe me?”
“You’re gorgeous. And miles past adequate in the endowment area. I find it hard to believe you have bad sex.”
His fingers drifted down her inner calf, messing with her breathing some more.
“Like most areas in life, all it takes for bad sex to happen is a lack of proper communication. Which is why I need to hear you, loud and clear, at all times.” He planted a kiss in the crease behind her knee, but his eyes were locked on hers.
“I will control your pleasure, but if I do something you don’t like, Stop is all you need to say. Try it now.”
She shook her head. “I don’t need to?—”
“Say it, Leia.”
“Stop.”
His fingers dug into her upper thighs and he sucked in a breath. “Louder.”
“Stop!”
It was only as he exhaled that she realized how tense he’d grown.
A thread of concern slithered down her spine, erasing a layer of excitement.
Bitter experience had taught her that monsters came in different shapes and sizes.
It was why she’d learned to rely on her instinct first and foremost. They were still calm where Noah was concerned but it didn’t make the anxiety disappear.
“Why do you need to hear it, Noah?” she asked, her pulse accelerating again when his grip eased and he began trailing his fingers down her inner thigh.
Eyes so unbelievably blue they seemed unreal darkened before his eyelids swept down. “Because I have monsters too. Monsters that scream very loud at times like these. I want to make sure I hear you above their noise.”
“You will.”
He nodded. “Good. Between your ghosts and my monsters, we might struggle to hear ourselves above the noise. But I intend to make you scream so loud, you’ll drown them out.”
This time when she tried to get up, he didn’t protest. Raising herself on her elbow, she cupped his cheek, gloried in the roughness of his stubble as he turned his head to kiss her palm.
“Fuck me, Noah. Is that clear enough?”
He groaned. “Shit. I thought it was cute and sexy when you blushed before you said fuck. Hearing you say it like that makes me so fucking hard.”
He reefed the thermal top over his head, ruffling his thick black hair in the process so it flopped over his forehead. The combination of his heart-stopping face and deep, mouth- watering chest was too much. She gasped in a euphoric breath at all that incredible maleness.
He stopped and stared at her. “What?”
“You’re magnificent.”
A faint flush spread across his cheekbones.
“I think you win the gorgeous stakes hands down, sweetheart.” He pushed her back down, his gaze drifting over her legs, which were still propped on his naked chest, and across her flat belly to her breasts.
His stare lingered long enough to cause a sizzle between her legs.
“Your nipples are so pretty. I want to lick them for hours.”
Her back arched in direct reaction to his words, offering them up to him in a silent plea. He refused, choosing to kiss her feet again, her ankles, her calves until he reached her thighs.
Finally, he parted her and saw her underwear for the first time. Sliding his forefingers underneath the edges, he rubbed his thumb over the material. “Interesting lingerie.”
“It’s… it’s what I do. Design them, I mean.” His raised eyebrows made her shake her head. “Later, please. I’ll tell you later.”
He smiled. “Just get on with it?”
“Please,” she gasped.
“You will learn patience, Leia Michaels.”
“Yes, Noah,” she responded in her most agreeable voice. Anything to make him hurry and put his hands and his mouth on her.
“Fuck. You’re determined to cut me to shreds, aren’t you?”
She frowned. “What? Why?”
“Never mind. We’ll explore that later, too.” He kissed the sensitive skin of her inner left thigh, his eyes fixed square on hers, absorbing her every reaction. Her mouth dropped open on a wordless gasp as he used his teeth, then his stubble on her quivering flesh.
“Do you like that?”
She nodded jerkily.
“Vocalize. Remember, I don’t hear, you don’t get.”
“Yes, I like that. I want more.”
He started to turn his head, then paused with his mouth inches above her mound. He breathed her in, swallowed hard as his eyes connected with hers.
“You smell incredible, baby. I can’t wait to taste you.”
She curbed the urge to scream for him to do it now. She was learning very quickly that fast and hard didn’t mean the same thing to him as it did to normal people. She would be lucky if he allowed her to come this side of sunset.
She moaned, half in frustration as he dropped lazy kisses down her right thigh. Her fingers dug into the sheets, her back arching off the bed when he grazed his chin over her clit.
“God!”
Moving her hips, she tried to connect with him, desperate for the friction; hell, anything to ease the pressure building inside her. She almost cried in relief when he grabbed her panties and pulled them off.
But when she parted her thighs again, to eagerly accommodate him, he pressed her legs together.
“No!”
“Not yet, sweetheart. The way you’re feeling right now, if I use my mouth on you, you’ll come.”
She slammed her head against the pillow in frustration. “Isn’t that the whole point?”
His mocking laugh made her teeth grind. “Just a little longer, baby.”
“You really need to look up the definitions for fast and hard. What you’re doing right now is most definitely not it.”
Strong hands kept her legs together as he raised them high. Her heart hammered and a tinge of embarrassment bled into her at the knowledge that with her exposed this way, he couldn’t miss how wet or hot she was.
“Beautiful. So fucking beautiful.”
The breath she hadn’t noticed was locked in her lungs burst free.
He blew a cool breath over her and she jerked.
A finger slid up her entire pussy, light, barely grazing her heated flesh but she felt it in every atom of her being.
He repeated the action, grazed past her clit.
It wasn’t enough to send her over the edge but it was enough to make stars burst behind her closed lids.
“I can’t wait to fuck you, Leia.”
“But you are! You’re taking forever. I won the race so you owe me fast and hard. I’m going out of my mind. Please, Noah. Fuck me.”
He didn’t respond. Just continued to slide his finger up and down, dragging her shameful stickiness all over her pussy while crooning beautiful words to her in that deep, low voice that added another pleasure dimension to her already-heightened state.
He finally let her legs fall apart and reared between them.
Keeping his eyes on her, he tasted the finger slick with her wetness then slowly inserted one finger inside her.
“I like hearing you beg, but I won’t be hurried.
You think you don’t, but you need time. You need care.
I don’t want this to be a quick blitz across your memory.
You’re special. Your body needs to remember how special it is.
” He slowly withdrew his finger and pushed it back in.
Her internal muscles closed greedily around him.
He groaned and his Adam’s apple moved in a hard swallow.
“Will you give it a little more time? Is it worth it to you?”
“God… yes.”
“Good girl.”
He pulled out and pushed back in, this time with another finger. A shudder raced down her body. She rocked her hips, felt him stretch her, and cried out.
“Dammit!”
She raised a heavy head and stared at him. The rigid look on his face made her heart stutter with apprehension. “What? Did I do something wrong?”
“You want me to fuck the shit out of you. But you’re so fucking tight I seriously doubt I can get my cock more than a couple of inches inside of you.”
She whimpered. “Don’t stop. Please. It’ll be fine.”
He relaxed a fraction, and a half smile twitched his mouth.
“You sound so certain. Have you been experimenting, sweetheart? Stretching this sweet little cunt with your naughty toys to see how much you can take? Or did you touch yourself? When the hunger got too much, did you finger-fuck that tight paradise, desperate for relief?”
She shuddered at the dark pleasure in his tone. “Yes. I needed… something.”
“Did it help?” He pushed his fingers in, and her focus hazed.
A blush burned her face, and she bit her lip and shook her head. “It wasn’t enough. I needed more.”
“I want so very badly for you to show me, but for the sake of both our sanities, I think we’ll leave that for another time.”