Chapter 24 Forest
FOREST
Oh my god, what was he doing to me? He was trying to kill me. That was the only explanation. Nothing had ever felt this good. How did I have this spot in me and not know how amazing it was?
I couldn’t talk. All I could do was gasp and thrash, moan and whimper. It was too much and not enough.
Then he added a second finger, and I moved for a different reason. “Holy fuck,” I bit out. This was pain.
“We don’t have to keep going,” he reminded me.
“I didn’t come this far to give up.” I’d be damned if Sheldon put two fingers in me and I didn’t get to experience him fucking me.
He took his time, pushing in slowly and retreating the same. I wasn’t sure how many minutes went by before he told me he was adding a third.
My hand went to my mouth as I bit my fist to keep from being even louder. The pleasure was completely gone. I lived in the world of torment and not in a good way.
“Why do people like this?” I asked, my voice strained.
“We can stop.”
“Hell no.” I didn’t care if tears ran down my cheeks. I was doing this.
And I did. Slowly, the pain began to recede as Sheldon stretched me, added more lube as necessary, and spoke to me in a soothing voice. He had the kind of timbre that should narrate books or podcasts for a living. I could listen to him all day.
My eyes blinked open, and I latched on to the man my heart beat for.
“There you are,” he said with a smile that spoke of things unsaid, words I felt so strongly. The fact he only gave them to me made me warm inside. “Doing okay?”
I nodded. “Much better.”
“Tell me what you want to do next.”
“I need you in me.”
“Are you sure?”
“Yeah.”
He leaned to the side to open the nightstand drawer, but I stopped him. “We don’t need it. I never go bare and get tested regularly.”
“Same, but are you certain?”
“I want to feel all of you.”
“God, beautiful, you do me in with your words and trust.”
Sheldon grabbed the lube to slick himself. I watched with rapt attention as he slid his hand up and down his dick. Then he added more lube to me, pushing it inside. “It’s going to hurt again, but I’ll do everything I can to make you feel good.”
“I know.”
If there was one thing I was certain of, it was Sheldon wouldn’t hurt me. This wasn’t the same kind of hurt he could do to my heart. This would be painful, but it would fade.
He positioned himself over me, his gorgeous eyes looking in mine. “Hi.”
“Hi.”
“Do you realize how much of me you own?”
“If it’s the same as how much of me you have, then it’s a lot.”
“Everything, Forest. You have every part of me. I’m wholly yours.”
With that, he held himself at my entrance and gave a tentative, small thrust. I gasped, doing my best to relax. If I tensed, we’d be here all night. And as much as I’d love to enjoy his body for hours on end, I couldn’t deal with the maybe, maybe not with my need to come.
Gripping his arms, reveling in his strength, I held on as he pushed in farther. Every inch hurt like hell, but I didn’t voice it. I held Sheldon’s gaze to reassure him I wanted to continue. He did until he was fully seated inside of me.
“My god,” he rasped when his hips met my ass. “You are every level of perfect.”
“Not even close, although I appreciate you saying it.”
He retreated ever so slightly before pushing back in. Short thrusts that soon became more when he felt my body relax beneath him. The longer he was inside me, the easier it became. Soon, pain turned to pleasure, and I held on to him for a different reason.
“That’s it,” he encouraged. “You were made for me.”
“Need you.”
He lowered himself until his chest touched mine and his elbows braced on either side of my head. “There is one thing you never have to doubt. You will always have me in whatever capacity you need.”
“Sheldon?”
“Yeah.”
“I love you.” My eyes began filling with tears.
“They say you shouldn’t declare your love for someone during sex, but after tonight, I can’t keep it in.
I’ve never met anyone like you. The way you care for me, how you show me you want me, and are willing to protect me with your life, it’s so easy to fall for you. ”
Sheldon blinked, then blinked again. His eyes mirroring mine, wetness building in them. “I love you too,” he whispered. He tucked his face against my neck. “I love you so much.”
While tears broke free from my eyes as I wrapped my arms around his back, and wetness hit my neck, Sheldon wasn’t fucking me any longer. He was making love to me.
Everything changed in that moment. Not just our feelings for each other, but what this meant. I gave Sheldon a part of myself no one else ever had. He could do anything he wanted to me, and I’d let him.
Sheldon moved his hands down to cup my ass and picked up the pace. The sounds in the room were dirty and ours. The scent was a mixture of our sweat and pleasure. My dick leaked onto my stomach, hard again after going soft when I was in pain.
This was what I wanted. This was what I needed, who I was made to be with.
“Yes,” I panted. “More.”
I clawed at him, couldn’t get enough. He had to go deeper, harder. I wanted him buried so I couldn’t tell where I ended and he began.
When he rolled us so he was on his back and I was on top, I wasn’t sure what to do at first. Yes, I knew, but at the same time, I’d never been in this position. Sitting up, his fingers threaded with mine. From here, I was the one in charge. It was heady.
“Work yourself on me,” he said. “Make yourself feel good. I want to see you come.”
I moaned. “Why do your words go right to my balls?”
“It’s a skill. One of many.” He punched his hips upward, drawing a gasp from me.
He gave me the courage to be bold and do as he asked.
Too bad I couldn’t fight the flush overtaking my body.
The heat crept up my abdomen to my chest before settling in my face.
It wasn’t the first time he saw me like this, and it wouldn’t be the last. If I weren’t trying to make myself soar, I might have been embarrassed.
Using my legs, I lifted and lowered myself. I leaned back and then forward. I did everything I could to find the spot that felt best. Once I did, I stayed there to bounce on his dick like it was my goddamn job.
“Good,” he urged. “Keep going.”
His hand wrapped around my dick so he could jerk me in time with my movements. It was so much, so amazing.
Oh god, I was fucking close.
Then I shot. Cum erupted from me, going all over Sheldon’s stomach and chest.
“You’ve never been hotter,” he panted.
I didn’t stop until I couldn’t take the pleasure anymore and collapsed on top of him.
Sheldon held me close to roll us again. Once my back met the mattress, he began fucking me in earnest. His dick powered in and out of me until his body tensed, every muscle flexed and tight, and he shot deep inside of me.
“You’re mine, Forest.” He dropped his head when he was spent, eyes meeting mine. “Forever.”
“I wouldn’t have it any other way.”
Lowering himself, his sweat-slicked chest touching mine, he said, “I don’t think you understand. I’m like one of those guys from that paranormal movie we watched the other night. We’re mating for life, beautiful. I’m never letting you go.”
That was a heavy thing to say. Also, it was on par with the man I’d given my heart to. Sheldon didn’t hold back with me.
“Good,” I replied and embraced him. “I meant it when I said I love you.”
He pressed the sweetest kiss to the side of my neck. Another on my cheek, then on my lips, before his tongue swept in to taste me. We kissed like we hadn’t in years. Like we were kept apart for eternity. All the while, Sheldon stayed inside me.
As his cum began to slip out of me, he retreated. My ass was grateful for the reprieve, but my heart wanted him buried in me for hours more.
Sheldon worked his way down my body, kissing me, loving me.
When he got to my dick, he licked every bit of it, collecting what cum remained.
But he didn’t stop there. Sheldon went lower, pushing my legs up so he had full access to my hole again.
He licked around the sensitive flesh, causing me to writhe once more.
When his tongue entered me, I tensed in pain.
It wasn’t the same as before. I was sore now.
And Sheldon, well, he feasted on his cum as it seeped from within me.
His puffy lips curved into a genuine smile when he came up for air. “I will never tire of your taste. I’ve branded you, come inside you. The only thing left to do is marry you, but I don’t want you running scared, so I’ll leave that off the table for now.”
I froze. For a second, I thought he was going to propose, and in that second, I would have said yes. Realizing he wasn’t doing that didn’t relax me. It made me want it more. I kept that to myself.
My life with Sheldon was a whirlwind of emotion. There was nothing healthy about the speed and direction we were traveling in. Did I care about the healthy part? Not in the slightest.
Even if we were together for five years before getting married, I wouldn’t care any more than I did now about what other people thought. They weren’t in the relationship with us. They didn’t get a say in what we did.
With someone still after us, Sheldon’s life on the line when he went to work with Jordan, and always being targeted by the police simply for who Jordan was, nothing was guaranteed.
Unless the people who would judge us had lived this life, they wouldn’t understand. Sheldon was a guard for a mafia boss. He had poisons hidden behind a false wall in his closet. Yesterday I saw him meditate in there. That explained why he was able to remain calm all the time.
The man I loved was complex. He had many layers. Piece by piece, he revealed himself to me until he lay bare, his body against mine, heart beating for me alone. Whatever I asked, he would answer. Sheldon didn’t hide from me, and I wouldn’t from him.
We were in the thick of it now. There was no going back, not that I wanted to. My only path was forward with Sheldon by my side, along with his weapons and poisons. There was no better place to be and no better person to protect me than the one who owned me mind, body, and soul.