Chapter 30
NOAH
Iwasn’t proud of the sound that escaped my throat.
I fucking whimpered.
“God, Em,” I said, voice shaking as I whipped my shirt off lightning speed. I had never removed my clothes faster in my life. “The thought of feeling you all wet and slippery against me? That’s a fantasy.”
“Y-you’ve thought about me like this?”
“Wet and in the tub?” My voice deepened. “Hell fucking yes.”
Naked, hard as hell, I slid into the tub and pulled her back toward my chest, so there was no distance between us.
Steam filled the air with the sweet scent of the bubble bath I bought—I’d asked Sloane for suggestions, and she nailed it—and the heat from the water combined with Em’s skin was enough to kill me.
I ran my nose along her damp neck, inhaling her delicious scent and tasting her skin. “I didn’t plan for this, by the way. This was all for you. Feels important that you know that. My intentions were very, very pure. Swear it.”
“Noah,” she moaned, nestling deeper against me. My cock dug into her back, and I tried, hard, not to think about how close I was to sliding inside her. Just an inch closer…
“Yeah, baby?” I felt drugged. High on her. I slid my hands down her sides, over her hips, up and over her breasts and beaded nipples. I couldn’t stop touching her, feeling her. I was addicted to her, plain and simple.
“This is the most romantic thing anyone has ever done for me.”
“Mm, well, that gives me motivation to do more. I’m competitive, you know, even with myself. I want to beat every other memory you have.”
She chuckled, but the sound morphed into a moan when my hand dipped between her legs. “Oh, oh.”
“Can I touch you there?” I paused, ensuring she wanted this too. “Because I can massage you. Nothing else. That was my plan.”
“Touch me, please.”
Thank god.
I grinned against her neck, letting my fingers explore between her thighs and tease her. “Have you thought about me touching you like this?”
“Noah, yes, oh my god.”
“Mmm.” I pinched her clit, then massaged it and repeated the process. “Fuck, I love you like this. So trusting. So open. So mine. Do you want me to make you come, Em? Would that feel good?”
“Uh huh, yes.” She squirmed on top of me, her hands flying out to grip my thighs. She mewed, a sexy throaty sound. “I’m so… I need…”
“I know what you need, honey.” I tugged her earlobe between my teeth as I slid two fingers inside her. “Let me take care of you here. Relax and let go.”
She nodded against me, her whole body wet and slick moving against me as I pleasured her. She was tight, on edge. Her body was so tense, and I knew she was close, but I wanted to drag this out. I wanted her to come hard and long, so I drew it out.
I’d bring her close, then slow down.
“You’re so beautiful like this, Em, so perfect. So wet.”
“Please, Noah. Please, please, please.”
“You beg so well. God, new fantasy for me. You begging for me.” I nipped her collarbone as I finally brought her to orgasm. Her pleasure didn’t take long. I thrust a finger into her and used my thumb on her swollen clit. “Come for me, pretty girl.”
“Ohmygod.”
She thrashed in the water, the sound splashing and sloshy as she trembled around my hand.
Her moans grew and echoed around the tile as she came hard and long.
She kept shaking and groaning, and I refused to stop.
My arm cramped, but she was releasing a week of stress, and I was the lucky bastard who got to help her. The only bastard who could help her.
“Fuck, you’re hot when you come,” I grumbled, my lips brushing her neck.
She laughed, half sobbed, and sank into me when she stopped, and I removed my fingers and spun her around so she faced me. Her eyes were half closed, her lips parted, her cheeks flushed. But damn. I loved the hell out of this woman.
“Oh my god, Noah. That was crazy. I’ve never… that was so long.”
“I know.” I grinned, moaning when she rocked against my erection. My vision blackened with how good that brush felt. I tensed. “Shit.”
Em did it again, a naughty look on her face as she rubbed herself on my cock. Her eyes lit up as she sat up straighter. Her eyes were wild, her cheeks pretty with a pink blush, but she smiled a wicked, naughty grin. “You look a little tense, Noah.”
“Yeah, well I have this super-hot woman on my cock right now. And I’m trying to be a good guy.”
“Noah, you are the best guy in the world.” She frowned, ran a hand over my hair, and massaged my head. I leaned into her touch, a weak puppy desperate for her touch.
I was pretty sure I growled.
“You are… I don’t have words for how much I care about you. How amazing you are. How selfless you are.”
Her words reached into my soul and wrapped around me, but my flags went off. No this is about her. About Em. I cleared my throat and used every ounce of strength I had to focus on her.
“Em, tonight is about you, not me.”
“Yeah, but I want to touch you, so let me.”
I grinned. “Okay, kinda hot when you’re bossy with me.”
She smiled back and ground on me again. “I want to feel you, Noah. Inside me. I need to feel you stretch me, and I want this. Please?”
I froze.
I was trying to go slow. Not rush. But this felt big. “Em—“
“Please don’t. If you’re not into me, then I understand but I can feel how much you want me, want this, Noah. I love yo—being with you. I want this.”
I wanted nothing more than to sink into her and finally feel her, but I wanted her to be sure. And, not in a tub. “Em, honey, we can slow down.”
“I don’t want to slow down.” Her tone got testy. “I want you. I’m in this with you. Why wait?”
“Because I can’t fuck this up with you. I can’t lose you. I can’t risk it at the fuck all, and if having sex with you could potentially do that? No, I won’t.” Didn’t she understand that? I wanted this forever. I wanted all of her.
“Noah,” she said, her voice soft and intimate. “I’m in this with you. Nothing will fuck this up. It’s you and me, okay?”
My heart pounded against my rib cage, the painful thuds growing stronger and stronger. I wanted her more than my next breath, but fear paralyzed me. I had my dream girl, naked, wanting me, and I froze.
“Noah,” she said again, moving so her face was right in front of me. “You’re in your head, and trust me, I know the feeling. I’m often in mine. But what I’m clear about is you. Miles. Us. Now, I’m gonna kiss you, okay?”
I nodded. The second her lips met mine, everything quieted.
Not the world—my head.
The fear didn’t disappear, but it softened, like it finally understood it wasn’t in charge anymore. Her mouth moved against mine with a certainty that felt earned, not rushed, and I kissed her back slowly, tasting and feeling and sinking into her.
She slid her hand up my shoulders, kneading and digging into me. Her breath hitched when I deepened the kiss enough to respond back. Yes, baby, let’s do this.
I pulled back only far enough to rest my forehead against hers, my thumbs brushing her cheeks. She didn’t chase the kiss. She waited.
“You and me, yeah?” I said quietly, the words settling into the space between us like a promise.
Her eyes searched mine, vulnerable and brave all at once. “I know,” she whispered. “That’s why I want you. I’m not going anywhere, okay?”
I kissed her again, softer this time. Slower. The kind of kiss that says I see you instead of I need you. Her lips curved into a small smile against mine, and she laughed under her breath, that familiar sound that had been undoing me since college. “I might be in love with you, Noah.”
I froze, meeting her eyes and feeling the weight pressing down on my chest. Her words lit me up, soothing every leftover wound I’d gained throughout the years.
She loved me. Words I yearned for years.
I exhaled shakily and pressed my mouth to her temple, then her cheek, then back to her lips, lingering there like I was committing the moment to muscle memory.
“Em, honey, I’ve loved you for a long time.
No might about it. I’m foolishly in love with you. ”
She smiled at that, eyes shining, and leaned into me like it was the easiest thing in the world. Like this was where she’d always belonged. “Then show me. Love me. Be with me.”
How could I say no to that?
I stood, carrying her with me as I stepped out of the tub and carried her to the bed.
I set her on the edge and kissed her hard.
In every dream or fantasy I had about sleeping with Em, she never looked at me like this.
With this much love and adoration. The reality of being with Em surpassed every dream scenario by a long shot.
That made my hands shake as I crawled over her. I kissed her neck, over her chest, and tugged her perfect pink nipple into my mouth. “You like this?”
“God, yes.” She dug her fingers into my back, thrusting up like she wanted me closer. “When you do it, everything tingles.”
“Ride those tingles out, Em,” I whispered, taking my time on her nipples.
They were so pert and hard, and her breasts were the perfect size for me.
They fit my hands so well, and I cupped them, staring down at her as lust overtook me.
“The first time needs to be fast. I’m dying from looking at you. The next round will be slower, okay?”
She grinned, her eyes lighting up. “Like what you see, Noah?”
“Don’t give me that mouth right now, I won’t survive it.”
“No mouth?” The little minx sat up, nudging my chest with her hand. She couldn’t actually move me, but I let her move me so I fell onto my back.
“What are you—what. The. Fuck.”
She took me in her mouth, sucking me so hard I hit the back of her throat, and I knew, for the rest of my life, I’d never feel better than this moment. My eyes rolled into my head. My heart stopped beating. My skin buzzed from pleasure as she sucked me hard. I couldn’t think. I couldn’t function.
I just felt.
My woman.
“Mmgod.”
She giggled at my absurd sound, but holy shit. My thighs tensed, and my balls tightened as she was unrelenting in her pace. “Em, stop.”
“Oh, you don’t like?”
“I’m seeing colors I didn’t know exist, but baby, I want to feel you. We can—I hope—no, I beg, do that again. Soon. So soon.”
“Noah Abbott, you’re blushing and stuttering. Are you okay?” She grinned and crawled up my body, her body flushed and lips swollen.
“I’m obsessed with you, now, slide onto me, please. Let me feel you before I lose my fucking mind.”
She finally listened and slowly slid over my cock, pausing when I was at her entrance. “I don’t need protection if you’re okay with it, Noah.”
“I don’t either. Tested start of season.”
“Then, I want to feel everything.” She took me inside her, and I saw stars.
True stars. She rolled those hips, taking me deeper as I gripped her waist and watched.
I admired the way her nipples beaded and her breasts bounced.
Her hair curled around her temple, and sweat pooled over her chest, and fuck, this woman was unreal. “Shit, Noah, you feel good.”
“You. Angel.” I groaned as she leaned forward and kissed me. “Fuck.”
“I like you like this, putty for me.”
“Always for you,” I whispered, then kissed her hard. I let her set the pace for a bit, but then I couldn’t take it. Every part of my body overheated, and if I didn’t come, I would lose a limb. It was gonna happen. “Baby?”
“Yes?” She smiled against my teeth.
“I need to fuck you hard. Can I?”
“Yes.”
That was all it took. I flipped us over, put her legs around my shoulders, and thrust into her hard and fast. I couldn’t stop.
She clenched around me, and I reached down to pinch her clit, guiding her and coaxing her into another orgasm, but time and space lost all meaning as the orgasm built.
She moaned my name, and hearing her say Noah in her breathy pleasure-filled voice… it set me off.
“Yes, fuck, yes baby!”
I gripped her calf hard, biting into her skin as I came harder than I had in my entire life.
Her pussy tightened around my cock, clenching and spasming as she came too, holding my gaze, and I shuddered.
My ears rang, and my heart was erratic, and sweat was everywhere, and we smelled like soap and sex, and I had never been happier in my life.
“Wow, wow, just wow.” I fell onto my back, reaching down and intertwining our pinkies.
“Would add more, but you summarized it pretty well. Just wow.”
“Might pass out.”
“Same,” she said, laughter in her voice. “So much for round two.”
“Do not start with me.” I snorted, shaking my head as my entire body trembled from the post-orgasm. “Give me ten minutes. We need to hydrate too. Maybe even stretch for what I wanna do with you.”
“Goodness, Noah.” She laughed harder now.
“Not kidding. Best sex of my fucking life, and I want more.” I pushed up onto my arms, stared down at her, and kissed her shoulder. “Hey, real talk. You okay?”
“Better than okay.” She rolled on her side too, her smile matching mine. “Never had that kinda sex with someone I loved before.”
Ah, fuck yeah.
“And that was our first time. Just think how much fun we can have.” I kissed her nose, then said, “And I need you to say you love me like ten more times. I like it.”
“Goofy.” She rolled her eyes, but I picked her up and carried her to the bathroom. “What are you—hey!”
“Clean up, then round two. I’ll grab waters.”
I wasn’t kidding. I was gonna shower that woman with pleasure and tell her I loved her a million times tonight. She was my dream woman and making my dreams come true. Nothing could ruin this for me. Nothing.