6. Evan
6
EVAN
I pulled Amber back to me. I hadn’t intended to scare her, not even a little. This dinner was supposed to be a bridge between the awkward interaction we’d had earlier in the day to an agreement between us to put the past aside in honor of Jacob. But her hand trembled in my grasp, and I could see the tears streaking down her cheeks.
“Hey,” I said softly. I pinched her chin and forced her to look up at me. Still, she avoided eye contact with me. “What’s wrong?”
Her lack of response spoke volumes, but not as loudly as the way her hand rested on my hand that was cupping her cheek. She leaned into my touch and sniffled, and I used my thumb to brush a few tears off her cheekbone. The touch was innocent enough, but the hunger in her eyes as she looked up at me through her eyelashes was anything but. My fingers curled more tightly around the back of her neck and we stayed deadlocked like that, staring into each other’s eyes for a moment.
It was like nothing had changed, like the last time I kissed her was only yesterday and the fire and passion between us was still thriving. My eyes bounced between hers, watching as she licked a tear off her lower lip. I couldn’t avoid watching her actions. I was mesmerized by how strongly I felt toward her.
“May I kiss you again?” I asked, but Amber didn’t respond in words.
Instead, she sucked in a breath and stepped closer to me, tipping her head up under mine as she pressed another kiss to my lips that ignited an inferno inside me. We were alone. The offices were empty and dark. My other hand slid around her waist and pulled her against my body where my swelling dick pressed on her thigh. She whimpered, but she didn’t pull away. Her hands rose up around my shoulders and locked behind my head.
The kiss deepened as she parted her lips for me. My body was on fire. It’d been so long since I did something so risky. Jacob had always lectured me, which made this feel doubly wrong and doubly enticing. My hands were greedy, groping her as I backed her toward the desk. She didn’t resist me either. She started undressing me as we moved. Her hands worked my tie, then the buttons on my dress shirt.
“My God, you’re just as sexy as the last time I saw you.” I didn’t mention the day I left. I knew it would conjure bad feelings for both of us. Getting on that plane felt so wrong, but I thought it was the right thing. Now I knew it wasn’t. I’d made a mistake.
“You’ve gotten older…” Her lips turned upward in a grin as she backed away with both sides of my tie in her hands. She pulled me along with her until her hips pressed against the desk. “I like that smoldering look you have now. Salt and pepper suits you.”
“You’re stalling,” I growled low in my throat. “Don’t think I didn’t notice you undressing me with your eyes the moment I walked in.”
Amber bit her lower lip, her eyelashes batting seductively. “And here I thought I was being so subtle,” she teased.
There it was. The spark I remembered about her. I kissed her jawline, finding a tear, then took time kissing and licking up her tears until our mouths met again. She guided my hands to the hem of her skirt, which I inched upward as she shed her suit jacket. There was no more tugging of its hem. She was relaxed—putty in my hands now.
I pushed her hips upward and back, so she was perched on the edge of the desk with her skirt up around her waist. Her panties were damp with arousal, but I focused on her blouse first, undoing one button at a time. I couldn’t get enough of either. My lips trailed down her neck, over the curve of her collarbone, to the swell of her breast that spilled out of her bra. I cupped her breast, marveling at its heaviness in my hand as I circled her nipple with my thumb.
“Oh God,” Amber moaned, her back arching as I tugged on her nipple through the lace material.
I looked up at her. Her eyes were still closed, but her body was begging me for more. I gave in to the temptation, hooking my fingers in her panties and sliding them down her legs, along with her heels. Her bare thighs were silky smooth against my slacks as I parted her folds and delved a finger inside of her. Hot, wet, and so tight, Amber’s walls clenched around me. She was always like this for me—impossibly wet.
“Oh God,” she moaned again, rocking against my hand. When her hand reached for my wrist, I clicked my tongue.
“Ah, ah…Now you know what I like. Don’t toy with me, Ms. Lawson.” My gentle chiding made her lips curl into a smile but her head still remained arched back, hair starting to fall from its bun. “Besides, I don’t want you to come too soon…”
Amber’s eyes snapped open, and she looked at me with passion so intense it almost singed my very soul. “You always did know how to draw things out, didn’t you?”
I smirked. “You never complained before tonight.”
She bit her lip again; I couldn’t help but lean in and suck the pain away. “No,” she breathed, her hips moving against my hand. “But you left me high and dry that one time, remember?”
“And I’ve been kicking myself ever since. But let me make it up to you, Amber,” I said against her ear, my voice a low growl. I’d never forgive myself for that. I could try to make up for it though.
The way she worried her lip between her teeth drove me wild. I kneaded a breast while she opened the fly of my pants and pulled my dick out. I was rock-hard and ready. Her hand was magic, stroking me and pulling precum to the surface. The kiss we shared was scorching, branding her taste on my lips until I kissed downward again, taking control.
Amber hissed and moaned as I nipped at her skin, lower and lower until I was on my knees between her legs pulling her with both hands to the edge of the desk.
“God, so much moisture,” I murmured. “I’ve missed this. You have no idea how much I’ve missed the way you taste.”
Her scent, her flavor, they were all perfect; I couldn’t get enough. My tongue lapped at her folds, teasing and tormenting her until she was a quivering mess on the desk. Her hands were in my hair, guiding me where she wanted me to go. I obliged her, sucking on her clit until her thighs squeezed my head.
“Oh God, yes,” she moaned. “Right there…like that…”
My tongue flicked over her swollen bud and Amber came apart in my mouth the instant I slid my fingers back into her. The way her body spasmed around me was enough to make me come right there, but I didn’t want our reunion to end so soon. I was going to make it last as long as humanly possible. I continued to suck as she writhed and clawed at my head. My dick throbbed and ached to be inside her, and when her spasms subsided, I slowly rose to a standing position before wiping my mouth clean with the back of my hand.
Amber’s head hung back, most of her hair now loose from the bun, and I bit her neck, making her grunt again. I didn’t ask permission. We were way past that. I grabbed my dick with one hand and rubbed it up and down her folds. The way she spread her legs for me was permission enough. I slid in slowly, inch by inch, and she groaned long and low as I buried myself to the hilt.
“Oh God, this is incredible,” I growled deep from my chest. Her hand reached up to pull my mouth toward hers for another kiss. I could still taste her on my lips, and then on her tongue the longer we kissed. One hand stayed on her hip while the other wrapped around the fleshy globe of her breast.
I withdrew almost all the way before sliding back in again, my hips rocking against hers. Amber’s nails bit into the back of my neck as she clawed at me, her breaths coming in pants now. I began thrusting slowly at first, savoring the feeling of her slick heat against my skin. It’d been too long. Her pussy clenched down around my dick again, making the sensations even more intense. It encouraged me to keep going.
And when her hand squeezed between us, rubbing her clit, I knew she was chasing another orgasm. My hips dipped and angled, so I could find the right spot to please her. She whimpered and kissed me harder, her breath coming in thready pulses.
“Higher…” she panted, so I rocked my hips up and kept thrusting. “Yes…there…More.”
It was one thing I loved about her. That she could communicate exactly what she wanted. It made my job easy. Though, tonight it was challenging me to my core. I wanted to blow, but she wanted more.
“This?” I curved my body over hers, my thrusts becoming shorter but more deliberate as she whimpered beneath me.
“So close,” she squeaked.
The sound made my focus intensify, every muscle in my body tensing with pleasure. Her body was so tight and responsive, and I could feel her nearing the edge. When her eyes shot open and met mine, I knew it was time. Her jaw dropped open, a soft gasp escaping her lips as her pussy clenched around me once again. This time, it was my cock pulling the sweet release from her.
Her head arched down towards mine, her eyes rolling back before closing in ecstasy. Her trembling body pressed against mine, one hand gripping my wrist tightly while the other held onto my neck. The waves of pleasure seemed to last longer this time, and I savored every moment until her lips found mine again, kissing me with a slow and sultry warmth that seeped into my chest.
“Turn over,” I told her, my voice laced with desire. The anticipation of seeing her toned, round ass in the air was almost too much to handle. Amber eagerly complied, sliding off the desk and positioning herself as I had directed. Her body was a perfect canvas for me to explore, and she seemed more than willing to do whatever I desired. As she looked at me over her shoulder, one hand reached back and spread herself open for me.
“Like this?” she asked, a hint of excitement in her voice. My already hard member twitched at the sight of her submission and I gave her a knowing smirk. She knew exactly how to push my buttons.
“Perfect,” I replied with a low growl.
With her holes on display, I stepped back toward her. I didn’t get to grab her tits anymore, but I slid in easily. I grabbed her hips and leaned forward, resting my weight on my forearms. Amber’s hair draped over the desk, and she was a vision.
“I missed you,” I breathed in her ear, and then I began to move again, this time faster and harder than before. She met every thrust with a moan or a whimper. The desk inched forward with the force of my thrusts and Amber’s knuckles were white as she gripped its edge.
“Yes, God yes…” she panted. Just thinking of all the times I’d had her like this only pushed more buttons. The memories flooded back, times we snuck around, had flings at Jake’s house or her father’s.
We’d always been like this—frenzied and animalistic when together. The chemistry between us didn’t allow us to be anything but. She made the beast come out in me.
“Oh God, I’m…” she panted again, but I couldn’t stop. Not until I was done.
When I felt the telltale signs of my orgasm approaching, I reached around and pinched her clit. Amber came apart beneath me, her pussy contracting around my dick while she screamed out her release. It was all I needed to tip over the edge with her.
She shuddered and gasped as I pumped my load into her until I felt it gushing out around me and draining down her thighs. It slicked the friction between us, and her tight clenching loosened. I slowly backed away, careful not to get it on my pants, and she lay draped over the desk for a moment.
My dick proudly stood on end, glistening with her juices as I picked up a napkin from the takeout on the table and wiped myself clean. When I was zipping up, she straightened and I handed her a napkin too. Her hair was mussed, sticking up at odd angles, but her face was drenched in pleasure.
Rosy cheeks, ruby lips—not from lipstick—and a lust haze over her eyes greeted me as I leaned in to kiss her again. “Mmm, I missed you,” I whispered, and I meant it. I missed everything about her, not just the sex. I pulled her in close to me and held her there.
“Evan,” she started to protest, but I placed a kiss on her forehead and she stopped resisting me. Her body was still tense, but her words stopped. I knew it was probably a shock to her—it shocked me how strongly I still felt for her too.
“I’m not sure how we’d make something work since I’ll be your boss, but I missed this. It’s probably a really bad idea to just jump into something right now…You know, with Jacob.”
My lips found hers again in another steamy kiss. Amber was putty, melding against my body with a trembling hand holding unused napkins. My cum was draining down her thighs and I grinned at the thought that I’d just claimed her again. The chemistry, the spontaneity, the way she made me feel…I wanted more of it.
Amber pressed her hand against my chest and pushed me back gently. “You’re in shock, Evan. Your brother almost died. You’re reeling…You’ll feel different in a few days.” She backed away, buttoning her shirt up. Then she snagged her jacket off the floor and glanced at me nervously. Her eyes flicked around the room and confusion clouded over my eyes. I stooped to pick up her panties and before I could put them in my pocket she snatched them from me.
“Is that what you did?”
The words left my mouth before I could stop them. Pain washed over her expression, curling her lips downward. “What do you mean?” She worked to put on her shoes as I continued.
“You were in shock over your dad dying? Then you just used me and moved on…” I was a total jerk for saying it. Maybe she was right. maybe I was just in shock over all of this, but what I just did with her now—I wouldn’t snap out of it. It was spontaneous, but it wasn’t like I hadn’t thought of doing that a thousand times over the past eight years. Coming back and claiming her as mine.
“Evan,” she said, her tone low.
“When you came to yourself, you realized you didn’t like me and just moved on…” The words kept coming. Things I wondered for a long time but never said out loud. I was never given the chance, and I never made a chance to even say them either.
“I’m going to the bathroom to clean up.” Amber’s head hung as she walked out, and I knew I’d hurt her. Part of me probably wanted to. I’d felt hurt when I learned she had a baby with someone else, so soon after I left too. But most of me hated myself. It wasn’t supposed to go that way.
I slowly buttoned my shirt and put my tie back on. The shirt tails remained hanging, but I was only going to do a bit more work then go home anyway. Until my phone started to ring. When I saw it was Erin I picked up right away.
“Erin?” I’d been waiting on news all day but hadn’t gotten the call.
“Evan, he’s awake. He’s asking for you. I told him about the board’s decision and he demanded that you come to him now.” She sounded a little flustered. I knew how my brother could be.
“I’ll be right there. Give him a popsicle or something,” I joked but it landed poorly. Erin sighed and hung up, and I turned to see Amber walk back in.
“I have to go. Jake’s awake. He’s asked for me.” I looked down at the mess from dinner, rice all over the floor from where Amber dumped it.
“I’ll clean up. You go.” She looked a little discouraged, which was encouraging to me. But after insulting her like that I figured she would want to talk it out, and right now I didn’t have time. I had to get to the hospital to see Jacob before he went back to sleep.
“Can you lock up?” I reached for my suit jacket and she scoffed.
“Can you trust me?” The comment stung but I deserved it.
“See you tomorrow…We can catch up then.”
And by “catch up,” I meant work and us. We had things to discuss.
I left her there to clean up our mess, and I felt bad about it. The entire drive to the hospital I replayed the entire evening. Both of us were sexually charged before we even walked into that room. She seemed hesitant at first but then gave herself to me freely, which told me she hadn’t ever truly gotten over me either. That or she was just a minx, which I didn’t believe for a second. Whatever the case, I enjoyed every second of it and fully intended to pursue something as long as she didn’t give me signals that she wasn’t interested.
At the hospital, Erin was waiting just outside Jacob’s room. She’d been crying again. It was normal for her in moments like this. I brought a pack of travel tissues, but she had her own.
“How is he?” I asked, and she shrugged.
“He’s alright. Now that he’s awake, doctors are giving him really good odds of a full recovery. He’s in a lot of pain though.” Her sad smile was bittersweet, but her news was excellent.
“I’ll go in then…Do you want to come?” I waited but she waved me away. I figured she needed a moment. Most people hated hospitals and I was the same, but I had to be here for her and Jacob.
He was a pitiful sight. There were tubes and wires coming out from every orifice, and more from newly made holes thanks to nurses. A huge panel of screens behind him gave readouts of his vitals, but it was the expression on his face that gave me the best indicator of his overall condition. A glare.
“What on God’s green earth, Evan?” Jacob’s eyes flashed with anger I knew he felt to his core. I walked over to his bedside and stood with arms crossed. I was cold, so tucking my hands into my armpits wasn’t a nervous move. I’d left my trench coat in the office in my huff and urge to get here.
“Are you asking me that because it’s October and I’m not wearing a coat? Or because you can’t stand the idea that the board voted me in as CEO while you’re down for the count?” Things had always been tense between us. Jacob thought I was reckless and irresponsible. So had our father. At one point I was. But I’d done a lot of growing up. I had Amber to thank for that.
“You just swoop in and?—”
“Relax,” I told him. I took another step closer and loosened my tie. “First of all, you need to focus on recovering. You almost died. You can’t worry about the company. Second of all, the board members, including Gavin, all voted me to be interim CEO, just until you’re back on your feet. I have help, Jake. Gavin and the team are there; I’m not making any major decisions. And I have Amber…”
My dick still tingled from that hot sex, and mentioning her name made my chest puff out a little. I really hadn’t expected the night to go that direction. It had though, and I couldn’t get it out of my head.
“Don’t you dare hurt her, Evan.” Jacob’s stern warning made me confused. His face contorted, eyes shutting as he winced, and his hand pressed on his chest. My eyes shot up to his monitors where I saw his heart rate was too high, blood pressure too.
“Try to take a deep breath and calm down, buddy.” I reached down and touched his arm and he pushed me away.
“Ut…most…respect,” he gritted out. Then he continued. “You respect her…Chester asked me to care for her like my own.” I could tell he was worked up and the alarm on his heart monitor started sounding.
“Alright, Jake. No problem.” I squeezed his arm. “I’ll take care of her. Don’t you worry. She’s well taken care of.”
I barely got the words out before nurses were rushing back in. Erin appeared at the doorway and I stepped back from the bed. I had no idea why speaking of Amber made him get so nervous. I realized he hated the idea of me being in charge, and that was no one’s fault but my own. I had to prove myself worthy before he trusted me. But this was next-level. Why on earth would he be so worked up about me and how I treated Amber?
He was so adamant too, and it made his blood pressure and heart rate spike. This was something deeply personal. As I backed away, I started to wonder what sort of secret Jacob was keeping.
“Is he okay? What’s happening?” Erin rushed to his side and my mind whirred faster.
Was Jacob having an affair with her? Was that why? He was keeping this from Erin?
I remembered the gift—for Amber’s kid. Jacob bought her child a gift too…And Erin had made sure to send it with me. Did she know?
I walked into the hallway feeling even more confused and conflicted. If Jacob was sleeping with Amber, why had she slept with me? Did that mean her child was my brother’s child?
This was too much.
I needed air.