Chapter 38
CHAPTER 38
CLOVER
A fter ice skating, Apollo takes me out to lunch at a small Chinese food restaurant. He says since it’s an off day he can eat a little bit bad.
I had never had Chinese food before and he had gotten so excited that he ordered way too much, insisting he get to feed me bites of different things. After Vaughn explained how Alpha’s like to care for their Omega it made it easier for me to accept moments like this. I enjoy having Apollo feed me and don’t question if he enjoys it too.
We walk around downtown after eating, enjoying the brisk October weather as we stroll. His hand is holding mind and our arms are flush as we move together. His strides are shorter so that he doesn’t drag me besides him. Apollo walks closer to the street, always intent on keeping me safe.
I feel safe like this, cared for in a way that I haven’t felt before.
There is a calmness when I’m with Apollo. I know that he will watch over me and be in a safe space. I appreciate the way he makes me feel steady.
“Halloween is coming up. Do you want to get dressed up?” Apollo rubs his thumb over my knuckles as we walk.
I think about his question. I never really dressed up for Halloween before. Halloween wasn’t celebrated where I’m from and it was considered bad to dress up in costumes. It wasn’t something frivolous that Beta’s wasted their time on. Good church folks didn’t do devil holidays.
Part of me wants to talk about that. How it’s not something that was allowed. Another part of me wonders if he is trying to see if I’m a good girl or if I’m part of the bad crowd.
“I’ve never dressed up before.” I start with that. They all know more about my past life now. Understand just how different living in the religious Beta community was., “It could be fun. Do you just dress up to give kids candy?” He smiles at me, hand bringing mine to his lips to give it a kiss.
“We can do whatever you want. Griffin takes Halloween very seriously and likes to go all out. I’m sure if you want to stay home and have a movie marathon we can do that as well.” I nod my head, “I also want to talk to you about tonight.”
I knew that Apollo was going to want to talk about it. My Alpha loves to have a plan.
He moves to help me into the car, lifting me up, and buckling my seatbelt. I catch him before he can move, bringing our mouths together in a soft kiss.
I could kiss these men everyday and it still wouldn’t be enough.
“Hey cherub,” His lips kissed the corner of my mouth, “God, you make me want to take you home and do-”
“Apollo Mathers!” He blocks me with his body, turning behind to look at the teenagers. They’re bouncing, eyes wide as they take him in, “I told you it was him.” The smaller boy says with an excited rush.
“Go, they want to meet you.” He rubs his hand over my face before he shuts the door and heads over to the kids.
Some people may get mad having their time interrupted like that. Not me. I like that Apollo is a hero to kids. It makes me feel like he will be a good role model for our pups some day.
The idea of having kids with them makes my heart beat wildly. A sense of rightness washing over me.
I’ve always wanted to be a mother. To some people it can seem like a small dream. To me it was what I held onto. I want to give the love that I had always dreamed of getting. The idea of holding a baby in my arms, kissing their little fingers during bath time or rocking them to sleep is something that gives me hope.
Why can’t someone just want to be a parent now? Why is that dream not considered worthwhile? I always talk about opening my own clothing shop because I think that’s what people want to hear from me.
But I’d be much happier making clothes for my own pups.
I want all the babies. Maybe five or six. Lots of little ones to love and snuggle.
Maybe I could take them to all the games. The suite was so nice at Apollo’s game. If they get drafted with a pack deal I can travel with them. I would have the support of the guys as we travel. I could make friends with other wives and girlfriends too.
We could have babies.
“Oh fuck, what are you thinking about, cherub? Your scent right now is heaven.” I look at Apollo who just slid into the car. The teenage boys have dispensed and he looks calmer.
Sliding off his hat, he puts it on backwards, and my eyes widen. What black magic had he just performed? He had done one simple motion and managed to get hotter.
“I was thinking of having your babies. Lots of babies actually. We could have our own hockey team. Pretty blonde babies that will be able to reach the top shelf. Maybe a little girl with McKinley’s dark eyes. Oh, another little girl who is mischievous and naughty like Griffin. A little boy who would be attached at my hip and smiles like Vaughn. A set of twins who look like you and who wear jerseys with Daddy on the back.”
Apollo’s eyes are wide, looking at me half dazed before he turns, grabbing the steering wheel.
“We need to get home.”
“Are you mad?”
“No. I just came in my pants.”
Sure enough there is a dark spot on his sweatpants. I can smell him filling up the space and feel my cheeks brightening.
I guess he likes the idea of having babies too.
I’m sitting beside Apollo at the game. My heart is thundering in my chest as I watch the final seconds tick off the clock. I know when the game ends, we’re going to meet the rest of the pack and head home where I’ll lose my virginity.
Apollo and I had talked about it when we got back this afternoon. After he had showered and changed, we watched trashy reality TV and talked about how tonight would go.
It would be Mickey that would be the one to actually take my virginity. They thought since he couldn’t knot me that it would be for the best. Mick was also most likely to be the most gentle and Apollo could use his Alpha bark if things got out of hand.
We would be able to do other things, touch and kiss. We also talked about how I might be sore the next day and it was important to be honest with them so they knew how to take care of me. It would be an off day for everyone before Monday started the craziness of life again.
Part of me was nervous about how this would go, but more than anything I was excited to share this with all of them.
I also sort of felt like Pack Mathers was going to be my forever. The connection that we all shared was special.
A horn blared, making me jump. Apollo’s arm wrapped around me, hugging me against him as he gave me a look.
“Are you okay, Clover? We can head home if you want?” I shook my head at him. “Okay, let’s let the stands clear out for a minute before we head down to congratulate the guys.”
They had won the game 4-1. I knew that the one goal was going to make Mick mad all night. He hated letting it in and would want to review game tape so he could see how it had happened.
I was getting used to seeing how they worked. How they would spend their time trying to learn about a game that I thought they had already mastered.
It was nice how they all bonded over the game. Sharing their thoughts and working to make each other better. I also liked how they shared a goal to make it pro together. They wanted it for each other as much as they wanted it for themselves.
“Ready?” Apollo was standing, holding out his hand as he helped me stand. He was guiding me through the aisles.
The crowd was thick with people. Everyone chatting over each other as they commented which party they would be heading to.
Everyone was loud and excited. We got sucked up into it as we headed towards the locker room and I liked that it felt like we were almost anonymous as we walked together.
Apollo shifted me under his arm, pulling me into his side. I reached up, lacing our fingers together as we bumped along.
He was so much bigger than the others around us. I didn’t know how last year he was one of them. Apollo seemed so much older than a college kid. He held himself more seriously and with this stoic way. His eyes taking everything in and, even at ease, he was on alert.
We took a turn and I gasped as Apollo pulled me into a small cove, his body pressing against mine. His lips touched mine in a powerful kiss. One hand on my hip to keep me steady as he opened my mouth with his tongue, tasting me.
It was all consuming as he owned me.
“I’ve been wanting to kiss you all night. I couldn’t wait a second longer.” He rested his forehead against mine, catching his breath as we breathed each other in.
“Feel free to kiss me anytime.”
Apollo chuckled as he grabbed my hand again and led me down the stairs to where we would wait for everyone else.
My eyes were closed as I laid against the stone wall, humming to myself as I tried to stay calm about everything. We would be going home soon.
Would we head straight up to my bed? Or would we watch a movie? Would they be hungry? Would we go to my nest instead?
I think I wanted to be in my bed for it and maybe after we could move to my nest so that it would be more comfortable for everyone to sleep in.
Under my clothes I was wearing new lingerie I had bought on my shopping trip with Mama Joy. There was something about wearing pretty underwear that made me feel more confident. It made me feel ready for this next step.
“You’re in my jersey.” Griffin was lifting me up on a hug, his hands under my ass to hold me against him as his nose ran up my neck to breathe me in, “Are you going to wear my number as our Beta slides inside that hot cunt of yours, Omega?” Griffin nipped at my neck and I couldn’t hold in the soft moan that slipped out.
“Not here.” Apollo was looking around, crowding us like that would give us some more privacy.
Griffin just smiled, looking over to where Vaughn and Mick were coming out of the locker room. Once he saw they were out he turned, moving towards the door.
“I want to eat you until you’re good and ready for him to slip inside of you. I want your slick gushing down my face. I’ll get your body ready for him, baby weed. We’ll all take care of you.” Griffin was cooing promises in my ear in a seductive whisper. The way he whispered his thoughts like a conscious stream, nipping and sucking my lobe between words had me already dripping slick.
I was more than ready for them.