Chapter 12 #2
“Do I love you?” I touched my chest. “Is that what this is?”
“I can’t feel for you, Lottie. So I don’t know.”
I rubbed at my forehead as I battled with myself not to overthink. I needed to just bleed it all out like I did when I drew. Just bleed it out.
For however long I stood there, he was silent. Patient. Waiting.
“I kept waiting for it to get easier to be without you,” I finally said.
“I thought that if it did, I could walk away if I needed to.” I met his eyes.
“I thought that there was still time to change how we feel about each other. But every minute this past week has felt agonizingly longer because I’ve missed you so fucking much.
It’s as if I can’t exist anymore without you.
Is that what love is? Feeling incomplete when you’re not with me?
” I brought both of my hands to my chest and held them there.
“Is that what this is, Roe? Because if it is, I love you and it’s too late for me to walk away. ”
Before I finished speaking, he closed the space between us in three large strides, took me in his arms, and slammed his mouth onto mine. He held me as he poured everything he felt into the way he kissed me, and I could feel it all. I was important, special, wanted, all of it, and his.
Like Reid had earlier, he grabbed me by the backs of my thighs. Without breaking our kiss, he carried me to his room. Holding me with one arm under my butt, he closed and locked his door. Slowly, he lowered me to my feet by his bed. Only then did he finally break away.
“No interviews today, Mr. Walker,” I said as I reached for the bottom of my shirt and pulled it off.
He grabbed my bare waist and brought my chest against his. His hand cupped my cheek as his thumb stroked just below my bottom lip. “What are your expectations of me, Ms. Kendry?”
“Show me you love me,” I answered as I slipped my fingertips into the waistbands of his sweatpants and boxers and pushed them down slowly. His cock sprang free and hit my belly as they fell around his ankles. Gazing into his eyes, I trailed my fingers up the sides of his thighs and his hips.
“I can do that,” he said just before kissing me sweetly.
Then his lips trailed down my neck. He pushed back my hair and placed a kiss on my shoulder.
He began kneeling slowly, his mouth moving over my skin as he descended.
As he reached my nipple, his tongue flicked out for a taste, making me suck in a quick breath.
He knelt the rest of the way from there, pulling my pants down as he went.
The loose fabric pooled around my feet. He stared up at me as his hands slid around the backs of my knees and traveled up.
I held my breath when his gaze dropped to my pussy just before he leaned in.
His mouth felt warm against my skin and his tongue even warmer as it slid over my clit.
I reached down to grip his soft charcoal-black hair.
He licked me again and again, making me push up to my tiptoes.
After satisfying himself with just tasting me, he stood and lifted me by my butt. “Wrap your legs around me.”
I did. He climbed onto the bed and laid me down slowly.
The flat position wasn’t the best to be in for too long and I didn’t want anything to ruin this moment. As he leaned down to kiss me, I put a hand on his chest. “Did Wyatt talk to you?”
He frowned.
“About what Bobby said,” I added.
A smile pulled at the corners of his mouth. “Yes, he really enjoyed giving Reid and me a detailed explanation of what Bobby said. Are you uncomfortable?”
I nodded. “I need a pillow.”
He grabbed one and helped put it under my head and shoulders. “Better?”
I nodded again.
He peppered my lips with small kisses as he moved a hand between my legs. His fingers found my opening, and he pushed two inside me. I moaned as I ran my hands up his arms until I reached his shoulders.
Roe leaned back so he could watch me as he continued to pump his fingers in and out. I felt pressure build a little and stop. Then his thumb found my clit.
“Yes. Keep doing that,” I instructed as I closed my eyes.
“I know how to make you come, Lottie.” His lips brushed mine. “But unless you want me to stop, open your eyes.”
I forced them open.
Staring into my eyes, he said, “I want to see what I do to you.”
My bent legs began to shake and press against him as he built me up and up. As if knowing I needed something more to make me explode, he curled his fingers in me.
I cried out as I shattered.
He kissed me as my body shook and his fingers didn’t stop pumping until my orgasm eased. After he pulled them from me, the two with the butterfly across them, he put them into his mouth and sucked them clean.
Finished licking me off of him, he leaned back to reach into his nightstand drawer. As he returned to me, I saw that he’d retrieved a condom. I watched as he sat back on his haunches between my legs and rolled it on.
It was then that I got a good look at Roe’s size. He was more endowed than the first guy I had been with. When Roe crawled back over me, I put my hand on his chest again. “Roe.”
He smiled. “Yes, Lottie?”
“The first guy I was with was a lot smaller than you. As you proceed, please be mindful that I’ve never had something of your size inside me before.”
His smile twitched like he was trying not to laugh. “I promise to be mindful of that.” He grabbed the back of one of my knees, lifting it higher and spreading me open wider as he eased his cock inside me very slowly.
I stretched around him as he went deeper and deeper until he was fully sheathed.
He exhaled heavily, like he had been holding his breath, and cursed.
“I hope you know you’re not going home anytime soon.
” He grabbed the back of my other knee. “I’m going to need you more than once, Lottie.
” Pushing my bent legs up farther and wider apart, he stared down at where we were connected and withdrew.
He groaned at the sight. Then his eyes traveled up, taking in all of me naked beneath him.
“I’ve wanted you for so long. This almost doesn’t feel real. ”
I reached for him. “It’s real.”
He released one of my legs so he could hold himself over me.
Even in this intimate haze we were slipping into, he was being careful with my still-sore body.
Once he was close enough, I framed his face with my hands before bringing his mouth to mine.
We kissed slowly, passionately, and didn’t stop even as he moved in and out of me at a languid pace.
We were so connected in that moment, I also wondered if it was all a dream.
Each roll of his hips ground us together. The build to release was slow and excruciatingly good to the point that tears leaked out of my eyes.
“I’m coming,” I said against his mouth. He swallowed each word and then my moans as I came. My core contracted around him tightly, making him groan, and the pace of his thrusts sped up until his own release hit him.
He pulled away just enough to meet my eyes. He lowered one of my legs until my foot touched the mattress, then brought that hand up to swipe away a trail of my tears.
“You’re mine,” he said. It wasn’t a question this time.
“Yes, but I think I’m also theirs.” I didn’t have to say who.
“I can only share you with them. No one else.”
“I can’t share you with anyone else.” It wasn’t fair, but I just couldn’t.
“There will never be anyone else,” he said before kissing me over my heart. Then he moved down to my nipple. He sucked it into his mouth and made me shudder as he tugged on it with his teeth.
“I want to have you again,” he said against my skin.
I shifted my hips, moving myself on him and making him groan; he had yet to pull out of me. I rolled my hips again as I snaked my fingers into his hair. “Then have me again.”