Devyani begging
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RIVAN couldn't take it anymore.
The sight of her crying
actually breaking apart in front of him
was destroying every wall he had built around himself.
Slowly, carefully, he moved toward her.
His voice was low.
Gentle.
Dangerously soft.
But Devyani immediately shook her head, tears spilling harder.
She backed away weakly, wiping her face desperately even though the tears wouldn't stop.
Her breathing shook violently.
Another sob tore through her chest.
It clearly wasn't.
Her lips trembled uncontrollably.
The moment those words left her mouth
something inside RIVAN snapped.
Enough.
In two quick steps he reached her.
And before she could move away again
he pulled her into his arms.
Firmly.
Completely.
Like he was terrified she'd disappear otherwise.
Devyani broke instantly.
A loud sob escaped her as she clutched him desperately, fingers twisting into his shirt so tightly it wrinkled beneath her grip.
She buried her face into his chest and cried.
God
she cried so much.
The kind of crying that came from somewhere deep.
Raw.
Childlike.
Heartbroken.
RIVAN held her tighter immediately, one hand cradling the back of her head protectively while the other wrapped around her trembling body.
Her words came broken between sobs.
She shook against him violently.
That almost broke his resolve completely.
RIVAN shut his eyes tightly.
Because his own eyes had become wet now.
His throat burned painfully.
But still
he forced himself to stay strong.
His voice cracked slightly.
The moment he said that
she pulled back enough to hit his chest hard.
Another hit.
Her tiny fists slammed against him repeatedly through tears.
RIVAN took every hit silently.
Because he deserved worse.
Another shove.
A sob.
Her voice shattered completely now.
She looked up at him with swollen eyes full of desperation.
RIVAN physically felt his composure cracking apart.
Because she wasn't fighting him out of stubbornness anymore.
She was begging.
Begging to stay.
And God
he wanted to give in so badly.
But instead he grabbed her wrists gently before she hurt herself hitting him more.
His own voice sounded strained now.
That only made her cry harder.
He had no answer she would ever accept.
So instead
he pulled her against him again.
Tighter this time.
Almost crushing her into his chest.
Like if he held her hard enough maybe neither of them would fall apart.
His chin rested against her hair.
Eyes shut tightly.
Breathing uneven.
And for a long moment
they simply stayed there.
Locked together.
Her crying soaking into his shirt.
His silent tears disappearing into her hair.
RIVAN embraced her like a man trying to memorize warmth before freezing forever.
While Devyani clung to him like he was the only home she had ever known.
I don't know how long I cried in his arms.
Maybe minutes.
Maybe years.
Time didn't feel real anymore.
All I remember is holding him so tightly like if I loosened my grip even a little, he would disappear from my life forever.
And maybe...
maybe he already had.
I kept trying.
God, I kept trying so hard.
Explaining.
Begging.
Crying.
Asking him again and again why he wanted to send me away when all I wanted was him.
Just him.
I told him I would study.
I told him I would change.
I even promised stupid things through tears
that I wouldn't trouble him anymore.
Wouldn't fight.
Wouldn't drink.
Wouldn't cling to him.
Would become exactly what he wanted.
Just...
don't send me away.
But every time
every single time
his answer remained the same.
Soft.
Broken.
Gentle.
But still the same.
I started hating that sentence.
Because how could something be important for me if it was killing me like this?
We stayed like that for almost an hour.
One hour of me trying to save us.
One hour of him silently destroying us.
At some point my tears stopped coming properly.
Not because the pain ended.
But because my body became tired.
Exhausted.
Empty.
I could hear his heartbeat beneath my ear while I rested against his chest.
Slow.
Heavy.
Painful.
I wondered if it hurt him too.
Or maybe I was the only one dying here.
That thought hurt the most.
Slowly
I loosened my grip on his shirt.
My fingers felt numb.
Everything felt numb.
Then quietly...
I moved away from him.
The moment the warmth of his arms left me
coldness swallowed me instantly.
RIVAN immediately looked at me.
His eyes were red too.
That almost broke me again.
Almost.
But I couldn't cry anymore.
I didn't have strength left.
I stared at him silently for a few seconds.
This man.
My husband.
My home.
My safest place.
The same man who was now asking me to leave him.
A tiny broken smile appeared on my lips somehow.
Painfully small.
Painfully fake.
My voice sounded strange.
Like it belonged to someone else.
I saw something crack inside his eyes hearing that.
Good.
Maybe now he could feel even one percent of what I was feeling.
My chest hurt so badly.
Like someone had physically ripped something out of me.
I wanted him to stop me.
To say he changed his mind.
To pull me back and tell me he couldn't live without me either.
But he stayed silent.
And silence can kill people.
I understood that tonight.
I nodded slowly to myself.
As if accepting something unavoidable.
Like death.
The word nearly shattered in my throat.
Saying it out loud felt unreal.
London.
Away from him.
Away from this haveli.
Away from my life.
My fingers curled tightly into my saree because suddenly I couldn't breathe properly again.
I loved him so much.
So stupidly much.
And maybe that was my biggest mistake.
Because loving someone this deeply means they hold the power to destroy you completely.
And PATI JI
without even raising his voice
had done exactly that.
I stood up before I could change my mind.
If I stayed sitting near him any longer, I would break completely.
"I'll... pack... my bag," I said, though my voice barely sounded like mine.
My hands felt cold. Weak. I hated that he could probably see how badly I was shaking.
Then HE SAID
The moment those words reached me, my heart betrayed me instantly.
Because yes.
God... yes, I wanted to stay.
I wanted to sit beside him until morning. I wanted to forget every reason I had for leaving. I wanted him to ask me again in that soft voice so I could finally stop pretending I was strong enough to walk away.
But that was exactly why I couldn't stay.
I slowly looked back at him.
"No..." I whispered.
The word hurt more than I expected.
My throat tightened painfully. I could barely breathe around the truth sitting inside my chest.
And that terrified me.
Because I knew myself.
If he reached for my hand right then... I would stay.
If he told me not to leave... I would listen.
If he looked at me like I mattered to him even a little more than before... I would ruin every decision I had spent days trying to make.
So I stepped back.
Slowly.
One step away from him.
Then another.
Each step felt wrong, like my body was resisting what my mind had already decided.
He didn't stop me.
Maybe that hurt the most.
I turned away before he could see the tears in my eyes, pressed my trembling lips together, and walked out of there before my heart could drag me back to him.
I didn't even know where I was going.
The moment I walked away from HIM, my legs started moving faster and faster until I was almost running. The corridor, the lights, the voices around me everything blurred together.
I just needed to get away before I broke down in front of him.
My breathing turned uneven. My chest hurt so badly it felt impossible to inhale properly. I wiped my tears angrily, but they kept falling anyway.
Why did leaving him feel like tearing something out of myself?
I turned a corner too quickly and crashed straight into someone.
Before I could fall, strong hands caught me firmly.
And that was it.
The moment he asked, everything inside me collapsed.
A broken sound escaped my throat before I could stop it. I grabbed his shirt tightly, clutching him like he was the only thing keeping me standing.
I started crying.
Not quietly.
Not gracefully.
Completely.
My whole body shook as I buried my face against him, trying desperately to breathe while tears kept pouring out uncontrollably.
Reyansh immediately wrapped his arms around me protectively. "Hey... hey... what happened?" he asked softly, panic slipping into his voice. "Did someone say something? Did Rivan—"
I shook my head, but I couldn't explain anything.
Because how was I supposed to admit that the person hurting me wasn't cruel to me at all?
That he had simply looked at me with too much love in his eyes... and still let me walk away.
And for the first time since leaving that room, I finally stopped pretending I was okay.
I clutched Reyansh bhaiyya tighter as my entire body shook with sobs. It felt like something inside my chest was breaking apart slowly, painfully, with every breath I took.
"Bhaiyya..." I cried helplessly, my voice cracking completely. "Please..."
He immediately held my face gently, panic and concern flooding his eyes. "Devu... hey, look at me. Breathe first. Slowly."
But I couldn't.
"It's hurting..." I whispered, pressing my hand against my chest as if that could stop the pain. "It's hurting a lot..."
Reyansh's expression broke instantly.
The confession left me shattered.
Because saying it aloud made it real.
Tears blurred my vision again as I shook my head weakly.
Reyansh bhaiyya pulled me against him immediately before I could completely fall apart. One of his hands moved slowly through my hair while the other held me securely, protectively, like he was trying to shield me from every ounce of pain at once.
But the tears wouldn't stop.
"It hurts so much, bhaiyya," I cried into his chest. "Why does it hurt this much?"
He closed his eyes for a moment, his jaw tightening as if seeing me this broken hurt him too.
Then he gently cupped the back of my head and rested his cheek against my hair.
"Because you loved him truly," he said quietly. "And true love always hurts when it feels incomplete."
I cried harder at that.
He didn't tell me to stop loving him.
He didn't tell me I was stupid.
He just stood there holding me together while I fell apart.
"You don't have to be strong right now," he murmured. "Cry as much as you want. I'm here."
My fingers tightened around his shirt desperately.
"I really loved him..." I whispered brokenly.
He swallowed hard before answering softly, "I know, Devu."
And somehow those three words hurt and comforted me at the same time.
Devyani cried harder, her fingers still twisted tightly in Reyansh's shirt as if letting go would make everything worse.
"How can I leave..." she sobbed between hiccups. "Without Maa... Papa... Aru... Adi bhaiyya..."
Her voice kept breaking after every name.
The thought of that little face alone made fresh tears spill from her eyes.
Reyansh's heart clenched seeing her like this.
He gently wiped her tears, though new ones replaced them instantly.
But she only shook her head stubbornly, crying even more.
Still, Devyani looked completely unconvinced.
Her voice cracked so painfully that Reyansh immediately pulled her back into his arms.
"Everyone forget me..." Devyani hiccuped through tears, talking about Kaju. "What if Kaju forgets me?"
"He won't," Reyansh said instantly. "That little kid is obsessed with you."
Despite her tears, a tiny broken laugh escaped Devyani.
"You think your absence will give everyone peace?" Reyansh tried teasing gently.
Another tiny laugh escaped her through tears.
That was all Reyansh wanted right then.
Just enough to remind her she wasn't alone.
He kissed the top of her head softly and kept holding her while she cried, letting her pour every fear, every attachment, every heartbreak out without stopping her even once.
And then she cried harder.
Not silently.
Not softly.
She cried like someone mourning something still alive.
Her fingers clutched his shirt desperately while her entire body shook against him.
Another sob.
Reyansh shut his eyes tightly.
Fuck RIVAN.
Fuck his decisions.
Fuck this entire situation.
Because hearing her cry like this felt unbearable.
He stroked her hair gently.
But Devyani only cried harder.
His jaw clenched painfully.
That sentence nearly destroyed him.
Because there was no anger in her voice.
Only helpless love.
The worst kind.
Reyansh held her tighter while she cried herself breathless in his arms.
Minutes passed.
Then more.
Eventually her sobs weakened into tiny broken hiccups.
Her body had exhausted itself completely.
She looked pale.
Fragile.
Half-conscious from crying too much and eating nothing all day.
No response.
Her head lolled weakly against his shoulder.
Reyansh's expression changed instantly.
He gently pulled back and cursed under his breath seeing her eyes closed.
Without wasting another second, he carefully lifted her into his arms.
She looked heartbreakingly small against him.
Completely drained.
He carried her quietly through the dim corridor toward her room.
Meanwhile
RIVAN had been standing outside from the very beginning.
Hidden in the shadows.
Listening to every sob.
Every broken confession.
And each word had cut deeper than the last.
Especially
I love him so much.
God.
It nearly shattered his restraint right there.
When Reyansh stepped out carrying unconscious Devyani
their eyes met.
The atmosphere turned instantly tense.
Reyansh's expression darkened with fury.
Pure fury.
He carefully adjusted Devyani in his arms before glaring at RIVAN with murderous rage.
RIVAN said nothing.
Could say nothing.
Because Devyani's tear-stained face was right there in front of him.
Reyansh laughed bitterly.
Still silence.
That angered Reyansh even more.
His voice echoed through the corridor.
RIVAN's jaw tightened painfully.
But Reyansh wasn't done.
He stepped closer and hissed,
He stopped himself before saying something unforgivable.
Then finally
he looked at RIVAN with disappointment instead of anger.
And somehow that hurt worse.
One final curse.
Then Reyansh pushed past him and entered Devyani's room.
RIVAN stayed standing outside the door afterward.
Completely still.
Listening quietly while Reyansh laid her on the bed gently inside.
And for the first time in years
RIVAN felt truly helpless.
Morning arrived quietly.
Too quietly for an anniversary.
No decorations.
No laughter.
No teasing from the family.
No excitement.
Just silence hanging heavily inside the room like grief itself had spent the night there.
Devyani slowly opened her eyes.
For a few seconds she simply stared blankly at the ceiling.
Then reality returned.
Today.
Their anniversary.
And also
the day everything would end.
Her chest tightened painfully.
Slowly, she turned her head.
RIVAN was beside her.
Lying on his back, eyes closed, one arm beneath his head.
Looking calm.
Too calm.
But the dark circles beneath his eyes revealed the truth.
He hadn't slept either.
Devyani stared at him silently for a long moment.
Trying to memorize him.
Every feature.
Every scar.
Every tiny detail she was terrified of forgetting.
Then slowly
she moved closer.
Carefully resting her head against his chest.
Immediately she heard it.
His heartbeat.
Slow.
Heavy.
Alive.
RIVAN's eyes opened quietly.
He had already been awake.
The moment her head touched him, his hand instinctively moved into her hair gently.
Neither spoke for a while.
Because both knew words were dangerous now.
Finally Devyani whispered softly,
The question shattered something inside him instantly.
But outwardly
he remained calm.
A tiny trembling smile appeared on her lips hearing that.
She traced a small invisible pattern against his chest absentmindedly.
RIVAN swallowed hard.
"Hmmm."
She waited.
Waited for something more.
But nothing came.
And slowly
her smile faded.
That sentence hurt physically.
RIVAN shut his eyes briefly.
Then only replied softly again
"Hmmm."
That tiny response upset her more than shouting ever could.
Because why was he acting like this was normal?
Like losing her was survivable?
Devyani slowly sat up.
RIVAN immediately sat beside her too.
Then gently
he took her hand into his.
His thumb brushed against her fingers slowly.
Carefully.
Like touching something precious one last time.
He moved loose strands of hair away from her face.
Then leaned forward and kissed her forehead softly.
So softly it almost felt like goodbye.
His voice had become quieter now.
Another pause.
"Eat on time."
His fingers tightened slightly around hers.
For the first time
his voice cracked a little.
A painful smile touched his lips.
Devyani only nodded faintly.
RIVAN looked at her for a very long moment.
Eyes filled with things he would never say aloud.
Then softly
His fingers brushed her cheek gently.
But to Devyani
it didn't feel like a beginning.
It felt like someone slowly burying her alive while asking her to smile through it.
She didn't argue anymore.
Didn't cry.
Didn't beg.
Instead
she quietly leaned forward.
And kissed him.
Softly.
Directly on his lips.
A tiny trembling kiss filled with love and heartbreak and desperation.
RIVAN froze.
He didn't deepen it.
Didn't pull her closer.
Because if he reacted
he knew he would lose every ounce of control left.
When she pulled back slowly
her eyes searched his face one last time.
Then finally
RIVAN whispered hoarsely,
Devyani's breath hitched.
He moved closer, forehead resting lightly against hers.
His voice dropped softer.
A tear slipped down her cheek instantly.
RIVAN wiped it away gently with his thumb.
His own eyes had become red now.
Silence.
Painful.
Beautiful.
Devastating.
Because both of them knew
they would keep loving each other even while breaking apart.
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