Chapter 3 #4
He seemed about to ask something else, when suddenly his eyes narrowed, and he stared at her bare upper arm.
“My lord?” Julia asked, puzzled by his expression.
Before Julia could react, Savage had grasped her arm in his warm, broad hand, and turned it upward toward the light. The smear of paint over the bruise-mark was clearly visible. Julia tried to twist away, spluttering in confusion. “It's nothing…I-I'm perfectly all right…the performance, you see—”
“Hush.” He turned to an approaching servant and brusquely requested a tin of salve from the housekeeper's supply.
Julia watched in dumbfounded silence as Savage dipped the corner of a napkin into a glass of cool water.
She stiffened with surprise as the damp cloth passed carefully over the bruise.
Savage found another dark fingermark, and a shadowy blotch on the tip of her shoulder.
He wiped away the dabs of concealing paint with exquisite care.
A warm rush of color spread over Julia's skin, rising past her throat to her face. No man had ever touched her like this. His face was so close that she could see the grain of dark whiskers in his closely shaven skin, and the thick fan of his lashes.
A pleasant smell clung to him, the scents of cologne and warm skin mingled with starched linen.
His breath was laced with the sweetness of after-dinner wine.
Julia's heart began to thunder as she thought of smoothing her fingertips over his black hair, the neat curve of his ear, the bold sweep of his eyebrow.
She'd had too much to drink. She was dizzy, flushed… she wanted to pull away, and yet…
The servant returned with a small tin of salve, handing it to Lord Savage. As he departed, he closed the door and left them in seclusion.
“There's no need…” Julia began unsteadily. Her voice faded as Savage uncovered the waxen pink salve, which held a strong herbal odor.
Savage's gray eyes lifted to hers. For the first time she noticed the subtle hints of blue and green in their depths. When he spoke, his voice was a shade deeper than usual. “Scott should be more careful with you.”
“He is,” she whispered. “It's just that I bruise very easily.”
His gaze remained fixed on hers as he touched his fingers to the salve and leaned forward.
It seemed as if he was waiting for her to object.
A denial trembled on her lips, but somehow she couldn't make a sound.
She felt his fingers on her arm, smoothing salve over the bruises.
He touched her as if she were made of porcelain, the brush of his skin barely perceptible against hers.
Julia had never guessed that a man could be so gentle.
He moved to her shoulder, tending to the bruise there while she held absolutely still.
Wild impulses flooded her…she wanted to lean against him, to feel his entire hand against her skin, to guide his long fingers over the curve of her breast. She held her breath, willing the feeling to go away, but the craving grew until her nipples drew tight beneath the smooth silk of her gown.
Helplessly she waited for him to finish, staring fixedly at his downbent head.
“Are there any more?” he asked.
“None that I'd care for you to see,” she managed to say.
A smile flashed across his face. He covered the tin and gave it to her. “My gift to you, Mrs. Wentworth. Apparently you'll need more of it before Taming of the Shrew completes its run.”
“Thank you.” Julia picked up her black gloves, discarded at the beginning of dinner, and used them to fan her burning face. “It's very warm in here,” she said lamely.
“Shall we walk in the garden?”
She nodded gratefully and left the dining room with him, crossing an anteroom to a pair of wide French doors that led to a paved garden path. It was dark and cool outside, crisp breezes rustling the leaves of fruit trees and whispering through the hedges.
They walked in silence past dense yew hedges and a line of flowering plum trees.
Near the center of the garden was a large fountain filled with sculpted angels.
Julia paused to admire the scenery, and became aware of a chest-high rose hedge bordering the path.
The blossoms were familiar to her, large bursts of pale pink with an indescribably sweet perfume.
“Summer Glory roses,” she murmured. “My mother's favorite. She used to spend hours in her garden tending them. The most beautiful and by far the most thorny, she told me.”
Savage watched as she leaned close to a rose and inhaled its heady fragrance.
“That particular variety is quite rare, especially in England. It was given to my family a long time ago from…” He stopped, a strange alertness infusing his expression.
“A friend,” he finished. The two words seemed to hang between them, punctuating the air with a question.
All at once the air left Julia's lungs, and she struggled for a replenishing breath.
Summer Glories were indeed a unique variety.
Now that she thought of it, her family's estate was the only other place she had ever seen them.
She realized that in all likelihood her mother Eva was the one who had given the cuttings to the Savages all those years ago.
Before turning into an invalid, Eva had prided herself on her skill at cultivating exotic roses…
she had often made gifts of plants to friends and acquaintances.
Rapidly Julia considered ways to cover up the blunder, and decided to change the subject as quickly as possible. She walked past the shrub with feigned indifference. “Is Lady Ashton aware that I'm here with you tonight?” she asked abruptly.
“Lady Ashton,” Savage repeated, sounding bemused at the unexpected question. He followed her along the path. “No, I haven't told her.”
“If she finds out, will it cause a problem for you?”
“She has no claim on me.”
“Oh, yes…your ‘understanding’ with her…” Julia winced as a bit of gravel slipped inside her silk shoe. She paused and removed the shoe, shaking it to remove the unwanted bit of stone. “Does Lady Ashton entertain hopes of marrying you, my lord?”
“You're asking very personal questions, Mrs. Wentworth.”
“I'm certain she does,” Julia said in answer to her own query. “You're quite an eligible man…aren't you?”
Savage took the shoe from her and bent to replace it on her foot. “I have no intention of marrying Lady Ashton.”
Hopping a step or two, Julia reached for his shoulder to steady herself, making the discovery that there was no padding in his coat.
His muscles felt like oak beneath her palm.
“Why not?” she asked, looking down at the seallike gleam of his hair in the moonlight.
“Doesn't she suit your high standards?” Her breath caught as she felt his fingers on her ankle, gently guiding her foot back into the shoe.
His voice was slightly muffled as he replied. “I intend to marry for love.”
A pang of empathy mingled with Julia's surprise. So underneath his practical, self-controlled exterior there was a private dream, the same dream that had been stolen from each of them. “I wouldn't have expected such a romantic notion from a man like you, my lord.”
“What would you expect of me?”
“That you would marry for convenience and search for love elsewhere.”
“That's precisely what my father did. I'm certain my mother, being a sensible woman, expected nothing else of him, but I believe it hurt her all the same. I swore to myself that I would have something different.”
“That isn't always possible, though.”
“It will be for me.”
How would it be possible? He must have an annulment in mind. He would have to be rid of her before he could consider marriage, unless he thought there was nothing wrong with bigamy.
“How can you be certain?” she asked. “You have no guarantee that you'll find your soul mate.”
“No guarantee,” he agreed, releasing her ankle. “Only hope.”
He stood until he gazed down at her from his full height. His head was above hers, his face cast in shadow. Julia should have let go of his shoulders, but she felt peculiarly off-balance, as if that would mean releasing her hold on the only solid thing in the world.
“We've met before, you know,” he said softly.
The words sent a chill of alarm through her. “You're mistaken.”
“I've never forgotten that night.” His hands were firm on her waist, holding her steady as he stared into her upturned face.
“It was three years ago in Warwickshire. I had walked from the castle to watch the village May Day celebration. I saw you dancing.” He was silent then, watching as her expression changed from bewilderment to recognition.
“Oh,” Julia said faintly. “I didn't realize…” At first she had thought he was referring to their marriage.
Good Lord, so he was the stranger who had kissed her that night!
She lowered her gaze to the center of his chest, remembering how the kiss had haunted her for months afterward.
It was incredible that fate had drawn them together yet again.
“I asked you that evening if you were one of the Savages, and you denied it. Why didn't you tell me who you were?”
“I had no way of knowing how you would react. You might have assumed I would try to take advantage of you.”
“You did—you kissed me against my will.”
A reluctant smile crossed his face. “I couldn't help it. You were the most beautiful woman I had ever seen. You still are.”
Julia tried to pull away, but he kept her anchored against him. “What do you want from me?” she asked unsteadily.
“I want to see you again.”
She shook her head vehemently. “You can't buy another evening with me, even if you purchase the entire Capital Theatre.”
“Why not? Because your husband would object?”
“I've told you I won't discuss him.”
“I won't let you refuse without explaining why you won't see me.”
“Because I have no interest in an affair with you…and given our respective situations, that is the only thing you would be able to offer me.” Julia's blood drummed in a volatile rhythm.
His body was so close to hers, she could hear his breathing, sense his heat, and she was drawn to him like a moth blundering toward a flame.
She wanted to tilt her head back and feel his mouth on hers, and press herself against him.
There had never been temptation like this, a promise of something extraordinary within reach.
But she would not give in to the self-destructive urge. It would be disastrous.
“I won't see you again,” she said, twisting until his hands dropped away and she was set free. “I must leave.” She hurried back to the fountain, and paused at the juncture of two paths.
Savage's voice was just behind her. “This way.” They walked back to the house in silence, seized with a tension that neither seemed able to break.
As the carriage rolled away with its lovely occupant tucked safely inside, Damon wandered alone across the marble floor of the entrance hall. He felt more restless than he had ever been in his life. His mind was filled with her; he relived every moment of the past few hours and craved more.
He wanted her. He wanted her with an unreasoning, blind insistence that raged through every nerve. And he resented her for it.
Slowly he went to the long staircase leading to the top two floors of the house. He stopped at the first landing and sat on the steps. Bracing his forearms on his knees, he stared without interest at the luminous medieval tapestries that covered the wall.
Jessica Wentworth was committed elsewhere.
So was he. They occupied separate worlds.
She was right, there was little he could offer her except an affair.
And there was Pauline to consider. She didn't deserve to be betrayed and abandoned.
What they had together was comfortable and easy, and it had been enough for him… until Jessica Wentworth.
He should put Jessica from his mind, now. It was the only rational choice. But something in him rebelled at the thought. He had never felt so confined, his choices limited by a past that weighed on him like a mile's length of iron chain. He was married to a woman he didn't even know.
If only he could find Julia Hargate, damn her to hell, and cut her from his life once and for all.