Chapter 4 #3
She relaxed visibly, evidently choosing to ignore his implication.
“Naturally,” she said in a much softer voice.
“I knew you wouldn't abandon me, darling.” She reached out for him beseechingly, her red lips parting in invitation.
Damon shook his head and walked toward the Bedroom door.
It took all his self-control to keep from running away from the perfumed prison.
“Damon, we must talk!”
“Later,” he muttered, grateful for every step he put between them. He didn't want to make love or talk…he wanted to stop thinking and feeling, at least for a while.
Madame Lefevrbre's shop was filled with the acrid scents of dye, fabric, and steaming amber tea.
There were other, more lavishly appointed dressmakers' shops in London, with furniture upholstered in velvet and walls covered in gold-framed mirrors, but none attracted the kind of wealthy and discriminating clientele that Madame Lefevrbre did.
Julia loved the enterprising Frenchwoman's simple, flattering designs, as well as the beautiful silks, muslins, and soft wools she used.
Pausing in her consultation with another woman, Madame Lefevrbre came to personally welcome Julia into the shop.
She valued Julia's patronage not only because of her growing celebrity, but also because Julia always paid her bills promptly, unlike the scores of women who had to coax reluctant husbands or paramours to pay for their newest gowns.
“Mrs. Wentworth, you have arrived early for your fitting,” Madame Lefevrbre exclaimed, guiding Julia to a chair by a table laden with stacks of designs, fabric swatches, and dolls outfitted with miniature versions of the latest fashions. “If you wouldn't mind waiting here for a few minutes—”
“Certainly, Madame.” They exchanged a smile, regarding each other with the mutual respect of two women accustomed to providing for themselves. Julia sat in the well-worn chair, declined a cup of tea, and began to browse through the stack of fashion prints.
“I will return for you soon,” the dressmaker said, disappearing behind the muslin curtains that led to the back of the shop.
As Julia lingered over a particular design, a morning gown with a slim silhouette and satin ribbon that crossed over the breasts, she realized that the nearby chair was occupied.
The attractive dark-haired woman picked up a doll and toyed with the tiny frilled ruff around its neck. She glanced at Julia and smiled slightly.
Julia's answering smile dimmed as she realized that the woman was Lady Ashton.
She groaned inwardly, wondering why such an unlucky coincidence would happen to her.
Without doubt, Lady Ashton had found out about her clandestine meeting with Lord Savage by now.
A guilty flush began to creep over Julia's skin, but she reasoned with herself valiantly.
She had done nothing wrong in having dinner with Lord Savage…
and besides, after all these years she was entitled to at least one evening with her own husband!
Lady Ashton possessed a formidable self-composure, seeming not at all perturbed by their chance meeting. “Mrs. Wentworth,” she said in a velvety voice, “how pleasant to see you again.”
Julia managed an agreeing smile. “It's rather a surprise to find you here,” she commented.
“Not so much of a surprise. I insisted that Madame schedule my appointment close to yours. I hoped we would have the opportunity to chat.”
Refusing to let her discomfort show, Julia stared at her with a perplexed arch of one tawny brow.
“How many people admire you, Mrs. Wentworth,” Lady Ashton remarked, setting aside the doll and picking up another.
She slid an appraising glance over Julia's slender form.
“Lovely, talented, and desired by most of the men in London.
I've seen engravings and paintings of you everywhere…
why, you're the most admired actress on the English stage.
I'm positive you could have any man you set your cap for. Who would be able to resist you?”
A tense silence followed, while Julia marveled silently at the woman's acting skill. If Lady Ashton was outraged, hurt, or humiliated, she wasn't revealing a trace of it. “I'm not certain what you mean,” Julia said with a questioning lilt in her voice.
The other woman shrugged. “I suppose I'm trying to say that any other female—myself, for example—would be poor competition for one as celebrated as you.”
Julia looked at her without flinching. “I have no desire to compete with anyone.”
Lady Ashton gave a light laugh, although there was no amusement in her brown eyes. “That's very reassuring. I certainly hope that a woman with all your advantages would never attempt to lure away a man who belongs to someone else.”
Unspoken messages were transferred in their shared gaze. Don't try to take what is mine, Lady Ashton's eyes warned, while Julia replied silently, You have nothing to fear from me.
Eventually Lady Ashton looked away, turning her attention to the lace trim on the doll in her arms. She replaced it carefully on the table. “This is my first visit to Madame Lefevrbre's,” she remarked. “I will require a great many new gowns, I'm afraid.”
“No doubt you'll look very well in anything she designs,” Julia replied mechanically. With a trim, voluptuous shape like Lady Ashton's, she could probably wear sackcloth and make it look fashionable.
“Not for long, I'm afraid.” Lady Ashton patted her flat stomach and glanced down at it fondly. “I'm expecting some significant changes in a matter of months.”
The fashion prints trembled in Julia's hands, and she set them in her lap.
The information struck her like a bolt of lightning, scattering her thoughts into chaos.
My God…a baby…Lord Savage's child. Aware that Lady Ashton was watching her intently, she recovered enough from her confusion to pretend a great interest in a particular design.
She wondered if Lord Savage had known about the pregnancy before, if he knew now, how he felt about it…
Angry, perhaps. And trapped. And most of all, responsible.
He would not callously abandon a woman who was carrying his child.
He had said he had no intention of marrying Lady Ashton…
he wanted to marry for love. That dream was impossible now.
Julia was almost, almost tempted to pity him, but there was no denying that the situation was of his own making.
He and this calculating woman would make a handsome pair, both of them dark and exotic, both possessing an apparently ruthless drive to obtain what they wanted.
Well, Lord Savage would have to deal with the circumstances he had created…and Julia would make doubly certain that she stayed far away from him. Let him and Lady Ashton resolve their own problems…she had her own life to attend to.
To Julia's relief, Madame Lefevrbre's pleasantly chattering voice intruded on her thoughts, bidding her to come to the back of the shop for her fitting now.
She stood and forced herself to smile faintly at Lady Ashton.
“Good day,” she murmured. “I wish you well.” The other woman nodded, evidently satisfied with her morning's accomplishments.
Having recently received a letter from her mother, Eva, Julia knew exactly when her father would be absent from Hargate Hall.
He often went to London to attend club gatherings or meet with his financial advisers.
Julia managed to visit her mother every month or two, seldom missing an opportunity to make the hour-long carriage drive to her family's home.
She was never certain what Eva's condition would be—her health was uneven, sometimes fair, sometimes poor.
Today Julia was gratified to find her mother sitting up in her private receiving room with a light embroidered blanket across her knees.
Eva's complexion was brighter than usual, her expression serene.
A basket filled with half-finished needlework rested on the floor near her feet.
Eva reached out her arms in welcome, and Julia rushed to embrace her.
“You take my breath away,” Eva exclaimed, laughing at Julia's hard squeeze. “My goodness…it seems that something has happened since the last time you came.”
“I've brought a present for you.”
Opening her drawstring reticule, Julia removed the small jewelry pouch and let the glittering ruby pin fall into her palm.
“It was a gift from an admirer,” she said casually.
“I've decided it will suit you far better than me.” She couldn't keep the piece, much as she loved it.
She wanted to dispose of all reminders of Lord Savage.
“Oh, Julia…” Eva exclaimed softly at the sight of the jeweled bouquet.
“Try it on,” Julia urged, pinning the brooch to the white ruffles at her mother's throat. “There…now you'll always have roses with you, no matter what the season.”
“I shouldn't accept this from you,” Eva said, reaching up to touch the delicate pin. “It's much too valuable—and if your father should see—”
“He never notices such things. And if he does, tell him it was left to you by a recently departed friend.” Julia smiled brightly into her mother's worried face. “Don't refuse my gift, Mama. It suits you perfectly.”
“Very well,” Eva said, her expression smoothing out, and she leaned over to kiss her daughter. “You must tell me about this admirer of yours. Is he the reason you seem so animated? Or is it that Mr. Scott has given you the role you desired in his new play?”
“Neither of those things.” Julia stared at her steadily, feeling her cheeks turn pink. “I…I've met him, Mama.”
Eva stared at her uncomprehendingly…and slowly the realization dawned. There was no need to ask who “he” was. Her lips moved soundlessly. “How?” she finally asked in a whisper.
“Purely by chance. I was at a weekend party. I heard his name and turned around, and there he was. He doesn't know who I am. I couldn't tell him.”