CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX
CLOVER
Once we entered the hotel, I was wide awake again. Blaze did the talking as he dealt with the person at the check-in desk. A few minutes later, we were in the elevator on our way up to our room.
Leaving the Gods’ house was probably for the best. We all needed time to decompress. We had brought our problems right to Raina and her guys. That wasn’t what I’d wanted, although I appreciated the way they’d stepped up and helped us handle business.
We entered a room on the fourth floor with a large king size bed and a couch near the window. It was nothing special, but it was clean, so it would do. Cash went around the room double checking everything. He examined the glasses on the table under the mounted TV before pulling back the blankets to scrutinize the sheets.
“Does it meet your requirements?” Blaze smirked, flopping down on the bed.
“Hey, bed bugs are no joke.” Picking up a pillow, Cash smacked him over the head with it.
I stood there staring at the room, trying to decide if I should collapse straight into the bed or force myself through a shower first. When Daire took my hand and steered me to the bed, I let him. My gaze strayed out the window to the city beyond. It was nothing short of a miracle that I was alive.
Daire went to the minibar to peruse the contents. He pulled out a bottle of vodka, holding it up for me to see. “Do you want a drink, Angel? If there’s ever a time to imbibe, it would be now.”
He opened the bottle and tipped it to his lips, drinking it straight. When he passed it to me, I seriously considered downing enough of the bottle to drown out this entire night. As I reached for the vodka, I hesitated.
“No.” I shook my head. “I think I need to feel what I’m feeling right now. It’s healthier for me to process this naturally. It’s not going to be easy. I’m sure over the next few days, it’s really going to hit hard. But it’s better this way. I don’t want to numb out.”
Blaze sat up, scooting closer on the bed. Gently rubbing my back, he said, “That’s smart. You know we’ll be here with you every step of the way.”
“I know.” I nodded, leaning into his soothing touch.
Daire shocked me by saying, “Maybe you shouldn’t be with us. We’ve done nothing but turn your life upside down. We’re a curse on you, Angel, and you deserve better.”
All three of us gaped at him. His words incited a brand new panic inside me.
“What are you saying, Daire?” My voice quivered. “You don’t want to be with me?”
“What the fuck, Daire?” Cash came to sit on my other side.
Daire still sat on the floor in front of the mini fridge. Pain shone in his green eyes. “We bring nothing but danger to you, Clover. When I think about the things you’ve been through because of us, it makes me hate myself. I can’t help but wonder how long it will be until you grow to hate us too.”
I sat stiffly between Blaze and Cash. “I don’t think I like where this conversation is going.”
“Me neither,” Blaze said, eyeing Daire like he might punch him in the face. “What the hell is going on, Daire?”
Setting down the vodka bottle, Daire moved to sit in front of me on the floor. Taking my hand, he clutched it between his.
“I was willing to die for you tonight,” he began. “I love you too much to put you in a position like that again. It kills me to say this, but I think you’re better off without us, Clover. I think it’s time for us to set you free.”
Cash swore while Blaze sat there in stunned silence. My heart ached at the thought of being without them. And yet, everything Daire had said was true. They were the reason I’d encountered so much danger. They had dragged me into their world and it had come at a price.
I peered into Daire’s eyes, finding them filled with agony. He didn’t want this. He felt that he was doing the right thing.
My vision blurred as my eyes pooled with tears. “Is that what you all really want? Be honest with me.”
“Fuck no,” Blaze blurted. “I don’t want that. I want you, Clover.”
“I don’t want to let you go either,” Cash said, turning on the bed to better face me. “However, I understand what Daire is saying. If you decide that life with us isn’t worth the risk, I’d understand. I want what’s best for you, Sunshine.”
I appreciated his honesty, knowing it came from a place of concern. Cash had a good heart. They’d all shown me a deeper side of them. This very conversation was proof of how much I meant to the Angels.
Pinning Daire with an expectant stare, I raised a brow. “And you?”
He swallowed hard, his gaze briefly darting away before flicking back to my face. “No, that’s not what I want. I want you, Angel. Only you. Always.”
I touched the side of his face, my thumb tracing the small lightning bolt tattooed beneath his eye. “Then don’t ever say something like that again. I belong here, with all of you. No part of me wants to be anywhere else.”
Feeling possessive of my men, I grabbed Daire by the throat, pulling him in for a kiss. I understood his intent in trying to set me free. The thing was that I didn’t want to be free. I wanted to belong to them and only them.
I kissed Daire with an intensity that seemed to surprise him. There was a moment of hesitation before he kissed me back, taking my mouth with a wild passion. Slowly, he rose from the floor, pushing me back down on the bed. Prying my hand from his throat, Daire caught the other as well, pinning both to the bed above my head.
“That was the only chance I’ll ever give you to be free of us, Angel,” Daire murmured against my lips. “I’ll spend the rest of my life making sure you never regret your decision to stay.”
“You better.” Straining against his hold, I leaned up to catch his lip between my teeth. I bit down hard enough to make him groan.
Cash and Blaze quickly got on board with the sudden turn of events. They stretched out on either side of me. Blaze plunged a hand into my hair while Cash ran a hand up my side. He palmed my breast, squeezing possessively.
Reaching to take my chin in his hand, Blaze turned my face toward him. He kissed me hard and deep, his tongue delving into my mouth. Simultaneously, Daire moved to nip my throat. Being trapped beneath him with the other two on each side of me felt like bliss.
Once Blaze released his claim on my mouth, Cash was there to seize it. Their kisses were wild and passionate yet also filled with yearning and need. Emotion drove every kiss and touch. We’d all come so dangerously close to losing one another tonight. It had changed something between us, powerfully deepening our bond.
Together the three of them stripped off my clothes. Daire immediately buried his face between my thighs. The hunger in the way he licked me sent shockwaves through my body. Since my hands were now free, I grasped his soft black hair. This moment felt surreal. Mere hours ago I thought we would never be together again. I would never take a moment of time with these men for granted.
Moving in unison, Blaze and Cash each pulled out their hard cocks and knelt next to my head. I happily grabbed hold of each gorgeous erection, guiding one to my mouth and then the other. I alternated between licking and sucking each of them. Their moans fueled me, encouraging me to suck them deeper with each switch from one to the other.
Between my legs Daire licked me closer to orgasm with every sweep of his tongue over my sensitive clit. My legs began to shake seconds before I came, coating Daire’s tongue with my desire.
“You taste so fucking good, Angel. I need to feel your perfect pussy wrapped around me.” Daire rose, stripping off his clothes, his gaze locked on me.
He spread my legs and filled me with his cock. I groaned at the sudden sensation of being stretched wide. Daire moved with an intensity that shook me. Every thrust screamed with emotion. He’d never struck me as the making love type. There was no denying that that’s what this was.
I’d watched this man put a gun to his own head tonight. He’d proven over and over how far he would go for me. They all had. There was nothing they wouldn’t do for me.
With a hand on each of them, I stroked both Blaze and Cash. Their cocks slid through my grasp, their husky moans making my head spin. I would never get enough of these men.
“I fucking love you, Clover,” Daire said, his voice ragged and strained. He came inside me with a deep thrust that made me cry out his name. He pressed a sweet kiss to my lips before pulling away.
Cash claimed me next. Taking Daire’s spot on the bed, Cash flipped me over and pulled me up onto my hands and knees. His hand was warm as he caressed my ass before thrusting inside me from behind.
I braced myself for a wild fucking, but like Daire, he took a more sensual approach. Pressing his chest to my back, Cash reached around me with one arm, sliding it up between my breasts, holding me tight against him.
His closeness was welcome. I felt loved and cherished in his embrace. Every stroke of his body inside mine deepened our connection in every way. My chest swelled with emotion.
Blaze propped himself against the headboard, watching intently. Fisting his cock, he stroked it lazily, anticipation burning in his eyes. Daire was content to watch from the sidelines, happy to let me have my much needed moment with his best friends.
By the time I crawled onto Blaze’s lap, I was ready to cry. I hadn’t expected to love even one man the way I loved the three of them. We’d survived so much together. We were unbreakable now.
Blaze held onto my hips as he pulled me down onto his cock. Our eyes locked as I moved on top of him. He moved with me, thrusting up every time I came down, meeting me in the middle. I fell headlong into his amber eyes, losing myself in him completely.
A tear slipped down my cheek. Without hesitation, Blaze kissed it away.
“I hope those are happy tears,” he whispered, swiping his thumb through another as it fell.
Swallowing hard, I nodded. “The happiest.”
When at last we collapsed on the bed, I was gloriously spent. My chest heaved as I tried to catch my breath. All three of them surrounded me, cuddling in close. Being in the middle of a cuddle puddle like that made me deliriously happy.
Getting to this moment had been a hell of a journey. I’d been changed in more ways than I probably even yet knew. Going forward from here was going to be a challenge in itself, but I wouldn’t change anything.
As painful as the journey had been at times, it had been worth it, and I couldn’t wait to see what lie ahead.