Chapter 19 #2
They went inside. The hallway was bright, Julia had turned the lights on, and Julia was standing at the end of it with her phone in one hand and her blanket still around her shoulders and her reading glasses pushed up on her head.
Tears were running silently down her cheeks.
Julia, who never cried. Julia, who managed royal crises and media firestorms and constitutional emergencies with the surgical precision of a woman who had trained herself out of visible emotion decades ago.
Julia was crying and making no effort to stop, and when Florence looked up from Alexandra's arms and said “Auntie Julia!
" with the delighted surprise of a child who hadn't expected to see a familiar face, Julia pressed her hand over her mouth and nodded and couldn't speak.
They sat on the sofa in the living room: Alexandra holding Florence in her lap, Erin beside them with her arm around Alexandra's shoulders, Julia perched on the armchair opposite, her phone already sending messages but her eyes on Florence, watching the child the way everyone was watching her, as though looking away might make her disappear again.
"Are you all right, darling? Are you hurt? Did anyone hurt you?" Alexandra held Florence's face in her hands and examined her the way she'd examined her as a newborn: every feature, every surface, searching for damage.
Florence shook her head. Her blue eyes, Alexandra's eyes, wide and clear and untouched, looked back at her mother with the guileless confusion of a child who didn't fully understand what had happened.
"No. Nobody hurt me. The ladies who looked after me, they were nice.
They gave me biscuits and read with me and let me play in the garden sometimes. And Grandmama came to visit."
The room went very still. Alexandra looked at Erin. Erin's jaw tightened.
"Grandmama came?" Alexandra kept her voice light. Careful. The voice of a mother asking a question she already knew the answer to and was managing the fury that came with it.
"Yes. On the second day. She came to the house, the first house, not the one Mummy Erin found me in, and she had tea with the old man and then she came up to my room.
She was wearing her blue coat and she smelled of her perfume and she said I was staying with her friends for a little holiday.
She said it was a surprise and that you and Mummy Erin knew all about it.
" Florence frowned slightly, the small crease between her brows that appeared when she was trying to work out whether something was true.
"I asked if I could call you and she said the phones didn't work there.
But I knew that wasn't true because I heard the lady talking on the phone.
And I asked why I didn't have my own clothes and she said the luggage had been lost. But that didn't make sense either because you don't need luggage for a holiday at someone's house. "
Cecilia. Cecilia had visited Florence at Latimer's house.
Had sat down in her blue coat and her Shalimar perfume and had tea with Lord Latimer and then gone upstairs and told an eight-year-old girl that being kidnapped was a surprise holiday.
Had lied about the phones. Had lied about the luggage.
Had looked her granddaughter in the eye and performed the fiction that everything was fine while the child's mothers tore the country apart searching for her.
The rage that rose in Alexandra's chest was so hot and so vast that she had to close her eyes and breathe through it, in and out, slow and measured, the way Erin had taught her years ago when the anger got too big.
She could feel Erin's hand tighten on her shoulder, and the pressure said I know. I know. We'll deal with it. Not now.
"It's all right, darling. You're safe now. That's all that matters."
"Can I see Frank and Tilly? And Hyzenthlay? And the dogs? I really missed Audrey. And Percy. Is Percy all right? Did someone brush him while I was gone?"
"Percy is perfect, darling. He's been waiting for you."
"Good. I was worried about him. The lady at the second house said there were horses but I never saw them." Florence yawned, the wide, unself-conscious yawn of a child whose body was overruling her mind's desire to keep talking. "I'm tired, Mummy."
"I know, love. You can sleep."
Florence nestled against Alexandra's chest, her head beneath her mother's chin, her small body relaxing in the way that children relaxed when they felt safe, all at once, the tension draining from every muscle, the body going soft and heavy with the weight of a child who had stopped being afraid.
Her breathing slowed. Her fingers, which had been gripping the collar of Alexandra's jumper, loosened and went still.
The adrenaline of being found and carried and driven through the dark was wearing off and the warmth of her mother's arms was pulling her toward sleep.
Alexandra held her. She held her daughter in her lap on a beige sofa in a safe house in Surrey and she breathed in the smell of her hair and she listened to her breathe and she thought: Six days. Six days without this. Never again. I will burn the world down before anyone takes this from me again.
Erin reached out and brushed Florence's hair back from her forehead with the careful, bandaged fingers of her damaged hand.
The gesture was gentle and exact and the tenderness of it, from a woman who had spent six days being hard and cold and tactical, who had shut herself behind walls of operational fury and refused to let anyone in, made Alexandra's throat tighten.
Their eyes met over Florence's head and the conversation that passed between them was wordless and complete: We found her.
She's safe. We did it. And everything else, Cecilia, Arthur, Helena, the fear, the fury, the distance between us, we will deal with it. Together.
Julia appeared in the doorway. She'd been on the phone in the kitchen, her voice low and efficient, coordinating the logistics that would take them home.
Her eyes were dry now, the tears replaced by the composed professionalism that was Julia's natural state, but there was something softer in her expression, a warmth that the crisis had stripped away layers of reserve to reveal.
"Vic's been called. She's getting the children up.
Frank apparently woke himself and has been asking questions since midnight.
Vic says he knew something was happening.
Matilda is still half asleep but she'll be ready when we arrive.
Hyzenthlay is already dressed." Julia paused, and the warmth in her voice cracked open into something raw and real.
"The convoy is ready when you are. Do you want to go home? "
Florence stirred against Alexandra's chest. Her eyes opened, half-lidded, heavy with sleep, but bright with the particular alertness of a child who had heard the word home and recognised it as the thing she'd been waiting for.
"Home?"
"Home, darling."
"With Frank and Matilda and Audrey and Percy?"
"With everyone. The whole family. All the dogs. All the horses. Everything."
Florence smiled. It was the first smile Alexandra had seen from her daughter in six days and it was small and sleepy and perfect, the smile of a child who had been promised the thing she wanted most, and it broke Alexandra's heart and healed it in the same breath.
Erin's hand found hers and their fingers locked together over Florence's sleeping body and the three of them sat in the warm circle of the lamp's light, mother and mother and daughter, together again, and outside the window the sky was beginning to lighten at the eastern edge, the first thin line of grey pressing against the darkness like a promise kept.
"Yes please," Florence said. Her voice was drowsy, her eyes already closing again, her body settling deeper into Alexandra's arms. "I want to go home."