Chapter 10
Chapter Ten
Trevor
The house swallows us whole. That's what it feels like, stepping back through the side door after a morning spent staring at a beige box with drawn blinds and a dead wind chime — like the walls have been waiting, patient and hungry, and now we're back inside the belly of something that's been digesting us for years.
I beat him by thirty seconds. Long enough to pour water I don't want, set the glass on the counter I've been leaning against since I walked in, and settle into the posture of a man who's decided something and is waiting for the rest of the room to catch up.
Arms crossed. Jaw set. The good knee taking the weight because the bad one's throbbing after a morning in the truck, and I'm not giving it the satisfaction.
Cole's keys hit the counter like they've been thrown.
They skid — a sharp metallic scrape — and come to rest against the pill organizer, which sits in its spot because God forbid anything in this house exist in the wrong place for more than five minutes.
The sound hangs in the air. Deliberate. Angry.
The kind of noise you make when words aren't cutting it and you need something with a harder edge.
Neither of us speaks. The ceiling fan in the living room turns its lazy, useless circle.
July heat that doesn't break so much as settle, becoming something you wear instead of something that happens to you, and right now it's wearing both of us like a second skin.
Sweat runs from my temple down my neck. I let it.
The discomfort is almost welcome — something to focus on besides the hollow that's been widening in my chest since we pulled away from Tally's curb and left that house doing its impression of empty, neither one of us buying it.
The dead weight of a wasted Sunday presses on the linoleum.
I've felt it before — night patrols that yielded exactly what they were built to yield, which was nothing, and the nothing had its own weight, its own way of sitting in your chest and reminding you that some searches end the way they start: empty-handed.
Cole stands at the sink. Back to me. His shoulders tight under the gray t-shirt, the fabric dark between the blades.
His hair pushed back the way it gets when he's been dragging his hands through it, which means he's been thinking, which means whatever's coming was rehearsed in the cab during the twenty minutes of silence we just shared, and rehearsed arguments land hardest because they've had time to find the soft spots.
I break first. Not because I want to — because someone has to, and Cole can outwait a statue if the statue has something he wants.
"We've hit a wall." Flat. Stripped of ceremony.
A tactical assessment, the kind you deliver when the intel's dried up and the options have narrowed to bad and worse.
"Tally's gone cold. Whatever she had — whatever she was going to give us — it's not happening.
Not today. Maybe not ever." I uncross my arms. Plant my palms on the counter's edge.
The Formica is warm, holding the day's heat like the walls are hoarding it for a winter that's months off and killing us now.
"Pushing harder gets one of us hurt. Maybe both. Maybe worse."
Cole turns. Not fast — slow, deliberate, a man turning because the turning is just physical confirmation of a decision he made miles ago.
His eyes find mine across the kitchen. Very blue.
Very hard. Fixed on me until the hair stands up on my arms, and what's in them isn't surprise.
It's the look of a man who's been waiting for exactly this kind of surrender with a response loaded and ready.
"Hit a wall." He says it like he's tasting it, testing the shape against his teeth.
Low. Controlled. Dropped to just above a whisper, which makes it worse — all that heat with nowhere to go.
"We knocked on one door, Trevor. One. And because nobody answered, your takeaway is we've hit a wall.
" A short, dry sound that isn't a laugh.
"Marine efficiency. I respect it. I also think it's bullshit. "
He moves. Paces the sticky linoleum — three steps toward the living room, a sharp pivot, three back — each footfall landing with the weight of a man carrying something he didn't ask for.
His hands loose at his sides. Not clenched.
Not yet. But the looseness is deliberate, the kind that tells me he's holding back by choice and the choice is costing him.
"Tally didn't flake. Tally got scared. There's a difference.
" He's moving again, toward the garage door, pushing through without looking back, his voice carrying through the doorway, lower but no less sharp.
"And 'wait and see' is just another way to say doing nothing — which you've had a lot of practice with, so I get the appeal. "
I follow. Not because he's asking — because staying in the kitchen means letting this conversation happen through a doorway, and doorways have been the problem between us since we were kids sharing a bed and pretending not to notice how the heat between us worked.
The garage hits me like a closed fist. Motor oil and metal and concrete that never dries, plus the sour note of old coffee from the mug Cole left this morning.
The bulb's off. He doesn't flip it. We stand in the wedge of yellow spilling from the kitchen doorway, the light not reaching the far wall, and the notebooks are on the bench where I left them, and Hannah's card sits at the edge, her name face-up in the half-dark, and the sight of it does something to my chest I won't name.
Cole plants both hands on the workbench. Back to me. His shoulders rigid, the muscles in his neck standing out like cables, and for a second I think he won't turn. Might just let the silence do the work words can't.
He turns.
"You don't get to walk back into this town after ten years and tell me how the investigation works.
" Still low. Still controlled, which makes it worse, because the control is a choice and the choice is a weapon and we both know it.
"You don't get to sit in my garage one night, read my notebooks without asking, and decide we've hit a wall because one witness went quiet. That's not how this works."
I step closer. Not crowding — closing distance, the way you do when the space between you is too charged to leave alone.
The garage is narrow, built for one man at a bench, not two standing chest to chest with ten years of history packed into the foot and a half of concrete between them.
I can smell him — motor oil and sweat and something underneath that's his alone, warm and human, that I've spent a decade trying to forget.
"I'm not telling you how the investigation works.
I'm telling you how people work." My voice drops to match his.
"Tally's scared. Not nervous — scared. The kind that means somebody got to her between Tuesday and today, made it clear that talking carries a price, and she decided the price was too high.
Push on that and you get a door slammed in your face.
Or worse. And worse is on the table here, Cole.
You know it is. Calloway didn't get where he is by letting people ask questions he doesn't want answered. "
Something cracks in his face. Not into anger — into something rawer, the look of a man who's carried this alone for two years and just got reminded the carrying has consequences, and it lands where it hurts because it's true.
"You can't save this town." Softer than I mean it.
Not gentle — resigned. A man stating a fact he wishes weren't one.
"It doesn't want to be saved. Some places, some people — they're past where saving is an option.
They're in damage control. And damage control means knowing when to push and when to hold, and right now holding is the move. "
He goes still. Not the angry stillness from the doorway — something deeper, colder, a quiet with weight. His eyes hold mine, and for a second I think he won't answer.
Then: "You've let things be your whole life.
" Quiet. Almost gentle, which is how I know it'll hurt before it lands.
"Standing in doorways. Watching. Doing the arithmetic on whether getting involved is worth the cost, and deciding, every time, that it isn't." A pause.
His eyes don't leave mine. "The war didn't change that.
Coming back didn't change that. You're running the same calculus, Trevor.
The only difference is now you're running it in my garage, with my case, and calling it concern. "
It lands. Clean. Precise. Aimed where it does the most damage, which is everywhere, because he's not wrong.
I stood in doorways and watched Wade happen.
I watched Cole happen — the belt, the closed fist, the way he pressed himself to the wallpaper with the blue flowers and went somewhere else behind his eyes.
I stood there. I did nothing. Then I left.
I go still. The way a man goes still when something hits the exact right nerve — not flinching, just stopping, like the body's decided movement is too dangerous and the safest thing is to become stone.
Cole clocks it. I see the flicker, the moment he knows he scored, and he doesn't back off.
Doesn't give an inch. He steps closer, and now we're chest to chest in the narrow garage, close enough that I can see the tension in his throat, the way his Adam's apple moves when he swallows.
Close enough to feel the heat coming off him through the thin cotton, and the space between us shrinking by the second.