Chapter 14 The Wedding #2
She reached past him and pulled the curtains closed.
The carriage rocked gently on the road. Inside, Elizabeth kissed her husband for the first time as his wife, and the kiss was different from every kiss that had come before: unhurried, unafraid, carrying the particular sweetness of legitimacy.
They had stolen every previous moment. This one was theirs by right.
They arrived at Pemberley as dusk was falling, the house lit from within, the staff lined up in the entrance hall.
Mrs. Reynolds greeted Elizabeth as Mrs. Darcy with a warmth that made the title feel not like a mantle but like a welcome.
Georgiana ran to Elizabeth and hugged her with the unceremonious enthusiasm of a girl who had gained a sister and intended to celebrate.
The evening was quiet. Dinner with Georgiana, who tactfully retired early with a smile that was equal parts genuine affection and strategic retreat. Then the house settled, and the servants withdrew, and the master and mistress of Pemberley were alone.
The master bedroom was large and warm, fire burning, candles lit, the heavy curtains drawn against the winter night. The four-poster bed dominated the room with the particular authority of a piece of furniture that had been the site of dynastic beginnings for generations.
Elizabeth stood in the center of the room and looked at the bed and then at Darcy and then back at the bed.
"That is a very large bed," she said.
"You said the same thing about the house."
"I am a woman of consistent observations."
He laughed. The sound filled the room, warm and unguarded, and she realized she would never tire of hearing Fitzwilliam Darcy laugh, because every time he did it, it was a small miracle, a proof that the marble man she had met at the assembly had become something human and wonderful and hers.
"Come here," she said.
He came. She reached for his cravat, untying it with the expertise of a woman who had now untied it several times and was becoming proficient.
He shrugged off his coat. She unbuttoned his waistcoat.
The ritual of undressing him had become familiar, but tonight it carried a different weight: there was no urgency, no danger of discovery, no garden beneath them or servants beyond the door.
There was only time, and privacy, and the extraordinary freedom of two people who belonged to each other completely.
"We are married," she said, pulling his shirt over his head.
"We are."
"No one is going to interrupt."
"No one."
"I cannot tell you how long I have wanted someone to not interrupt."
He kissed her, laughing into her mouth, and the combination of desire and humor was intoxicating, and she kissed him back, smiling, and they undressed each other between kisses and laughter and the occasional fumbled button that produced a muttered apology and a grin.
When they were bare and the firelight painted them in amber and shadow, he lifted her and carried her to the absurdly large bed and laid her down with a reverence that was not solemn but joyful, the reverence of a man who understood that the woman in his arms was not a fragile thing to be handled with caution but a partner, an equal, a match.
"I love you," she said, because the words bore repeating, especially now, especially here, in this bed, in this house, at the beginning of this life.
"I love you," he said, and kissed her, and the night opened before them like a book they would write together, page by page, in the language of skin and breath and the quiet, devastating honesty of two bodies that had learned each other in stolen moments and were now free to learn each other fully.
They made love slowly. There was no reason to rush.
No locked doors to fear, no dawn deadline, no conscience to battle.
They had all night and all the nights after it, an embarrassment of time, and they spent it lavishly: exploring, discovering, pausing to laugh when his knee caught the bedpost, when she got tangled in the sheets, when he found a spot below her ribs that made her shriek and then dissolve into breathless laughter.
"That tickles," she gasped.
"I am filing that information for future use."
"You are insufferable."
"You married me."
"A decision I am currently questioning."
"Liar."
She pulled him down and kissed the smile off his face, and the laughter became something deeper, something that built and crested and broke like a wave, and when she cried out, it was his name, and when he followed, it was hers, and the sound of it -- their names, spoken in love, in the bed that would be theirs for the rest of their lives -- was the most beautiful music either of them had ever heard.
Afterward, they lay tangled in the sheets, her head on his chest, his hand tracing lazy patterns on her back. The fire had burned low. The candles had guttered. The room was warm and dark and full of the particular stillness that follows a storm.
"Fitzwilliam."
"Hmm."
"I have a confession."
"Another one?"
"When you first asked me to dance at the Netherfield Ball, I thought you were the most arrogant, disagreeable man I had ever met."
"I was."
"You were also the most handsome man in the room, and I hated you for it."
He laughed softly. "I thought you were the most beautiful woman I had ever seen, and I said you were merely tolerable, and I have regretted it every day since."
"Tolerable." She pressed her lips to his chest. "I will remind you of that for the rest of your life."
"I expect nothing less."
She smiled against his skin. Outside, the Pemberley grounds lay silver under the moon, the lake a mirror, the house a fortress of warmth against the winter night.
Inside, in the master bedroom, in the bed that had held generations, the newest Darcy pressed her hand against her husband's heart and felt it beat, steady and strong, a rhythm she would learn to sleep to and wake to and live by.
For the first time in her life, Elizabeth Bennet -- Elizabeth Darcy -- was exactly where she was meant to be.